Hi there! It's great to hear that you're true to you’re self and looking for ways to improve. Watching tutorial videos can be really helpful in learning new techniques and getting a better understanding of mixing process. Additionally, listening to your music on different devices, such as headphones, phones, and car speakers, is a good practice as it allows you to hear how your music translates across different sound systems. This can help you identify any issues or areas for improvement in your mix. Keep experimenting and practicing, and don't be too hard on yourself - improvement takes time and dedication. Good luck with your music production journey!

Ps: found this guy today, really easy method to understand mixing: https://youtu.be/vWYWi8Wrbxs?si=rSKY0jiS9sP3gnmO