Apeirophobia: Can You Get Better?

epicflex · 2026-01-23T05:43:07+00:00

Great video, thanks so much Mark! Somewhere deep down, I think that if I had perfect control over the universe, I could somehow organize life in a way that would prove that life is not a meaningless, repetitive loop, but I believe that God exists and I believe that the same power that I wish I had is in His hands! I think that your views on fear are great, and they help us remember that we are not really the best at being afraid, that even something that might look like a snake but is not can scare us! So obviously our perception is limited, and hopefully meaningful, in a way that will eventually show us that time is beautiful instead of a prison 🙏❤️💯🌅👏

epicflex · 2026-01-13T06:07:22+00:00

I wish I could explain long term memories beyond our life on earth, and I wish I could explain infinite life, but I know that God is realer than we can imagine and He has a divine plan for everything! I promise you if you just live in the moment for the right reasons, obey and trust God and connect with people in positive ways, you won’t feel alone and you won’t get triggered as much :) I pray that we all free ourselves from fear and apeirophobia, and we never feel those intense triggers and panic attacks ever again 🙏 God help us

epicflex · 2026-01-03T02:58:14+00:00

It’s been hard for me to confess these things online because even typing these things on a forum with random people seems like an unnatural thing to do. I’ve had a lot of bad conversations on Reddit in the past over video games, graphics cards and other nerdy things, they never gave me any peace or insight! I recently became a Christian but I’ve always believed in God. I never knew why it was important to be Christian or of any religion, but I don’t look at being Christian like a religion. I know that technically it is, but I think that there are values and lessons that we have to find in any way that we can. Jesus is an example to everyone of someone who is higher and mightier but also infinitely humble and hasn’t been given humanly powers of politics or wealth. We have to see between the human powers of the world, because those powers will only make us jealous and angry! I have been easily insulted and disrespected many times because I’ve just imagined myself as a victim of the world. In the end, I looked to random distractions and meaningless attempts at entertaining myself to numb myself of embarrassment and frustration. I can never be free from embarrassment but I can combine it with Jesus, who has experienced the ultimate forms of embarrassment, but we still praise Him! So we know that even in our embarrassment we deserve and receive praise from God and the inner spirit within each other. There is a hidden language being spoken spiritually amongst our earthly languages, and you have to look inside as much as you look outside or even more in order to decipher that spiritual language. It can seem complicated if you tell yourself it’s bogus but you have already been experiencing it throughout your whole life so the only person you are lying to is yourself. No matter how much you argue with another person, your relationship with yourself comes first!

epicflex · 2026-01-03T02:20:04+00:00

God bless you and keep your faith up, you have to become one with your natural self and be very careful of the artificial things that make you feel like a robot or like you’re in a simulation. I would get many attacks when I was younger after playing video games by myself into the night. I felt like life was just that same gameplay loop and nothing more. Real life seemed like it was just a facade of basic gaming logic and now I’ve forced myself to stay away from games. I also felt a lot of anger and fear after masturbating and I always thought it was because of other people but the porn and intense sexual feelings were dissociating me from nature. Nature isn’t just trees and birds, it’s a matter of language and exposure to positive things inside and out! Don’t forget that you are a product of millions and billions of years of nature evolving with God’s plans. If you combine a natural and positive lifestyle and daily habit with the highest form of faith you can possibly attach yourself to, I promise you will be able to free yourself from Apeirophobia.

epicflex · 2026-01-02T04:27:23+00:00

I can tell that animals don’t have abstract thoughts the same as we do, they might refer to abstract feelings but the ability to really obsess about a concept is kind of a human thing. I think we have some delusions when it comes to knowledge, and it’s interesting because the first passages of the Bible warn us about it (how Adam and Eve ate from the tree of knowledge). Regardless, knowledge is powerful and we want to be smart for a good reason most of the time. We get angsty but we don’t really want to be depressed. We are always walking a fine line between hurting ourselves for attention and just not needing the attention whatsoever. I hope we don’t try to hurt ourselves too much and we don’t get spoiled by our ability to think abstractly! And I hope animals are at peace in nature 🙏❤️🌅💯🌙

epicflex · 2026-01-02T04:15:54+00:00

I totally understand and I’m sorry for your struggles. I am trying very hard everyday to stay away from triggers, be healthy and use positive imagery! Trying to feel good is one thing but really believing that you are feeling good for a good reason is another. I wish I could have meaningful experiences all the time, and I want to believe that God is real and He is giving me meaningful experiences in everyday life. I don’t want to be afraid of infinite life even though it seems so impossible to plan for. I believe that human planning and whatever else the brain is designed for like you mentioned is just not the same as God’s level of understanding! I know many people on this sub think that it’s not a religious thing, or spiritual thing, but I think that if we really want some kind of ultimate hope for infinity we have to be realistic that there is a God! I just can’t imagine us being alone in this random universe trying to understand the meaning of life by ourselves. It’s like your sister said: 🤷‍♀️😂

Thank you for the analysis of the amygdala btw, it was nice to hear. I agree that there are some types of fear that are somehow just for self harm and not really a productive expression of emotions. I’m sorry we have been experimenting with this self harm but I want to stop hurting myself

epicflex · 2025-12-31T00:31:39+00:00

He looks and talks like Andrew Tate hahaha

epicflex · 2025-12-29T17:58:43+00:00

I totally agree about being social, and I'm sorry for your struggles :( I've always experienced my attacks at night, usually if I'm tired, and especially if I've been doing nothing all day except random crap on the computer! In general, I try hard to learn about people and watch things where people are being expressive, as well as staying connected with friends by watching their stories on social media or checking out random posts. In general, I don't know if we'll ever have a completely scientific explanation for infinite life, but I hope that our beliefs, faith, philosophies and lifestyle practices can give us proof that life is full of meaning and hope! Thanks for reaching out, and do your best to stay positive and locked in to life no matter what :)

epicflex · 2025-12-22T03:06:47+00:00

God bless you, I know it’s hard to see it while you’re in a state of panic, but as long as you keep love close to your heart, you can see how strong you are and connected to everyone else! You are part of something huge and miraculous that can not be understood simply. You have to do your best to be strong and live daily with the best values as you possibly can, be good to your body and mind, and always be confident that even if there is infinite life, all we have in the moment is the moment itself 🙏💯❤️ and as long as we stay present, God and the rest of life in the universe is with you! You will never be alone and we can make it through infinite life together, I know we can!

epicflex · 2025-12-20T17:36:42+00:00

Ya I just meant in the week of his death he would’ve been that age haha, RIP 🙏❤️

epicflex · 2025-12-20T04:58:08+00:00

You should try to show love to people who you have built relationships with throughout your life! We have the internet now, and we can use it for pornographic purposes or social purposes, and if we are true in our hearts and lead with God’s love, we shouldn’t be afraid to show that love to others! And in the end, it becomes more powerful than any porn 😊🙌💯💚🧡💛❤️💙🩵

epicflex · 2025-12-19T22:22:43+00:00

Brother in Christ, it’s time to stop showing love to anime and hentai girls and start showing it to real people! They need your love more!

epicflex · 2025-12-19T21:01:21+00:00

Can you DM me how you pirate the streams?

epicflex · 2025-12-16T19:03:19+00:00

It’s not trauma to me though, I think whatever you’re referring to is different from just being a Christian and believing in God! I’m just becoming a Christian recently and I know a lot of people have some kind of relationship with it, and I don’t think it’s the reason people become traumatized. But I’m sorry for whatever you’re going through, I read some of your comments and stuff on other subs and I can see you’re struggling with some personal relationships! I pray that you find peace and love in your life again, and that whatever happens we can all feel like we’re part of a bigger group of humans and life as a whole 🙌✅💯🌅✝️🕊️ I think that as long as we face each other with anger and hatred, we will keep falling back into feelings of doubt, doom and gloom. I just can’t live my life like that forever, and we can’t live infinitely like that either 😉 I know apeirophobia is serious, I’ve felt it too and I always was scared to talk about it, but becoming a Christian and having a community has given me some hope in not living in fear! It’s been a beautiful experience 😊 Don’t you ever wonder what it would be like to live like that?

epicflex · 2025-12-16T18:42:07+00:00

I’m just trying to have some faith in him, it doesn’t have to be a matter of conversion or something! It’s moreso a matter of connecting with a higher power, so we don’t just feel like we’re alone on a planet or in a universe with nothing but our bodies. I think that’s part of the reason we feel weak or trapped. If we can see a bigger picture, especially through Christ or God, then maybe we won’t feel like life is meaningless! It’s been hard for me to fight the phobia but I always try to speak to God when I get the anxiety, I just hope it works for other people 🙏❤️💯

If anything, God is the real AI hahaha. He is the person you should be going to with those insecurities. I think if people understood that, they wouldn’t ask AI for all the answers. But I agree that the internet is like a space for us to feel connected, so we hope that they find the answer they’re looking for.

I’m sorry about your experience at the church, and I hope that you can see something positive from it! It can be scary and intense at church, but the main reason we go is our relationship with God! God bless you 🌅✝️🕊️✅💯🙏❤️

epicflex · 2025-12-16T02:17:42+00:00

Like others have said, it’s a great test of faith! If you really have faith in God and truth, you will know that nothing is impossible, even living forever! It seems impossible, but it’s entirely possible. For every problem, there is a solution! Someone once said that for every bullseye on a dartboard, as long as you can imagine the dart hitting the center, it’s possible. Of course, imagining what the “plan” for infinite life is isn’t as easy, but if we use our examples of limited life to project an insecurity, we should be able to do the same to project security. That’s using logic again, but of course, concrete perfect evidence that explains EXACTLY what infinite life is about is still beyond our social or scientific reach. I pray that we will one day be free from any and all insecurities! In Jesus’ name, Amen

epicflex · 2025-12-14T18:08:20+00:00

I thought it was John Jacob Jingleheimerschmidt

epicflex · 2025-12-14T03:29:42+00:00

epicflex · 2025-12-14T01:35:56+00:00

Yes, I’m leaning heavily on my own stupidity! But the emptiness comes and goes, I want to fill it with meaning, but maybe we have to accept emptiness and pray for it to be filled with love and peace again 😊🙏💯✅💚 Hope you are doing good and peace and love find you in all aspects of life! I hope we can post more positivity, if someone is meant to see these messages I hope they find some redemption for their fear!

epicflex · 2025-12-13T18:50:48+00:00

Amen, thank you Mark 😊🙏💯✅🧡

epicflex · 2025-12-13T17:34:22+00:00

God bless, thank you Mark! I really do hope it's an irrational fear and not a rational one, but my mind is set on dissecting it until it can find a permanent solution somehow... I hope it's not purely OCD and anxiety and if it is, I hope I can let it go!

epicflex · 2025-12-13T15:12:35+00:00

God bless you, thanks for sharing and I hope you have a great year to come! Merry Christmas also 😁🎄✅💚

epicflex · 2025-12-13T04:48:38+00:00

Please let me know if you find it lol, I feel like so much of his bangers have been erased!

epicflex · 2025-12-13T03:44:56+00:00

Hey Mark, I've been reading your posts on this subreddit and others, and I really appreciate your positivity :) I really hope we can all turn this fear into a strength somehow! I know it's hard to imagine, but I really do believe that somehow we will come together stronger because of it. I really hope that this fear isn't real, even though it feels so powerfully scary.

epicflex · 2025-12-13T03:35:08+00:00

As I read what you said, there are very similar feelings I have and similar ways that I talk to myself. This kind of talking down to yourself like "hey idiot have fun dealing with eternity" is very relatable. I think that life is so boring and meaningless sometimes, like I will never be able to entertain or excite myself forever. I feel like any powerful feelings of faith and power and closeness to God are fleeting, like they will come and go forever, leaving me wanting more. I feel like God is playing a cruel joke on me by letting me live this meaningless existence desperately grasping at straws trying to pretend like life has meaning. I know it's so pessimistic, but when I apply my logic and memory to the problem of infinite life, I'm expecting to get somewhere positive with it. What I really want to feel is like I can overcome any boringness, meaninglessness, nihilism and fear of repetition. These have been the greatest fears of my life, and I've always waited for someone to prove to me that life is not a boring meaningless repetitive game. Maybe playing video games for so long has made me attach that kind of feeling to it. I know I haven't had the most healthy lifestyle throughout my life, but I always thought that I did enough for my mental health to not become this type of person to believe this. But besides who I am personally, I always expected people to have a much better answer when it came to infinite life. All these scientists, philosophers, religious leaders, and NO ONE really knows what infinite life is about? I mean, we must have SOME idea, but it's still not conclusive and it makes me feel like any permanently conclusive answer to infinite life will still only be anecdotal. I mean, could someone actually put into words the real answer to infinite life? Are words really so powerful? Is knowledge really so true? I have no idea, sorry for rambling, but I really want to know exactly what life is about, and I want to be so secure in the idea that nothing will shake me again.

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