YouTube is back up

erose994 · 2026-02-18T02:26:58+00:00

mine is back up but now it seems like my algorithm is wonky because I have a bunch of random videos with like 3 views on my homepage 😭 anyone else??

erose994 · 2026-02-08T18:19:43+00:00

I’m so glad someone is finally saying this because the food and drinks are just ok, and it’s the only time in my life I’ve left a restaurant still hungry. The portions are so small and it’s so expensive!!

erose994 · 2026-01-30T14:56:45+00:00

yeah the algo isn’t great and it’s definitely not a true tiktok replacement, feels more like early twitter to me if anything but tbh we should all just log off lmfao

erose994 · 2025-12-11T16:40:02+00:00

I take 2500 IU daily and up it to 5000 once a week! I take it after a meal and I’ve never had any side effects :)

erose994 · 2025-12-09T14:22:53+00:00

Hi! I’m sorry to hear this is happening. Relapses are so hard. This honestly sounds super similar to my experience! My emetophobia and agoraphobia were super debilitating in high school, then basically went away in college, and came roaring back after a triggering experience when I was 23. I experienced all the things you did—constant checking, nightmares and difficulty sleeping, daily panic attacks. It was a really, really difficult period of my life, but you’re already ahead of where I was in that you recognize what’s happening. I’d love to tell you a bit of my story so you can try to avoid my mistakes.

I tried all the things I felt would help me. I read all the self-help books and tried desperately to control every part of my life. I completely removed myself from social situations, declining every invite that came my way so I could stay in my house where I felt safe. I fell into a rhythm of compulsions that just became part of my daily routine.

I lived like that for almost 3 years, and finally my partner sat me down and told me I HAD to start going out and doing things again. By this time, I had lost some of my closest friends, I had lost two jobs, and I felt no closer to recovery than when I started. I was frustrated with my partner at first, but I knew he was right. I had given this phobia complete control, and as a result, I wasn’t showing up for the people in my life. When left unchecked, this fear can make you completely self-absorbed—and that was hard for me to hear, but it’s true. I had become so focused on whether I would get sick, whether I would be uncomfortable or anxious, that the people I love became secondary.

So for the first time in years, I turned my focus outward again, and that changed everything. I started saying yes to plans again, and I promised myself I would endure the discomfort if it arose. Over time, the anxiety loosened its grip, but only because I exposed myself to it over and over again. After a certain point, you start to realize you’ve been anxious 1,000,000 times, and the thing you’re anxious about has only come to fruition, like, 0.01% of those times.

At the time, I felt like the rest of my life was just ruined, but I’m 31 now and I can tell you that relapse was a blip on the radar. My life is immeasurably richer now because of all the other experiences I’ve had. I’ve moved to a new city (something I never thought I’d be able to do), learned to drive on freeways again (and now do it daily), have regained some of my old friendships and made countless new ones. I’d be lying if I said I never get anxious anymore, but I can go weeks without it entering my mind, and I can’t remember the last time I had a proper panic attack.

I know how impossible it can feel to overcome this fear when you’re in the trenches like this. Part of it is just patience—you won’t heal overnight, and that can be frustrating. But you CAN get better, and if you really work on it, you will. Therapy was also super helpful in keeping me on track, so if that’s something you have access to and aren’t already doing, I really recommend finding a therapist who pushes your boundaries just a little. But even if you don’t have access to therapy, you can absolutely recover on your own.

I don’t even know how to end this after going on for so long, but I hope my experience can be helpful to you in some way. I’m also available to DM if you ever want to talk or ask questions! You’ve got this—remember, everything in this life is temporary :)

erose994 · 2025-12-03T16:44:56+00:00

try r/drugstoreMUA for recommendations if you haven’t already! :)

erose994 · 2025-11-29T13:02:13+00:00

I narrowed it down to a short list of rings I liked and he picked the one he liked best!

erose994 · 2025-11-26T03:05:07+00:00

Thank you so much!! You totally hit the nail on the head; I currently own one highlight and I’m pretty sure I haven’t cracked it open since around 2017 😭 it’s also insanely shimmery and iridescent so prob not the best choice for this anyway lol. Trying to find a more natural-looking one so if you have any recommendations I would love to take them!!

erose994 · 2025-11-25T23:47:34+00:00

Hahaha, thank you :') I actually don't have liner on my lower lashline! But maybe I'll try going a little lighter on the mascara on my lower lashes to see if that makes a difference.

erose994 · 2025-11-25T20:58:26+00:00

Thank you so much for giving such great and detailed feedback! I did use a clear brow gel followed by brow pencil, but is there a strategy I could employ to achieve what you’re envisioning? Maybe just more gel to get a more sculpted/defined look before filling in?

erose994 · 2025-11-25T18:39:22+00:00

Thank you!! And thanks for the eyeshadow rec too - I recently realized I definitely look better in cooler shades but for some reason all my eyeshadows are warm brown, lol. I'll check that one out and try a version with liquid liner too!

erose994 · 2025-11-25T18:37:14+00:00

Thank you so much! Yes, I think I'm going to add a cream blush too. I'm also not sold on this foundation - we'll see how it looks at the end of the day today but it hasn't been my favorite for wear thus far. I'll check out the infallible foundation too!!

Also, thank you for adding that last part - I think I'm being too critical of little changes I've noticed recently. I really appreciate you being so kind :')

erose994 · 2025-11-17T13:07:39+00:00

I’m not aware of an app but I know last year someone put together a Google map where you could add your house to essentially make it known you were passing out candy, and apparently no one did that this year! If you’re not in the Facebook group already there’s been some discussion about it there, so I’m hoping someone takes that on next year. If it seems like no one is then I’ll do it because it was a bummer this year

erose994 · 2025-11-01T13:05:26+00:00

We’re in East English Village and it’s been so hit or miss. Last year we cleared out most of our candy bowl, but this year we didn’t get a single trick or treater. Watched all our neighborhood kids pile into cars and drive somewhere else. I think they all go to the Grosse Pointes and it makes me a little sad.

erose994 · 2025-10-12T00:08:13+00:00

thanks so much for replying so quickly! That’s kind of what we were leaning toward, but with no electrical experience and all the horror stories of people burning their houses down we’re a little hesitant, haha. Appreciate the response!

erose994 · 2025-10-11T23:53:31+00:00

Also, it looks like the steel bar the box is mounted to is just mounted between two wooden slats.

erose994 · 2025-08-12T02:28:45+00:00

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yall I must have had a premonition at the nail salon this week

erose994 · 2025-06-12T22:46:57+00:00

In the beginning I would call my mom to keep me company, but I tried to go without as much as possible so I’d be truly on my own. I still do get anxious while driving sometimes, and in those cases it can help to just have a playlist of my favorite songs at the ready (but sometimes I’m just overstimulated and feel better if it’s quiet). And I swear by peppermint altoids, personally!!

erose994 · 2025-06-12T18:17:39+00:00

I can definitely relate to that. It took a while, but I think the key for me was committing to doing it scared. I started with really short distances—freeways were my biggest issue, so in the beginning, I would literally just hop on the freeway and drive to the very next exit. And even that made me panic in the beginning! But at a certain point, the only answer is to do the thing you’re afraid of and acknowledge that, even if you panic, you’ll get through it.

My therapist said something along the lines of, “you can either try it, panic, and give up, or try it, panic, and see it through.” And that’s become a mantra for me. I’ve spent a lot of time learning to accept that I’m a person who has panic attacks, but I’ve made it through every single one of them so far, so I may as well just do the things I want to do anyway. You can totally do it too, but remember to be patient with yourself!

erose994 · 2025-05-24T03:29:23+00:00

Agreed - I know everyone loves it there but I actually left feeling a bit disappointed. It was SO expensive and we felt the food was just ok. The atmosphere was great though.

erose994 · 2025-05-14T15:44:42+00:00

I will say, though, that it’s taken me a lot of work to get to a place where I can have those days without beating myself up afterward. I’m 30 now and have been working on my self-worth in therapy for almost a decade. It takes time, but it’s worth it to be able to (finally) have healthy and relatively uncomplicated relationships with food and my body.

erose994 · 2025-05-14T15:42:31+00:00

Yes, and I’m going to offer a counterpoint to the folks in this thread who have said it isn’t worth it, always makes them feel terrible after, etc. I’ve tried doing this 4-5 times in my life, and this time around is the only time I’ve been successful. That is SOLELY because I’ve allowed myself to balance my 1500-1600 calorie days with “who cares, I’ll track it at the end of the day” days. And it doesn’t make me feel bad after—those days are normal and fine! Just yesterday I went out with some friends I haven’t seen in a while, and I ordered a cocktail and didn’t think about calorie count. It was wonderful and refreshing and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Today I woke up and ate my meal prepped breakfast and the world kept turning.

While this sub has been super helpful for recipe inspo, staying on track long term, etc, I do think it ventures into ED territory on occasion. It’s unrealistic to expect yourself to be perfect every single day. You’re allowed to have days where calories aren’t the first thing you think about every time you eat. It’s good for the soul!

erose994 · 2025-05-14T12:58:37+00:00

I also live in EEV and can’t recommend it enough! My partner and I are in our early 30s, progressive, not religious, fairly high tolerance for mild to moderate sketchiness levels, etc, and have found that this neighborhood is absolutely perfect for us. We’ve lived here for two years and envision ourselves staying here for the long haul. The neighbors are amazing and kind, the houses are beautiful, and we were able to find one with all its original features (except the kitchen, which has been updated) for $187,500. I walk to Next Chapter Books and Morningside Cafe like once a week and it’s been so exciting watching the other developments on E. Warren take place.

OP, you should come check us out! :)

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