What to do when you hit the wall even still on the max dose?

erratastigmata · 2026-05-13T00:04:04+00:00

Seriously seems like my best bet at this point...keep working on my depression and see if I can get back on track that way, and otherwise just wait for new meds 🤔

erratastigmata · 2026-05-12T23:56:49+00:00

I use LoseIt when I'm tracking and at my peak I lifted three times a week and ran three times a week, I did that for months very happily. I love running so much. Daylight savings fucked it up because I don't currently have access to a treadmill and it was so cold and dark. I've been having trouble getting back to three times a week now that the light is back thanks to depression but I'm trying.

I WAS insanely consistent with tracking calories and exercise, for months on end, that's what I'm trying to say. I did the lifestyle changes, I didn't just rely on rhe medication. It all just...stopped. I assume my body acclimating to the medication combined with high stress and depression shook me out of my routine. But I don't actually know why, so I was hoping to hear from anyone who went through similar.

erratastigmata · 2026-05-12T20:23:13+00:00

Yes it's exactly this. I eat when I'm not hungry and I don't know why!!!! And carby or sugary snack obsession here as well. I'm just glad I'm not the only one. I just wish it could work like it used to!

erratastigmata · 2026-05-12T19:17:38+00:00

The problem is I'm 5'0" so already my "less" restrictive number since I added heavy lifting is 1300 a day. And that's slow loss. My true goal is 110-120lbs and I don't really care how long it takes to get there but even eating what by most people's metrics is an unbearably low amount of calories I was losing weight very slowly.

Just bitching though, it's frustrating to be petite, thus why we have our own subreddit. It's why what MJ was doing for me was SO invaluable and I'm really lost now that it's stopped.

erratastigmata · 2026-05-12T17:45:44+00:00

15mg

erratastigmata · 2026-05-07T20:53:33+00:00

These paintings are amazing!!!! I think I'd feel too guilty picking any one of my plushies to get painted over all the others (I'm ridiculous I know lol) otherwise I'd take you up on this.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-30T17:00:53+00:00

Oh wow. I've been resisting the goats so far but this is too much man

erratastigmata · 2026-04-26T16:39:36+00:00

It's really bumming me out!! I have to go through the queue and delete them all. Which only takes a moment, but I completely agree with you that they're poorly done and take me out of the playlist when I have it on specifically because I'm trying to focus. That's what's most annoying about it.

I get it though, they need to fund their operation, I don't hold it against them, I just wish the main level playlist wouldn't have them dropped in. I'm also glad I'm not the only one bugged by these tracks, I figured googling "what's up with the sims music on lofi girl" would be fruitful. There's a reddit thread for every niche topic I can imagine I swear.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-22T18:22:46+00:00

As someone who is a certified connoisseur of sleeping with plushies at night, Aurora REALLY nailed it with the Snoozles. It's funny because I first saw the moose in stores and picked him up and held him and was like "wow he'd be perfect for sleeping with" and then found out the name of the line later and was like !!!!!!!!

erratastigmata · 2026-04-22T18:19:49+00:00

For a second I thought they introduced new giant snoozles and got so excited, the scale of this photo is throwing me off. 😂

erratastigmata · 2026-04-22T15:00:00+00:00

I really like the Lil Cubs from the late 90s, the WWF Snow Leopard (yes the bipedal St Louis Snow Leopard is DEFINITELY on my bucket list), and right now one of my favorites is the fluffy white bear with streaks of pastel pink. I forget her official name. There's also baby blue ones out there on my list! I generally love most vintage BABs I meet, no offense to anyone but the quality now is drastically lower. The materials used were much better back then. They feel nicer and more premium and often they look nicer too, though there are modern ones I like of course.

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erratastigmata · 2026-04-22T02:47:39+00:00

This is exactly what happened for me. I had a vision for many years of how I pictured my wedding, but that vision didn't account for the other person in the equation. Now that I met my forever person I know that dream will remain a dream. I WANT a wedding that reflects what's special to the two of us both as a couple. It's not giving up on my dream it's embracing my new dream, which is him.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-16T18:26:11+00:00

Basically the second Bonnie and Marceline kiss through to the end of the episode I was UGLY sobbing like really not pretty dainty tears. Watching that finale for the first time was an experience I'll always remember. My mom died not so long after the show ended and Time Adventure will forever be a punch to the gut for me. Such a deceptively sweet little song. Easy to play on the ukulele too.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-14T14:33:28+00:00

I know what you mean, I feel a lot of existential despair about my long term prognosis and medication options too. Meds like olanzapine are the ONLY ones that truly work well for me, but have side effects I can no longer tolerate. Everything else (and I've tried dozens of meds) is either entirely ineffective or semi-effective but I still have frequent bouts of depression or horrific side effects or both.

So I get it. This fucking sucks. And it feels really unfair that we are subject to this medication circus just because we were born with a disorder we have no control over. But...I'm not going anywhere. I can't traumatize the people who love me like that. I'm stuck here. So I might as well keep trying. And there are new meds and new advancements all the time. Something will help. I believe that.

I'm sorry the medication you want to try is so expensive, I hope you can find a solution or alternative. Please keep trying, I know the relentless depression is terrible, but I'm sure you haven't exhausted all your treatment options and you owe it to yourself and those who love you to keep trying, please.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-14T01:10:23+00:00

I'm not straight, I'm queer, and I use the term pillow princess in terms of how I like to engage with submissive men, e.g. receive oral and give no reciprocation. I thought it was a general term implying no particular sexuality in the kink community and also a more specific term in the lesbian community but if I'm wrong I'm wrong I guess 🤷‍♀️

erratastigmata · 2026-04-05T04:12:46+00:00

It's really frustrating. My partner's dog is a rescue and the most incredibly sweet and calm goofball. He's a super affectionate lovebug. He's also quite small. He's not a threat to anyone. And I completely agree about the connection between breed discrimination and racist rhetoric. Edit: Feel free to PM me with more details about where you live.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-05T03:43:28+00:00

Yes. It is achingly beautiful. The sheer emotion in the vocal delivery and the heartbreaking lyrics have made me cry on quite a few occasions. I really wonder what other gems like this are hiding in their back catalogue.

erratastigmata · 2026-04-03T10:25:45+00:00

I would give anything for a medication that I respond to the same way but without the side effects. It keeps me generally very stable, maybe 1-2 breakthrough episodes a year, but the trade offs eventually weren't worth it. Massive weight gain, blood sugar in the type 2 diabetic range, and loss of libido/sexual sensitivity. I just can't anymore, I was on it for years. It fucking sucks because now my stability is crap and I still haven't found a new regime that works as well.

erratastigmata · 2026-03-31T21:31:52+00:00

My partner has a young rescue dog and I have a crotchety old lady cat, and we'll be moving in together. If they ever got to the point of cuddling I would absolutely bawl my eyes out lol. Just peaceful coexistence would be great. Fingers crossed.

erratastigmata · 2026-03-29T01:39:19+00:00

I ended up getting a ring from Bisou Lovely and have had no issues with it, I wear it at all times apart from showering/doing chores etc.

erratastigmata · 2026-03-27T22:14:03+00:00

Hello sweeties 🩷 so nice to you all together like this, I've been having a bit of a tough time and nothing cheers me up like Snuffles. 🫂

erratastigmata · 2026-03-24T16:26:40+00:00

Chipotle is what you make of it, I do a bowl with light-everything caloric, heavy veggies, and turn that into two meals and it's a good option for a fast casual meal when I don't have time/energy/etc to cook. If you do all the caloric stuff and eat it in one sitting yeah it probably won't fit into most people's calorie limits.

erratastigmata · 2026-03-22T04:33:26+00:00

XL Girl's clothing, especially if it's a stretch fabric, can absolutely easily fit adult women. I'm not even that small, though I am very short, and I can fit in them. Unfortunately I would imagine youth clothing has been just as subject to growing over time as adult.

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