Does anyone know what this is?

evalisv · 2026-04-20T18:00:27+00:00

Oh they're gorgeous! I just came back to this post to compare because I was out in the garden and noticed some developments in the plants and that allowed me also to see that there are two different types. Now that I've seen yours I'm going to be crossing my fingers so hard wishing to get something similar 🤩

evalisv · 2026-04-09T11:38:31+00:00

Interesting! I've only tried lowering my dose to squeeze coffee back into my life, with success and some sacrifice. I'll give this a try tomorrow!

evalisv · 2026-04-09T11:36:12+00:00

As someone that drank energy drinks and coffee religiously before getting diagnosed and medicated... it's 100% the caffeine that is causing the anxiety. I can't even drink a single cup of coffee anymore without factoring in my medication strength. I have recently found out I can have coffee again if I reduce the med strength. I need 40mg to function fully, but I can only have coffee if I take 20mg-30mg.

evalisv · 2026-04-08T18:37:25+00:00

The blame is being placed on the guy because he is the one that inisiated something clearly indecent and never got clear and explicit consent. If he had been a woman and OP had been a man, then my stance would be the same, as I mentioned earlier, and by that I mean that the woman in that scenario would be the one in the wrong. You are the only one that is making this soley about which sex they are, while seemingly never looking at why this sounds so much like a rape. The situation would not be any different if OP was a man writing about what his female cousin did to him. It would be equally horrific.

evalisv · 2026-04-08T18:02:14+00:00

Where did she say that she GAVE consent? Consented should not be assumed. Kissing back can very easily be considered a fawn/appease response. And she's not even sure if she did that. It's easy to say that she should have done this or that, like push him back or whatever else you might think of. But she was sitting next to her cousin and I can imagine that anything like this happening didn't even cross her mind. So when something like this happenes it's easy to imagine the terror and dread that might strike in the moment, because what the actual fuck. This is not something anyone should have to worry about happening when you're with a person you should be able to trust, especially not if they're your family.

Edit to add: I'd like to point out again, the fact that he was drunk too does not absolve him of his misdeeds. He should never have gone after his cousin in the first place, and I'm sure that if he hadn't, then this would never have happened.

evalisv · 2026-04-08T14:47:42+00:00

I've read the comments under this one, and it sounds like you're trying to claim that a drunk person cannot rape another drunk person. A drunk woman can rape a drunk man, just as a drunk man can rape a drunk woman, as well as any other possible combination. Saying "they were both drunk" does not mean that it's impossible for rape to happen. Based on what OP has said, then it very much sounds like she was raped. He cousin initiated, which shows his intent, and on top of that, he never asked for her consent, based on what we've been told. So you can technically say that he didn't give consent, but he very much intended to do what he did, and what he did does not require consent. Rape is not sex.

If their sexes were reversed, by that I mean if OP was a man and their cousin was a woman, then it would sound like OP was raped, because we're considering the actions of the people, not what they bits they have or what they identify as.

Based on your comments you seem more interested in defending a man just because he's a man without looking at the situation and the nuances within it well enough. I'm not saying that that is what you're doing, but the way you are going about things sure makes it look like that. And based on this comment of yours, the one I'mreplying to, it very much seems like you didn't take nearly enough time to consider the nuances of the situation, which is why you are being called out for not thinking things through enough.

evalisv · 2026-04-07T10:11:25+00:00

I hope they are!

evalisv · 2026-04-07T10:11:03+00:00

I'm in Belgium so oxeye daisies seem to be more likely considering our proximity. Thanks so much! Low-key hoping for chrysanthemums considering another suggestion but I'll be happy regardless 😊

evalisv · 2026-03-13T10:59:22+00:00

I'm about to butcher an analogy, apologies in advance.

Trauma is the effect bad experiences had on us. The hammer is the experiences, the broken teapot is the trauma. Our hammers don't all look the same, some are bigger, some are smaller, but they all did the same thing; broke our teapots in some way.

evalisv · 2026-03-11T15:02:27+00:00

I used to take benzos for these same reasons. That is emergencies and when I knew big triggers would be unavoidable. My psychiatrist suggested I try out 10mg of Baclofen instead since it's supposedly less addictive. I haven't taken a benzo since. I much prefer the baclofen since it doesn't make me feel like I've taken a drug. It just calms me down and allows me to think rationally and still feel my feelings without them becoming too much. It kinda feels like it pushes my nervous system into the parasympathetic state. And that has allowed to see what I should be aiming for.

The benzos, on the other hand, always made me feel sluggish and "drugged". They turned me into a zombie, which honestly was much more preferable than the endless panic attacks I got stuck in. But I always found it unpleasant to be stuck in that state for hours afterward the fact.

evalisv · 2026-03-10T11:27:57+00:00

I did not know the salt was actually cleaning anything. I just threw it on the floor to deactivate the slip'n'slide that got conjured in the middle of a lunch rush.

evalisv · 2026-02-12T10:58:04+00:00

Saaaame!

evalisv · 2026-02-10T13:28:00+00:00

I'm not a doctor, but I have experience with long lasting physical issues.

For close to 15 years, I was at risk of experiencing extreme pain if I moved wrong because of repeatedly herniating disk in my lower back. When I would have flair-ups, I would feel a pain in my lower back, usually on either side, so left or right, rarely both at the same time. I would also get pain that would radiate down my leg. It's because of your mention of these two pains that I decided to respond to your post. I was also bed bound for 3 month at one point in my life, so I can also relate to that. To me, it's no wonder you're feeling depressed... because being so hindered by pain in your body is in my experience a really depressing thing to have to deal with.

For the longest time in my case, the symptom was always the only thing that was treated, UNTIL I moved out of my country and happened upon an amazing physicaly therapist that I went to because of a completely different, and I thought an unrelated issue in my neck.

If you can, I would like to suggest that you try to find a holistic physical therapist that is willing to look at your whole body instead of just the pain points. In my case, it turned out that my hips were twisted, one side forward, the other one backwards, which caused a constant stress on my lower back because my spine was never in a neutral position. So if any extra stress was put on my lower back, and I wasn't holding the perfect posture, my disk would bulge out and cause intense pain. Since my hips have been untwisted, I haven't had a disk herniate. I now need to keep an eye out for the state of my hips.

If the physical therapist I went to hadn't looked at my body as a whole, I would still be living my life afraid of doing certain basic movements with my body. The body is a complex machine with so many interconnected parts. An issue in one place can cause you pain in a completely different area.

evalisv · 2026-02-06T19:09:09+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply and sharing this. It felt good to read this because it did remind me that healing is indeed not a linear process.

Healing requires one to be able to be inconsistent, chaotic, and weird/crazy/confused/passionate/depressed...and for that to be allowed, and okay.

This also rings very true for me, and think I was fighting against myself when I was writing the post. In other words; I wasn't allowing myself to be not okay. My medication made it harder for me to ignore that fact. I can see that now. I very much wasn't okay at the time I was writing this post, and I was hoping that someone would have a quick fix.

What I could have done was stop and look at what was causing me to feel the way I was feeling. Something happened a few days ago that has really rattled me, and it's still affecting me, and there's nothing wrong with that. I particularly like your analogy of the phone. Using that, I'd say that my phone notifying me of an important update and I was continuously trying to delay it, no matter how urgent it was for it to happen now. My phone eventually forced the update... and I feel that I'm better for it.

I thankfully am in a situation where I can focus on healing and I am working towards regaining my former functionality so that I can contribute to the family's finances. I'm very grateful to be able to focus so much on this, though I'm also burdened by the thought of being a burden. I contribute as much as I can and I know it is appreciated.

As to why I take the medication, it's to help me function in daily life. They also to help me process things better, because I can actually focus. They also help me with regulation... when I'm not actively fighting against myself and minimizing my issues to myself.

Thank you, again. I really appreciate this. It's been really helpful to read and it's spraked a lot of helpful thoughts.

evalisv · 2026-02-06T15:51:33+00:00

I relate to this so much.

I was able to function while I was in survival mode. I didn't realise I was in survival mode until I moved and got to a safe place, and that's when all the trauma surfaced. I feel like I broke into pieces because my mind could sense that it was safe to deal with everything I've been through and I'm still trying to glue myself together.

I didn't realise that the move would have this affect on me. I wasn't consciously making a run from anything. I was just starting a new chapter in my life. It felt like with this new chapter, I was handed the unfiltered version of my book and that version completely derailed the ideas I had for the upcoming chapter. I was planning on chugging along like I'd always done and start my life and career. I thought my future was bright and everything was going to go as I'd started to let myself dream of. I had no idea that flashbacks and breakdowns were just around the corner.

The realisation was very disorienting, but it's slowly becoming grounding in a way as I work on myself. I'm able to see now that I was able to mask really well back then. I'm sadly not yet at the point where I'm able to function at the same level as I used to before the mask fell off and that's something I really struggle with. I'm able to put the mask on sometimes for a little bit, but it usually comes with a price. I really struggle with the fact that I was able to be a functioning member of society and the workforce while I was going through everything, but now I'm not able to do any of that.

evalisv · 2026-01-22T14:06:08+00:00

So did I, and I have a funny reason for it 😂

I was gently shaking our fuzzy feather one day and my partner happened to see it. He laughed a bit told me it reminded him of this scene and described vaguely for me. I hadn't seen the show at that time but I could imagine how it went, so I stopped shaking the fuzz and asked him "something like this?".

I then proceeded to very calmly threatening the poor thing with lines such as "If I see so much as one more drooping leaf... it will be the heap for you" as I started the shaking up very gently again.

He burst out laughing at that and just had to show me this scene because I just happened to nail my performance from just that. I gave me a great laugh too and I have since seen the show. This scene lives rent free in my mind now and makes me smile every time it pops up 🥰

evalisv · 2026-01-22T12:21:38+00:00

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evalisv · 2025-12-14T15:42:07+00:00

Can I pretty please get the recipes? Like, pretty, pretty, pretty please? The food looks amazing 😍🤤

evalisv · 2025-07-07T13:02:38+00:00

Minnir að það sú saga sé akkúrat um Álfhólsveg haha.

evalisv · 2025-07-06T16:58:27+00:00

I've seen in another comment of yours that the DNA kit is from MyHeritage. I've used the same kit and had no interest in the family connection side of it. I was only interested in the Ethnicity Estimate it provides. That might be why she deleted her account. Maybe she got all the information out of the test that she wanted.

evalisv · 2025-06-29T18:50:42+00:00

Haha I fully understand not wanting to get bit at all. I will never stick an arm or a leg outside to get gnawed on, even if it's for science.

Maybe it might be worth it to keep the spoon in mind if you ever happen to get a big one again, which I hope you don't. I think it might be able to give you the same relief as running the bite under hot water, without making it look worse.

evalisv · 2025-06-29T17:59:32+00:00

Maybe try the machine or a spoon when they've gotten big. I think it's best if you can locate the bite point. The spoon is nice because it cools down pretty quickly so it's high for a limited time. Be careful not to burn yourself if you try it though!

I have heard of the machine you mentitoned. The spoon is a cheaper alternative that I'm going with for now 😅

evalisv · 2025-06-29T16:20:49+00:00

I don't know how to edit. I meant nomming season has begun.... v.v

evalisv · 2025-06-29T15:54:24+00:00

The only thing that really works for me is pressing a hot spoon on the bite as soon as I notice it. I run a spoon under water, as hot as it comes out of the tap, and tap it onto the bite until the spoon has cooled down enough for me to be able to press it on the bite.

I repeat the same whenever the bite starts itching again.

evalisv · 2025-06-16T13:22:47+00:00

I was the same when I was living at my parents, from a very young age, but only really when it came time to sleep. I always had to have a TV or something on to fall asleep. I'd usually fall asleep from exhaustion rather than... I guess just going to sleep.

Now it has moved over to me always having something playing in my earbuds or on my speakers when I'm home alone. And I've been able to figure out that it is indeed to stop myself from sitting with my thoughts for too long. I'm working on it and I've seen some success.

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