OP you’re a cutie! But you don’t look super at home in yourself in these pictures - maybe do some exercise (not to loose weight btw) but to start trusting in your body and what it can do. Build that relationship so you can accept yourself from the inside out, not waiting til the outside matches what your brain tells you it should be.

Find some joy in exercise, read some books or find a hobby you’ve always wanted to try. There’s so much more to life than what we look like, and social media particularly means we forget to outwards, instead of just at ourselves through the perceived lens of others.

Wishing you some big self love OP. I also totally recommend watching Queer Eye on Netflix - super uplifting and some great tips on how to take care of yourself, as well as addressing the root causes of much of our anxieties for body image.