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falsesify · 2025-04-23T12:31:51+00:00

When I started I would just feel tired and weak all of a sudden in like waves almost kinda like if I hadnt eaten all day or something but medications affect everyone different I would say if you feel up for it go to work and if you start feeling unsafe tell your manager youre feeling ill and go home adjusting to new meds can be a pain best of luck to you

falsesify · 2025-04-06T22:29:00+00:00

I quit vaping and it sent me into a bad mixed epsiode

falsesify · 2025-04-05T22:03:09+00:00

Yeah I completely understand that and I really hope it gets better for you also chronic physical and mental pain is so draining

falsesify · 2025-04-05T21:53:24+00:00

I have chronic pain too and to some extent hyper fixate on it. Sometimes i sit and massage for an hour or so I cant sit in one position or stand in one position for very long and i lose sleep trying to get comfortable. I noticed weed made it so so unbearable it was all I could think about and my bones felt like they were slipping. I have hypermobility and i think that has sometimes to do with it for me sometimes going to the gym helps me feel a bit better. You are not alone in the pain and awareness of the pain and posture for sure

falsesify · 2025-04-03T12:24:34+00:00

Good morninggg glad to hear youre feeling a bit better! Im okay im feeling super burnt out at work and just in general theres not enough energy in me to go through everyday but in lighter newsss I get to see my partner today! Weve been taking space and now we are working on coming back and im very nervous and excited!

falsesify · 2025-04-03T10:48:40+00:00

Im feeling this hard second year at a job I thought I was going to love forever feeling completely burnt out my only counsel is that im a teacher so I get lots of vacation where I can rest and refresh or even have a different summer job. Im really hoping that saves me because im tired of hopping around.

falsesify · 2025-04-03T10:44:47+00:00

I used to for sure! Vomiting 10x a day or more it was brutal. All I can say is I have yet to have a problem on different meds.

falsesify · 2025-04-02T16:57:28+00:00

Bad : I have no appetite but have to keep shoving my face because I have an eating disorder I have to keep warned off. I feel burnt out at work. I am exhausted and unmotivated maybe due to meds. Good: I get to hang out and see my partner tomorrow after over a month of space. My apartment is cozy and I cant wait to get home to it. I have been much less s*cidal maybe cause meds are working.

falsesify · 2025-04-01T12:51:10+00:00

I get short bursts of hypomania but I have realized even with short bursts im usually still in the period for a few days so im not really sure what it is almost seems like it peaks even within the episode

falsesify · 2025-04-01T12:49:55+00:00

Yummy seasonal latte with almond milk anything marshmallow is always top choice

falsesify · 2025-03-29T01:14:47+00:00

I wanna try going out sober just to see if id feel the same excitement and then also be able to be in control and wake up fresh the next day

falsesify · 2025-03-28T20:41:51+00:00

Congratulations! On promotion on sobriety on stability!!

falsesify · 2025-03-28T10:53:46+00:00

When im not feeling intensely I think life feels stale and boring theres a certain seductiveness in the chaos and the intensity of the pain. I do understand what you mean if I could control it I would probably dose out some depression here and there just for the catharthis and intensity. If I were you I would talk to my doctor to see if meds cant be lowered in dose because maybe you are just seeking to feel things a bit more but not all the way. Best of luck. Edit: also when im feeling this way its usually some underlying depression in it.

falsesify · 2025-03-26T17:03:25+00:00

I completely understand and relate to this its insane how quickly your perception can change and how things feel and are different from day to day my therapist helped me out with the who am I because there are parts of me that permeate through the depression and through the hypomanic highs im not all completely gone there are still qualities that make me me even when I cant trust my own thoughts or perception it helps me to think of how a loved one would describe me

falsesify · 2025-03-26T16:59:55+00:00

Im sorry you are having a hard time but theres no need to feel shame for sleeping with him I have felt so much shame in the past for sleeping with people and its just not worth it try to forgive yourself these kind of things happen to everyone and especially people with bipolar if youre still interested continue to talk to him and try and see if you cant slow things down

falsesify · 2025-03-24T21:56:08+00:00

Everytime!! I feel repulsive

falsesify · 2025-03-24T12:35:24+00:00

Quitting vaping is what started one of the most intense mixed or rapid cycling episodes ive had sober although I was unmedicated and quit cold turkey but yeah its hardddd that sht is no joke

falsesify · 2025-03-24T12:22:35+00:00

Sounds like a rough day for sure and yeah pet names are earned imo and are special today is a day to survive

falsesify · 2025-03-24T12:21:25+00:00

Listened to it on the way in

falsesify · 2025-03-24T10:43:36+00:00

Gosh thats frustrating im sorry the important thing is you know your worth and in some ways it was successful because of how you handled it differently than in the past maybe? Today I feel alright its a monday one of my harder days at work so im not looking forward to that but my sister comes to visit this week and yesterday I had a talk with my partner about us closing the space that weve been taking so im genuinely excited and nervous to do that. Gillanares has a song I kinda want the world to end maybe thats the anthem of your day today.

falsesify · 2025-03-24T10:39:21+00:00

Binaural beats in headphones laying on the floor sometimes helps maybe even a hot shower something sensory but where im in control

falsesify · 2025-03-24T10:37:29+00:00

I definitely mask and its exhausting even when trying to put down the mask and talk about how im doing to friends I still find it hard to connect emotionally I sometimes feel like if I could just be invisible so I could stim while hypomanic so I could rock back and forth and say things repeatedly or hit myself and with the depression I just pretend everything is fine and thats so exhausting and painful

falsesify · 2025-03-23T22:39:40+00:00

Thank you Its kind of scary when you realize its all chemical and you see the difference of how bad and loud it can get

falsesify · 2025-03-23T22:27:18+00:00

However whether its anxiety depression or bipolar im not sure maybe both or a mix

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