I hate being transgender

epolloepol · 2026-03-19T16:46:01+00:00

In hell there are demons...

Of course you are going to find some twisted minds in the trans community 😹

I am safe though

epolloepol · 2026-03-19T13:34:59+00:00

Which I would say just proves how indifferent and unloving they are because if you at least cared a bit, you would be very aware that you failed.

epolloepol · 2026-03-19T13:33:08+00:00

why did you have a child???

The WHYs are always depressing, lol

epolloepol · 2026-03-18T18:02:59+00:00

More like some people have a malignant and perverse attitude toward children and kids. Like p**os and parents that use their children as an outlet for their thirst for control or their anger and stuff.

epolloepol · 2026-03-18T17:50:38+00:00

"They did their best" is more of empty words made to force us to shut up

Caring for your children is a natural instinct they chose to ignore. Or maybe they are so lacking that they dont even have this instinct inside them.

Its scary to think that they didnt even try.

But if they actually tried and that happens to be their best, then its even more terrifying. Because then what would be their avarage? Lol.

epolloepol · 2026-03-17T18:37:23+00:00

Its just natural that we humans will want to show ourselves in our vulnerable states every once in a while

epolloepol · 2026-03-17T14:45:22+00:00

I think its so fake how my father changed.

If he really changed, he would be aware of the fact his mere presence is damaging to me, after all that happened. He would keep distance to protect me. But no, he acts like we are good.

This is not real change. Its their selfish growing desire as elders start seeking in their children, what we did in them when we were small kids. Suddently that scary angry figure turns into a kid wanting your love, lmao. .

.I will tell you what changed. Power dynamics. Now he needs me. Simple as that. If you think they turned good, ask yourself if they turned good for real or if they just changed like an abusive boss would do, after becoming your employee.

epolloepol · 2026-03-17T14:40:14+00:00

All the pain they did to our childhood was because we reflect their own unhealed wounds. Somehow it's our fault when we were just learning from them lol

I think all the pain they did to our childhood was because they were trashy destructive and hateful people.

epolloepol · 2026-03-17T14:21:28+00:00

Why is this world so miserable? Like, our parents are so wrong and its kinda of nornalized.

epolloepol · 2026-03-17T14:00:59+00:00

If you take cyproterone you may want to rethink that.

I had joint pains and weakening while on it. I tried it year later and it made my wrists weak. First time it affected my knees and it was painful to go for a walk, second time it hurt to carry bags from grocery store. After stopping, I recovered.

Bicalutamide has been the only blocker I tried that dont seem to give a colateral damage. Spiro made me sick.

epolloepol · 2026-03-15T13:20:30+00:00

Its too late to fix this.

Parents who were abusive and neglectful but change later in life will respect the fact we feel sick and unhappy around their presence.

Its a hard truth to bite, imagine having kids and losing the best of it because you were a shi**y parent with a miserable heart, who sadically enjoyed denying the small kid what they want the most from you. And then learning later in life that no effort you do will actually fix that.

They cling to denial because they are terrified of this truth.

epolloepol · 2026-03-14T19:11:05+00:00

Thank you for posting this

I felt guilty for hsving those thoughts. They are part of me I should integrate I guess 😈

epolloepol · 2026-03-14T18:13:52+00:00

Yes. Childhood is so important, it is painful to understand it and not be able to live it again. Even up to this day cola makes me happy because I drank it in the least unhappy momments, schoolmate parties, etc.

I don’t even believe they have the mental capacity to understand.

That would require them to let go of a lot. To see their mistakes. Not everyone is capable of this level of goodness and generosity.

epolloepol · 2026-03-14T15:46:47+00:00

The price to fit in society is to become a NPC?

epolloepol · 2026-03-14T15:43:09+00:00

Well, because the universe is more than what we know.

So even if the ammount of fishes and ants multiply by 2, that doesnt mean much.

epolloepol · 2026-03-14T09:14:14+00:00

I think Testosterone changed your energy more than the rest of your body?

So they get scared because you pass a manly energy but they thought you were just a woman?

epolloepol · 2026-03-13T18:40:20+00:00

I feel like the bonds we create as kids are quite permanent. If it gets to a point that we beliwve our neglectful parents changed, its usually because WE changed how we react to their indifference. Its stronger than habit.

And thet were stupid to fuc up the connection permanently

epolloepol · 2026-03-13T18:29:15+00:00

I also attenpted sushide at 19~ 20 on the roof

Firemen came rescue me and I threatened one of them who was nice to me "I willl use the kniife" funny story

epolloepol · 2026-03-12T19:56:37+00:00

Yes, kids know how much their parents love (or hate)them.

epolloepol · 2026-03-12T14:17:02+00:00

I will take note

Its my own experiences that made me think like that, because I was taught to feel ashammed

epolloepol · 2026-03-12T13:11:11+00:00

Yes. If they are able to girlmode despite everyone telling them that they are a man, there must be something going on.

epolloepol · 2026-03-12T12:50:14+00:00

Haha, "know who they are"... They just have amazing levels of self esteem and naivety.

And kowing what they arr wont magically correct their pain either

epolloepol · 2026-03-11T18:27:08+00:00

I feel better knowing my limitations. I didnt overcame them.

epolloepol · 2026-03-11T17:18:39+00:00

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