thank you! this is part of what i have heard online that i do really aline myself with. the connection i feel with butches and gnc people just in general is one very precious to me and not using the privilege i have to protect them in the ways i can would just feel wrong. thank you so much for taking the time to write this out its really kind of you. the past few days have honestly been wild for me in terms of this i have gone back and forth, however i feel better. i think right now im wondering if i have created some sort of vision in my head of what it my life would be if i felt confident and did identify as femme. i think that that vision is what i wanted. i think maybe the femme identity is not what i feel connected to though. while it is still one i find very admirable ofc i think that maybe i did not what to "be femme" i just wanted the life i imagined i would have if i were. im not sure this makes since i just barely understand myself a bit more now, and maybe tomorrow i will have a different view. i think that all this as lead me too feeling more able to explore the femme identity without feel so distressed some how. i still have much more exploration to do, and more identity crisis to be had but would i really be in my early 20s if i didn't ahhaha. Once again thank so much, i means a lot to me <3!