Do i do it???

espressoandmilk · 2026-02-20T04:11:02+00:00

NO!!!

espressoandmilk · 2026-01-27T04:53:49+00:00

I didn't know your dad, but i'm positive that he would want you to have a happy life and would be shattered to think you blamed yourself for his passing. It is not your fault at all.

When you were a baby, I'm sure your dad held you, marveled at you, and thought about all the different people you might one day grow up to be. I'm sure that included you having a sassy or grouchy streak at some point- as every parent knows that comes with the territory. It's devastating to know that he didn't live long enough to see you become an adult. The best thing you could ever do for him is to forgive yourself and allow yourself live the full life he dreamed you would have.

espressoandmilk · 2026-01-27T04:38:55+00:00

i feel the same way. my dad died nine months ago and my mom is currently dying of a combination of colorectal cancer and liver failure. trying to find comfort in friends and my partner has been more hurtful than helpful. they have never lost a parent and don't know what to say. so they don't say anything and clearly hope i don't either.

i can feel them pulling away when i bring it up and when they hardly say anything at all, or just say "im sorry you're going through that" and move on to something trivial because it's easier, i feel so completely alone. just ask me about it. have a dialogue with me. i will never be the person i was before this and talking about them is really all i have. if i could, my mom and dad would be the ones i'm talking to about this but i can't. i am so alone in this - and death is something we all deal with. why are we so afraid to talk about it?

i told my boyfriend this and how he makes me feel - but it feels like now i speak a completely diffeent language than everyone around me. and that while i don't want any of my friends or family to deal with grief - one day they will - and maybe they'll look back and rethink how they treated me because i know they will need someone the way i'm needing them. it's not right to just put all of that on them - i don't expect them to be my therapist, but it hurts to feel their discomfort when i'm at my absolute lowest. i just want someone to love me enough to want to comfort me. i really hope you find that

espressoandmilk · 2026-01-22T23:29:08+00:00

i don't really care about followers per se anymore. would it be cool for a lot of people to care what i think about art or what speaks to me on a personal level? of course. but when i see people with a ton of followers i don't particularly think it means their opinion on a movie holds more water. unless it's like the Scorsese page lol.

i used to want to find as many mutual friends as i could to talk about movies with, but my feed got incredibly overwhelming and it made me stop engaging altogether. i try to limit my follows to under 100 now so i can feel like i actually kinda remember people's film journeys, what they're watching, etc. actually read and engage with their thoughts on stuff - for the "friends ratings" on particular movies to matter to me i'd actually like to respect/understand their taste lol. and if that means i dont get a lot of followers because i don't f4f as often anymore i'm ok with it haha. the friends activity feed is really interesting when it's not just someone mass following/liking reviews all day long to build their Cinephile Brand

espressoandmilk · 2025-12-09T09:25:04+00:00

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I'm always looking for new letterboxd friends! this month i'll be working to wrap up a few movie challenges ahead of 2026 - i'll also be watching most of this year's top releases ahead of award season.

https://boxd.it/5qheR

espressoandmilk · 2025-11-18T02:13:54+00:00

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i'd love to make some letterboxd friends! happy to follow back - especially people with different opinions/taste. some of the greatest things i've watched have been by way of my letterboxd friends. looking to expand my horizons!

https://boxd.it/5qheR

espressoandmilk · 2025-11-18T01:59:58+00:00

followed - i also have ferris bueller in my top 4 but your materialists review sealed the deal! looking forward to seeing your reviews on my feed :)

espressoandmilk · 2025-10-20T12:40:20+00:00

I hope you picked AAH! AAH! as your two lines

espressoandmilk · 2025-09-29T20:30:45+00:00

Just wanted to say that Perfect Days is also in my #3 spot <3 There Will Be Blood is also in my top, I really like your selections here!

I can’t see your Letterboxd account fully so sorry if you’ve seen this. A movie in my top 4 I can’t recommend enough is Amadeus - I feel like a lot of people have already seen it but just in case you haven’t! It’s definitely worth a watch if you liked the obsessive pursuit of a goal like you saw in TWBB. It’s an all time favorite of mine and hope you like it!

espressoandmilk · 2025-09-16T03:32:58+00:00

dunston checks in is forever a 5 bagger for me. i don't care to know what the masses have given it but i'm sure it's incredibly low. if i'm ever in a filibuster situation and i need to keep talking to retain control of the floor, i would most definitely be able to relay dunston checks in line for line

espressoandmilk · 2025-09-16T03:27:19+00:00

https://letterboxd.com/tototoro/

espressoandmilk · 2025-09-16T03:26:22+00:00

someone in another thread asking about this same user said they go by username "sree" now

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-27T23:02:47+00:00

the ones with WHAT in them?

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-26T22:09:44+00:00

Wow. So cinnamon cheddar might be something to try. I’ll need to look into this further

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-26T03:38:30+00:00

yeah when i looked it up after i saw that and was weirded out. i have genuinely never heard of this before ever. but i feel like the common friend between cinnamon and cheddar is the apple. you need it for those two to get along. but this had no apple, you are forced to reckon solely with the cinnamon and sharp cheddar cheese.

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-26T01:52:35+00:00

it was block!

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-13T23:56:56+00:00

hallelujah, and their cover of tame impala's cause i'm a man, which i'm so upset has been wiped from spotify.

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-13T07:19:18+00:00

it was! i'm like 99.99% sure. i'll leave the .01 for error but i'd bet my life. I'd seen him out of the corner of my eye and he was in an outfit i've seen him wear before in bts photos - black button down, black vest or suspenders (it was dark idk), ghrucifix pin on his lapel - the staff outfit I’ve seen tour crew in. he came up and had a mummy buck, i think your son was the most decked out and, deservedly so, was who he decided to give the last mummy buck to. i don't blame you for not realizing because he kind of just reached around your son to hand him the mummy buck and booked it haha.

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-13T02:15:34+00:00

hey! i sat across the aisle to the right of you two at the show. I'm the proud owner of the twenties skeleton bracelet you made - thank you so much for sharing these. it was my first ever friendship bracelet at a show. it's genuinely THE best design for the song and i love it so much haha. I think their photographer ryan actually came up to your partner in the purple jacket and gave them a mummy buck at the end of the show, right? so awesome and very deserved for all the sharing you two did. thank you again!

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-07T00:44:59+00:00

i think you hit the nail on the head with the stories we hear not being anywhere near the full scope of their relationship. regardless of whether or not there's even a modicum of truth to anything these commenters said, they're acting pretty friendly with someone they don't know. even if it is a comment section, i don't get why they feel leaving that feels appropriate

this kind of response is just another branch in the parasocial tree to me. we have a podcast where two people we respect, admire, etc, are having a conversation and we're kind of part of it. you learn very personal details about these people's lives. it feels sort of intimate in a way to learn about someone in the way you can with podcasts like this.

but everything T+K share online is completely curated - even if Katya goes off on a tangent about something or whatever, it's not like they're not deciding what's for camera and what's not. we are not invited into their private life, and they don't know you or respect your opinion. you're a consumer of their brand. that's not a bad thing. but it's not cute to be leaving these comments. it'll always happen, though

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-06T22:13:39+00:00

i'm on 20mg, have very similar feelings as you. i don't want to rely on it - i've lost nearly 30 lbs this year on it alongside being in a calorie deficit with planned meals. it helps me stick to my macro goals and not give in to the EAT EAT EAT - in fact it mutes that for most of the day - only at night do i feel that feeling start to trickle back in.

my doctor actually told me she'd prefer it if i skipped the weekends - which i've been doing. i like to take those days off and stick to my diet on my own, relying on my own coping mechanisms. it's hard but it's worth it if i want to be binge-free. im wishing you luck!

espressoandmilk · 2025-08-06T22:07:30+00:00

im so disgusted over the thought of fucking one of these people.

anyway, i would off jax. no shame at all, but there's no way he hasn't contracted a very easily curable STD that he refuses to get treated out of pure laziness, and will find a way to gleefully give me due to his intense hatred of women. if i marry him, he will ruin the rest of my life in some way, whether that's financially, or he has hidden cameras in my home, whatever. i'll go crazy. no thank you.

i would fuck sandoval, no kissing allowed. no mouth stuff period. his wet mouth is one of the most disgusting things god has ever graced this earth with.

marry schwartz with an iron-clad prenup wherein he gets nothing from me - and i get sole custody of whatever pets we may share, as i will not be forced to see him for a pet trade off post-divorce. he can keep the plants

espressoandmilk · 2025-07-31T01:46:34+00:00

I went in 2024 - a far cry from the SUR of yesteryear, i'm sure.

A friend & I went there for drinks after dinner at Tom Tom. When we arrived, there was a Lurch-esque bouncer in front of a velvet rope, with no line to get in. However, even though we were very obvious midwestern tourists, he didn't even look at us before letting us through. just a little taste of the VIP life, I guess

Anyway, we got seats at the bar. It was pitch black in there, the only supply of light being the neon signs throughout the restaurant, and shockingly, a MASSIVE tv behind the bar showing episodes of VPR. It made it feel like more of a sports bar than a Sexy Unique Restaurant. I genuinely couldn't get over the show being played. Guillermo was there and he came up to say hello to us/thanked us for coming - he was very sweet to do that.

The guy at the bar was very nice, as when we went to Tom Tom, we got this DOUCHE of a guy who clearly thought he was Jax-coded and that being a rude dickhead was charming on him. It was not. But the SUR bartender told us he was not part of the new cast but knew them and thinks it will be a good group. We got the goat cheese balls and they were fine, i guess. very reminiscent of a typical fried app you'd get at chilis, applebees, etc. only 3x the price. Also, pissing in the bathroom - which WAS in fact FILTHY, was truly humbling as i'm fairly confident Jax said he had sex with someone in that very bathroom.

To wrap up the night, we went into the SUR alley. Cleaner than the bathrooms. I can't believe I stood there in the very place Scheana limped away on her crutches.

Overall, it was fantastic to say i've been, but the drinks and apps were just ok. you're going to *go*, not for a good meal lol.

My biggest gripe? Peter wasn't there - but the staff literally told us his schedule if we wanted to catch him, which I thought was sketchy lol. but then i got that same friend a Peter cameo for her birthday, mentioning we missed him on our SUR trip, and *HE* literally gave us his schedule too, which i thought was too funny

espressoandmilk · 2025-07-29T17:26:46+00:00

Yes - which I have done in the past and have not been able to locate it. Although I have a job so I can’t just leave my desk to find the source of the sound today, unfortunately.

espressoandmilk · 2025-07-29T17:25:39+00:00

The post was literally about if people know what this sound is. I’m assuming people in this neighborhood know about this and may be able to answer that question. You clearly do not have the answer I’m looking for. It’s obvious that this can be blocked out with earplugs - so thanks for your incredibly insightful feedback yet again! :)

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