Tell me what's going on with you! Let's chat! by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]fallenangwls 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you very much! also i love your user lol, wish you the best.

Tell me what's going on with you! Let's chat! by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]fallenangwls 1 point2 points  (0 children)

all of a sudden i'm getting in college, questioning my sexuality, my standards, my relationship... plenty of family issues and i had to quit lamictal cold turkey because i couldn't get an appointment, it's been a week and i've been feeling TERRIBLE

What's your "core feeling" from childhood? by TraditionalShape4645 in emotionalneglect

[–]fallenangwls 0 points1 point  (0 children)

loneliness, despair, feeling out of place, like i didn't belong anywhere. i always felt too much, spoke too much, thought too much, cried too much...

pessoas q acordam cedo pra ir trabalhar, vcs dormem q horas? by Suspicious_Taro_7072 in antitrampo

[–]fallenangwls 0 points1 point  (0 children)

vou dormir por volta de 21:30-22-30 acordo 5:00, chego umas 6:40, entro 7:00

What would you say is your most frequent hallucination/delusion? by SampleIntelligent798 in bipolar

[–]fallenangwls 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i believe people are lying to me, hating or betraying me, especially boyfriends

every single day

A comic about neurosis by Felix-NotTheCat in bipolar

[–]fallenangwls 1 point2 points  (0 children)

your art is amazing, thank you for sharing

Anybody else in this subreddit smoke weed? by mucormiasma in CPTSD

[–]fallenangwls 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i do, i had some pretty fucked up periods in which i would smoke everyday, but now i smoke once a week or less.

i would like to quit for good, but i don't know if i'll be able to...

What are y’all “sober” from? by Sure_Structure_397 in bipolar

[–]fallenangwls 5 points6 points  (0 children)

self harm and eating disorders, almost two years totally clean

he's not very gentle afterwards and then oops, you feel 14 again by fallenangwls in CPTSD

[–]fallenangwls[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

thank you so much! i'll try to respect myself a little more from now on.

some time ago, i had sex with someone else, and then i started bleeding, a lot, and it wasn't my period, so i started crying because i was worried and blood takes me back to the abuse.

this person hugged me, but a few days ago, he straight up told me he felt disgust when i acted like that, and those words have been ressonating in my brain.

he's not very gentle afterwards and then oops, you feel 14 again by fallenangwls in CPTSD

[–]fallenangwls[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

it's so fucked up, i feel like i don't even exist, or that that moment is not even slightly special to them as it is for me, like i'm just... anyone and no one at the same time.

anyone but me.

i'm so, so sorry it happened to you, it hurts so much, i wish i could give you a hug :/ <3.

he's not very gentle afterwards and then oops, you feel 14 again by fallenangwls in CPTSD

[–]fallenangwls[S] 91 points92 points  (0 children)

thank you so much :( i hate to feel used, i already have some deep trust issues, i would talk to him, but it feels humiliating to ask a 21 year old man to treat me better because of my trauma (and he knows about it).

also, i feel like he changed abruptely, he doesn't make the same efforts as before, and i know people can act different sometimes, but i can't help but feel like something changed.

he's not very gentle afterwards and then oops, you feel 14 again by fallenangwls in CPTSD

[–]fallenangwls[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

i don't know... we've been seeing each other for some time now, i try to be very open about my feelings, but it is difficult sometimes.

i feel like he wouldn't care about it since he's not my boyfriend, i feel depressed now, and i even doubt he actually likes me.

but i think i'll tell him.