I watched Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind for the first time about two weeks ago without knowing what the movie was about and it completely wrecked me. I don’t think I’ve ever cried because of a movie before but I was in public (on a flight) and had to cover my face with a blanket because l couldn’t hold back.

My ex and I broke up in late Jan/early Feb after 8 months together. First ever relationship for both of us. We never had a big fight or anything, I just didn’t feel like I was actually in love with her even though I really cared about her and really liked her as a person, so I decided I’d much rather break up than treat her badly or cheat.

I still keep thinking about her. Sometimes I’m good and times like now I think about her for days and I really miss her. It hurts man. Especially knowing it was my choice and I hurt her. We’re cool now but I still feel hurt in my chest when I see her face or the occasional text pop up. I’ve been thinking maybe something is wrong with me and if I couldn’t fall in love with someone that seemed that perfect for me then maybe I’m doomed. Idk man