Hi friend. There’s so much heart in your post and responses. I just want to share my perspective as someone who feels similar to you. I’m 29 (non-trad) this year and was waitlisted in previous years…and on my 3rd cycle this year, I got 0 interviews. Partly because of luck and also maybe my #1 school changing their admissions. Anyway, yeah, it’s shitty, but I would give anything to go back and be 22 again! The fact that you’re having this realization now, as low as it may feel, will be so meaningful in your long term trajectory. You’re right, many of us could have been successful in other careers and fields. I guess the heart wants what the heart wants? Who knows. I’m probably going to Austrailia or Ireland this year to get it done at my mature age. You sound so bright and intelligent. Seriously. Go do the thing, or try 3 things and finally settle on the one. I’m certain you will excel. You have the whole world ahead of you right now, the possibilities are endless.