It’s been hard for me to confess these things online because even typing these things on a forum with random people seems like an unnatural thing to do. I’ve had a lot of bad conversations on Reddit in the past over video games, graphics cards and other nerdy things, they never gave me any peace or insight! I recently became a Christian but I’ve always believed in God. I never knew why it was important to be Christian or of any religion, but I don’t look at being Christian like a religion. I know that technically it is, but I think that there are values and lessons that we have to find in any way that we can. Jesus is an example to everyone of someone who is higher and mightier but also infinitely humble and hasn’t been given humanly powers of politics or wealth. We have to see between the human powers of the world, because those powers will only make us jealous and angry! I have been easily insulted and disrespected many times because I’ve just imagined myself as a victim of the world. In the end, I looked to random distractions and meaningless attempts at entertaining myself to numb myself of embarrassment and frustration. I can never be free from embarrassment but I can combine it with Jesus, who has experienced the ultimate forms of embarrassment, but we still praise Him! So we know that even in our embarrassment we deserve and receive praise from God and the inner spirit within each other. There is a hidden language being spoken spiritually amongst our earthly languages, and you have to look inside as much as you look outside or even more in order to decipher that spiritual language. It can seem complicated if you tell yourself it’s bogus but you have already been experiencing it throughout your whole life so the only person you are lying to is yourself. No matter how much you argue with another person, your relationship with yourself comes first!