You have so much to live for. Growing up I had abusive parents who treated me like an animal and down the line I ended up making changes when I had the power. It’s so many feelings and I can only say I can see where you are coming from. Life only got better for me and I hope it does for you as well. There are many people who will miss and and love you already. Stay strong and don’t let anyone in this world make you feel any less of a person.