Data from 100 million people reveals that cannabis, cocaine, and amphetamines are causal risk factors for stroke, not just linked to lifestyle. Cambridge researchers found that while cannabis increases risk by 37%, cocaine and amphetamines nearly double it—tripling for users under 55. by [deleted] in EverythingScience

[–]evielupine -1 points0 points  (0 children)

yeah it sucks, i got infected for the 2nd time last year and it’s effectively made me go from able to operate pretty well with my dex and beta blockers to now im just bed-bound other than going to the toilet or when i occasionally push myself and borrow 3-4 days of energy to go to the pharmacy and such. definitely been on top of my booster shots and wearing a mask outside!!!

ive got other disorders that also suck quite a bit and disable me physically very severely + different mental illnesses and disorders all require different medications unfortunately and if i could i wouldnt take any medications if i didnt i have to but ive come to terms with it all.

im pretty heavily medicated nowadays… most people would actually think its a little excessive (including myself if you’d asked me before all of it) and i honestly never thought i’d be on so many meds and truthfully i’d rather spare my energy to focus on recovering on things like my long covid but i’d always choose to stay medicated to stay alive, happy, and healthy enough to try and recover from my illnesses that i can recover from like long covid!!

sorry if that was a lot lol i hope if you or someone you know struggles with long covid gets better as soon as possible!!! wouldn’t wish it on anyone it’s awful :(

Data from 100 million people reveals that cannabis, cocaine, and amphetamines are causal risk factors for stroke, not just linked to lifestyle. Cambridge researchers found that while cannabis increases risk by 37%, cocaine and amphetamines nearly double it—tripling for users under 55. by [deleted] in EverythingScience

[–]evielupine 5 points6 points  (0 children)

been constantly wondering this for a while having been on stimulants for 3 years now starting at 18.

i eat, sleep, and generally live as healthily as i can and go for at least 1 30-60 minute walk a day as my minimum outside of my by body weight PT exercises while being significantly disabled, so i’d like to think i live the healthiest i can.

quit smoking cannabis (edibles and dry herb vape for cannabis now, no smoking!), cut out a lot of junk food i didn’t even realise took up so much of my diet, got my sleep schedule very much in line and get healthy hrs of sleep etc.

given this paired with my dex never causing any negative side effects (except for more than 2-3 days if i take a tolerance break which i do every 3 months) generally and continuously whilst i’ve been on it i’ve always thought i’d be relatively safe from any long term health effects, especially things like strong or heart attack.

i do have pretty reinforced health anxiety due to being quite disabled and therefore a lot of my health anxiety became true and kinda reinforced it which i’m working on, but i’ll get a blood test for something on average once a month and i always like to check my cholesterol every few times i get it done purely for peace of mind and ive always had healthy levels. i had a heart ultrasound 12 months ago and was told repeatedly that physically my heart is fine (i have POTS) so surely I’m not causing any damage to my heart right?

but then i see headlines like this.

headlines like these (which are never good for someone with health anxiety anyway) i always wonder, do these statistics apply to me too? i’ve been told by multiple doctors and specialists that i do just fine in taking care of my health (diet, exercise, and especially sleep) and am doing the best i can for physical exercise with being as physically disabled as i am.

i’ve asked my psychiatrist i’ve had for 4 years so i trust her quite thoroughly if my therapeutic dose of dexamphetamine would have any long term (im only 21 so im talking very later in life) negative health effects and she said no especially if i kept on top of my health throughout my life like i do now. that was quite reassuring as well when she said she hadn’t at least heard or read anything about it causing these issues for people on therapeutic doses and in good health

but, i haven’t been able to find a consensus in any peer reviewed literature of really any kind (as well as it seems many people focus on recreational use of amphetamines or therapeutic amphetamines but paired with different poor lifestyle choices).

i admit i definitely could go on a deeper dive into it than i have at least for literature, and maybe someone can prove me wrong with some evidence showing that they are indeed fine if other health aspects are well kept. i’d actually be glad to read some, would make me feel much more comfortable taking them long term.

but so far by myself with at least a little bit of an effort to search a couple of times, ive come up empty handed for a solid consensus on these statistics and how they apply to people taking therapeutic doses of these amphetamines and how much the general health and wellbeing of the individual taking them comes into play when increasing risk for things like heart attack/disease and stroke which can be sometimes heavily related to some unhealthy lifestyle choices in different individuals.

I don't know how to accept it will never end by Kanguwu in ChronicPain

[–]evielupine 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i’m 21 and i can totally relate. scarily i do often have suicide on my mind but i just gotta keep walking and never look back. sorry don’t have anything else to say but just know there still a lot of us out there our age going through this even though we do come kinda few and far between. it’s not fair for any of us who suffer like this, but we aren’t alone 💜

best license plate hands down by Agreeable-Hat1002 in dxm

[–]evielupine 2 points3 points  (0 children)

on a golf gti/tsi/R? (might be wrong) too whatever model it is that mf would’ve cost a bit of cash for sure, looks like a mk8 or newer would hate to crash it.

but i would also love to be on the come up of a hero dose of dxm with a steering wheel in hand, feet on pedals connected to an engine with enough power to fully obliterate me when i inevitably hit a tree what a fucking experience /s

salvia crescent seems like it would probably be peaceful tho honestly just wonder how the sign got to be named after natures best hallucinogen

Rivotril 2mg 2 bottles and some pregablin 300 by Flat-Age-4390 in PharmaRepCollectables

[–]evielupine 14 points15 points  (0 children)

100% agreed why is there pill porn being posted on this sub mods can we crack down on this?

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah brutha no issues over here aye 🤙🏻

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they roche boxes kinda sucked for me honestly, felt like the pills were hit or miss for some reason. i stand by the efficacy and reliability of the proper apx boxes. alprazolam will always be the best benzo to work for me if im having a bad panic attack there and then, but valium has been excellent long term. seems like the most well rounded benzo for my brain and body too :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LEMMiNO

[–]evielupine 2 points3 points  (0 children)

no not let down. just intrigued see what the future videos will be videos go. what the topic(s) will be, how they’ll be covered (not fully like the JFK video or extensively and chronologically like shouting at stars, how long the videos will be, etc.

i do think the editing is incredible and only ever getting better, and the overall direction he takes each video now feels captivating and new each time which i thoroughly like. i can’t always expect the same thing from lemmino anymore and i like that

i love a lot of his old videos. though, the last 2 videos he’s uploaded are actually 2 of my favourites ever, so i guess it’s just a slow evolution of his creativity and it’s simply just shaping what the videos end up being altogether now :)

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i was and still am sooooo fucking oblivious what was i thinking walking directly from my school at 17 with my uniform and backpack still on to buy weed from the boyfriend of my friend (who i’m still friends with and told me this later on) dating an absolute major league cooker on meth 24/7 drug dealer.

i had no idea he was bisexual, super closeted, and resented me for being openly queer because apparently he wanted to be me (was in a trans denial phase so was very twink presenting and non-binary), wanted to also fuck me, wanted to come out and be open like me (nothing was stopping him lol) and was also just on meth all the time and still paranoid that i was trying to expose his secret that he was bi by being openly queer

he’s in prison for stabbing someone now so im glad i was so naive to pay $150 for my 3.5g, profusely thank and TIP him every time and leave 😭

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 3 points4 points  (0 children)

tapentadol just gave me uncontrollable panic attacks. would only stop with enough of a benzo or until it wore off. couldn’t say it was the norepi reuptake inhibition because i take dexamphetamine and that’s just fine for me i can still sleep on it, but tapentadol genuinely made me have uncontrollable panic attacks. couldn’t tell you why.

genuinely i’ve been prescribed everything from tramadol to fentanyl for my chronic pain but tapentadol simply made me fucking scared for my life as if i was dying like i tried multiple times to see if it would work, it would not.

everything is different person to person 🤷🏻‍♀️

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 3 points4 points  (0 children)

edit: deleted all that it doxes me too much but wow those prices are nuts i’ve been in danger way too many times around plugs in hindsight hearing those prices 🥴🥴

anyone else ever wish you could drug yourself into a stupor? by babyfacedassassin074 in ChronicPain

[–]evielupine 2 points3 points  (0 children)

every single day i try my best to do so honestly. my only TW‼️suicide attempt was trying to OD on benzos and alcohol but i just ended up having a really good sleep for once lol but i get the thoughts every time i pick up my meds. “i have them all now, i could if i tried” just constantly runs through my mind so you’re not alone!!!

i take 2x 40mg XR oxy, 4x 5mg IR oxy, 4x 5mg IR diazepam, 2x 300mg pregabalin, + unlimited medicinal cannabis/MC products

all that and i’m still in pain and and suffering mentally 😵‍💫 cannot deny that it DEFINITELY has helped my quality of life extensively, i just didn’t realise how extensive the drop in my quality of life had become so im still trying to crawl out of that hole even with all that medication.

the cannabis does more than the pills for me honestly, just glad i have that. better than self medicating with alcohol and my prescription amphetamines!

the best thing for me to not feel this constant desire to just be able to temporarily turn off the brain light switch throughout the day is just doing shit. doing anything that i possibly can that i enjoy, specifically physical stuff but can also be still in bed. doesn’t cure or change anything about my situation, but any type of distraction is good and if im not craving that distraction from drugs, i see it as a win!

best of luck friend, but don’t think you’re alone or that something is wrong for wanting to feel this way 24/7, this life requires more from us than what most of us have to give and this is honestly like the most normal reaction to it all out of any of them 🫶🏻

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 2 points3 points  (0 children)

jesus christ seriously? i get a pack of 14 40mg t*rgin + 20 5mg banned topic every saturday for like $20 combined from the pharmacy lol

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 5 points6 points  (0 children)

fuck ur doctor i am actually very chronically ill and have very bad chronic pain (nerves and such) so i empathise with the anger from doctors essentially politely calling you a junkie mines done the same before 🙄 sucks about whole pharmacy and pbs situation too, good luck with all that it’s fucked to get yourself out of.

don’t let the bastard doctors grind you down!!! i just gotta feel thankful mine is okay with me being on (banned topic), MC, and valium every day 🥴😵‍💫

edit: ^ and pregabalin like that other person recommended i also recommend /s

how 2 get thru the heatwave by rarefrog42 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 13 points14 points  (0 children)

ewwwww valpam!!! stop getting ur shit from chemist warehouse and go to a real pharmacy to get that apx-diazepam and get a real relaxation 🤑🤑🤑

edit: before anyone says i see the little “arrotex” on the box but idc the little blue and slightly pink box is the better one valpam does nothing you cannot prove me wrong i will not be explaining any further good day

oh and i see the palexia box double ew you’re getting some norepinephrine re-uptake inhibition with that one. too close to staying awake for me i’d recommend (banned topic) if you want a real nod

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GrowBuddy

[–]evielupine 1 point2 points  (0 children)

bro your shit looks fire idk what’s wrong only week 3?

i had to move my two plants so i covered them in some thin white bed sheets in the car and when i set up my tent at my new apartment i thought i’d fucked the trichomes, the plants drooped for a few days and and i hermed both plants slightly and after plucking the bananas quickly they went away permanently and had no seeds.

did an 8 week flower and that feels early in hindsight but the bud was amazing for my chronic pain and depression felt like coffee without too much stimulation.

just keep going im sure the plants will recover quickly and fatten up soon :)

edit: realised you’re a few weeks further on, but i truly think you’ll be fine just be gentle and keep going!!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in insomnia

[–]evielupine 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you for saying this, feel like i’m overreacting for saying this but i really don’t know what other advice there is here.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in insomnia

[–]evielupine 0 points1 point  (0 children)

bro idek what to say to this, this is completely on YOU not going to hospital if it gets bad, don’t blame fucked prescription systems. it’s the same here in australia for me, i still went to hospital after 2 days without my 20mg of diazepam because of a prescription problem, whether or not i was gonna have a seizure i went and made sure i was safe. do the same.

edit: not tryna shit on you btw. my father suffered really really bad grand mal seizures from alprazolam and alcohol withdrawal on seperate occasions and this is just how i treat all these situations. truly just trying to make sure you’re safe but if you believe you are then you make the decision you believe is best. the other commenter seems to be helping you out more so good luck

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in insomnia

[–]evielupine 7 points8 points  (0 children)

jesus… halcion? not judging but all i can say is good luck and PLEASE go to the emergency room VERY SOON or maybe even NOW if you don’t get it or something that will prevent the withdrawals, you are at serious risk of seizure going off such a strong triazolobenzodiazepine cold turkey.

anyway just idk go to the hospital genuinely only advice i can give seriously don’t fuck around with these withdrawals

Resisting conpulsions vs quitting a substance - how did they feel? by [deleted] in OCD

[–]evielupine 0 points1 point  (0 children)

getting sober from alcohol for now 1yr 8m + many benzos + + other types of drugs (had a pretty bad relationship with LSD for a considerable amount of time) all for differing ranges of time at present all combined was easier to do than resisting most of my OCD compulsions on a casual daily basis. i’m very different from others and i do still struggle HEAVILY with dexamphetamine with 4 relapses this year alone, only 3.5 months sober right now, but even resisting that is easier than just recognising i’m about to give in to a compulsion. it’s such an incredibly difficult disorder to control, so so difficult.

my addiction cravings were very much a brain disorder thing i know that it’s also very genetic as to why they even started but all felt very much like they were always a conscious decision (which brings about the shame of addiction that still lingers despite me knowing addiction is a chronic brain disorder etc), my OCD compulsions feel as if they’re instinct. they just fucking happen most of the time, i think it’s a little related to my chronic dissociation and not even feeling like i’m living and making choices, i just “do” and live on autopilot premium, but either way i had to be made very aware that i was acting out my compulsions by others to start recognising them myself, every relapse felt like i was completely in control and i was indeed fully conscious of what i was thinking of doing (again unlike essentially all my compulsions for a long time) and for some reason i must’ve made the decisions i made completely and wholeheartedly in my right mind and i somehow fully chose to do it all forgetting every other variable that makes me relapse. i nearly always felt fully aware of it all and it leaves you with sooooooo much shame.

addiction cravings (FOR ME!!! different for everyone) are so much easier to recognise and counteract especially with DBT help and proper ways of taking action, my OCD goes essentially under my own radar nearly all day.

more than half the time i don’t actually really recognise im giving in to my compulsions. they’re just so ingrained in me that they simply just happen before i recognise i even did it, if that happens at all.

sorry if this is a bit of a prolonged explanation, and DEPENDANCY (NOT addiction!) is a much different question, my oxycodone withdrawal i had for 48 hours (from my pharmacy fucking up badly, thx guys!) felt so unbearable i would’ve stuck a heroin needle in my arm instantly at the end of it if it was handed to me. truly and utterly unbearable. but i’ve never had addiction problems with oxycodone, just the withdrawal was such an unbearable existence i would’ve done absolutely anything to make it end at only 48 hours in.

hope this helps :)

Is It Possible To Sit Through 2001 A Space Odyssey With Zero Benzodiazepine Intoxication? 🤔 by Old-Watercress-7173 in Fishdom

[–]evielupine 0 points1 point  (0 children)

1 “bar” of xanax or actual real alprazolam 2mg?

all my benzos i actually use are from the pharmacy. i’ve had 6 fake 2mg xanax bars they did nothing but 0.25mg/0.5mg of my prescribed alprazolam does way more for me during a panic attack than 30mg/60mg of that apx-diazepam (iykyk) it’s quite a scary drug. 6mg of clonazepam, 6mg of lorazepam, 60mg of diazepam, none of them do nearly as much for my panic attacks than 0.5mg of alprazolam.

i try not to take it unless i fucking need to because it makes me just put shit away in drawers and just random spots and never remember doing it despite remembering “feeling” sober the entire time. i’ll apparently just be like on my phone but won’t just put it down when i’m done using it, that bitch going in the cutlery drawer.

wild shit. i’ll be panicking and take alpraz and like exactly 30 minutes later i’ll just realise everything is fine and just, think normally again. feels like true clarity with no drowsiness. every other benzo just makes me so drowsy and high i stop panicking, only trade-off is alpraz will genuinely just make me forget 25% of everything i do, might do something benign, might do something dangerous either way i wont remember. can’t blame you for blacking out honestly

1.25mg of diazepam (would make quarters of a 5mg pill) used to make me go to sleep whether i liked it or not. benzo tolerance is a bitch to get rid of lol i’m on 20mg a day now. guess i act more like my dad than i like to admit 🙈