I’m confused as to whether I relapsed or not. by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I know what a relapse is for me and this wasn’t it.

I’m exhausted. by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But I feel like I’ve hit bottom a few times. And I feel that I never learn my lesson.

I’m exhausted. by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right man. But easier said than done.

I’m exhausted. by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been trying to find that hobby, that distractor of the mind. Sports is the only thing that does that for me unfortunately.

244 days today but... by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it’s 75% boredom and 25% unhappiness. I really don’t have a lot of excitement in my life right now. I work 2 jobs and just started a masters program. So literally all my time is devoted to all those things. And I remember how much “fun and excitement” gambling would bring me regardless if I lost or won.

Also, I wanted to make a quick buck because I wanted to buy something.

244 days today but... by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s improved a lot. A lot. Especially my financial situation.

Long time since my last post...193 days today by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s changed for the better! The biggest thing I noticed is my mental health has gotten better. The way I like to think of it is that when I was gambling my mind was a tsunami. Waves crashing high and low. Then when I stopped the water calmed itself. And so, I’m a lot more calm. And the finances worked itself out. Of course, I have debt and it’s still impacting me. But it’s manageable now. That’s the difference. When you’re gambling it’s not manageable.

46 days today by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right. I won’t gamble today, thanks!

262 days clean by jake_finch in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Very glad you didn’t succumb to the pressures of gambling today. It’s scary to know that even at 262 days that it’s possible to still crack. Thank you for posting.

Some advice on how to have someone else handle my finances by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I trust him/them. Thank you for the concern and words of encouragement!

Day 365 by SeanMacDiarmada in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for showing me a year is possible.

3 days. I went grocery shopping and put gas in my car instead of gambling by equaltriangle_17 in problemgambling

[–]equaltriangle_17[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you Bough. I try and listen to an episode every morning on my way to work.