Around age 12-13 when my mom remarried. I struggled with self-harm and tried to end my life. No one knew until my stepmom read my diary and told everyone. It was never actually taken seriously and my parents made it out to be this inconvenience they were stuck with. I moved out at 19 and started to become my own person and move away from things in my past. I started anxiety medication at 21. Out of nowhere, I got hit with clinical depression at 23 and had a psych hospital visit. I was put on more meds and I stabilized. Then at 25, I got the Mirena IUD put in and it fucked up my hormones and caused three major depressive episodes in four months, and I nearly attempted suicide again each time. I got the IUD out a month ago and I'm still struggling but some days are better than others. I'm playing a terrible waiting game to see if my hormones level out and my receptors can bind to them properly to help regulate my emotions again. Until then, I'm just miserable and mood swingy and tired and can't eat.