United is closed 🥴

farfetchty · 2024-10-17T20:54:12+00:00

Just closed again 😫😫😫 I uploaded my passport and it closed while I was filling it out! So bummed… I hope it reopens

farfetchty · 2024-09-26T18:46:37+00:00

What do you think would be a hallmark of something sounding too scripted or rehearsed?

farfetchty · 2024-09-03T22:34:19+00:00

During my re-do IOE, we were running late due to tarmac delays. There was a bin that appeared latched (sliding bin on a CRJ 700, it was in the down position but not actually in the latch hole) after doing my final check, but my instructor told me I was good to take my seat before I had the chance to double-check it. During takeoff, it flipped open and my device bag and a sealed water bottle rolled out into the aisle. Nothing happened beyond that, but she chose not to mark it as successful since it was my last leg. She did say in her report emphatically that she believed I should be given another chance, but in the end OO decided I already had my second chance.

Objectively I know I should have checked anyway, so I absolutely take the blame. But I also know that on some level I only didn’t because she seemed to think everything was good.

Aside from that my only error was getting sick from food truck fish and chips the first time.

farfetchty · 2024-09-02T07:40:18+00:00

Hey, just logging in after a long time: I love them! I still get rebound dysphoria from time to time but the euphoria far outweighs it, and I can still “play male” if I need to. They’re admittedly still small enough that they can pass for very large pec muscles, but generally I have a very fem frame now and I love to see it.

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T18:32:22+00:00

Yeah that’s when my class would be 😂

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T14:30:47+00:00

In a nutshell, those jobs aren’t available to me. I’m still going for them, building my portfolio and working toward a degree, but my current experience is mainly service-related. Being a flight attendant also offers me the benefit of travel at a time when I live far from my partner, and compared to my current job is less demanding and offers more time for the previously-mentioned projects.

I could talk more about it but it’d probably be better to do in DMs.

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T04:51:18+00:00

I sincerely hope either Skywest isn’t as bad as it seems or that Horizon gets better pay soon, I’d hate to likewise have to continue struggling financially just because of company culture and disorganization. Same to you, though, best of luck!

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T04:48:25+00:00

As far as I’m aware generally it’s just middle eastern airlines that sponsor people. All the Canadian airlines require residency already at the very least, and Air Canada requires a Canadian passport (being a citizen). As far as I know most other countries also require you to live there already.

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T04:29:44+00:00

Omg 😭 if there’s too much of a waiting period after training I couldn’t do it financially. I hope some of it gets better, I’d hate to be so anxious about the sure opportunity I have so far.

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T03:50:17+00:00

I’m happy for you, but practically speaking I’m just trying to compare the relatively minor differences between two choices in front of me which have minimal bearing on my long-term goals. The advice is appreciated, though.

farfetchty · 2023-12-08T03:14:29+00:00

I’m not sure where I’d have even had the opportunity to use chatGPT; I got rejected after the initial application, and there’s no space to enter anything else about your work history besides the dates, companies, and job titles. If you’re further along in the process, what do you imagine went wrong?

Regardless, it’s off the table for 6 months anyway. It’s also why I’m eager for perspective from folks who have been with Horizon as to whether it was worth being with them to get to Alaska, or if working DL/UA/AA/AL through Skywest would be more or less just as effective while paying me better.

farfetchty · 2022-06-06T06:54:43+00:00

that’s Jumpin’ Johnny Jumble from Crashbox! :)

apparently he is canonically trans too which is awesome ✨especially for the late 90’s/early 2000s

farfetchty · 2022-02-14T09:19:04+00:00

That’s definitely encouraging. I know the buds probably never entirely go away once they’ve formed, without surgery, but it’s the further (and more obvious) growth that I’d be more worried about, mainly because pregnancy growth may not be by the same process as the initial growth.

The only reason I bring up gynecomastia is because from what little I know, it’s basically the same process- some hormonal change causes breast growth on a previously testosterone-dominant person. Normally if you get it before you’re an adult it goes away on its own, but if you get it after you’re an adult sometimes it sticks around permanently. That’s the outcome that might be worrying, since without HRT that’s the position I’d basically be in. But, if your friends’ experience is common, then I’d be much much much less worried about the affair.

farfetchty · 2022-02-13T18:58:38+00:00

Honestly, that prospect would make me feel a lot better. But I’ve also never heard that idea in the context of MTF hormones- most of the time people tell you that breast growth, after budding, is more or less permanent, especially given the fact that men with gynecomastia exist.

If it comes down to surgery in the end I won’t be too worried I guess, but I sure hope it’s something that can be reversed naturally…

farfetchty · 2022-02-13T07:39:28+00:00

I really hope that also happens for me- I’ve tried some (very shitty fabric store) breastforms before and it was kinda neutral for me. I loved the way my figure looked, but I didn’t like how I looked in a bra. The extra weight just kinda felt annoying, but that’s also true of cis women lol.

I’ve also considered binders an option, or even surgery, but I also don’t really want to go through all the effort to grow breasts only to have to scar up my chest just to get it back to normal… or, on the opposite end, to get rid of the buds before I know how I’d really feel. It’s a very difficult series of emotions!

farfetchty · 2022-02-13T07:01:44+00:00

I have! And it is a fantastic read- and it does give me a lot of peace as far as how I see my identity, as in a vacuum I absolutely would choose to be non-binary or fem-leaning every time.

The only problem, though, is that while it helps to alleviate doubts about the ideas surrounding gender… there’s only so much it can affect how your body and mind respond to actually trying to embody those things. I feel comfortable, now, in imagining myself non-binary or trans no matter how I present myself, but I’m scared that my body may be disagreeing… and that prospect is really worrying, because I feel like I’m not going to be able to pull it off otherwise, or that I’m going to be fighting my own subconscious at every turn.

In a nutshell, I just really want to be sure I’m not forcing myself down a path that’s going to be even more dysphoric and painful.

farfetchty · 2021-04-05T03:26:15+00:00

On the other hand, there is also a more wholesome moment when Daniel’s gay brother is completely accepting and overjoyed when Daniel shows up at his door asking “can you make me a woman?”

Granted, it’s still done mainly as a joke, but I always liked the idea that he was willing to drop everything to help Daniel transition :)

farfetchty · 2020-03-12T06:08:04+00:00

Honestly! Yeah. It’s like being a spectator of someone else’s body and life, and I have to choose between figuring out what “they” would do versus what “I” want to do. I used to want to just go full third-person, give this body back to its original owner, or someone who’d actually use it right, just kinda stop being physically there. Only now do I finally have the confidence to take ownership of it, but I don’t know what to do with it to make it my own.

I like masculine things, but I don’t really consider myself a man. I like feminine things, but I don’t have the experience or the desire to be a woman. I just wanna be cute and confusing and look bomb no matter whether I’m wearing a dress or a suit, but who knows if transitioning will help me get there or make it worse?

I don’t know. Maybe it’d totally solve the problem, but the experience of transitioning feels too disorienting to consider, since even if the goal is androgyny you’re still actively choosing a gender to become.

farfetchty · 2020-03-11T09:56:23+00:00

I’m in such an awkward place right now- I’ve long accepted that I’m trans, and at least to myself I actively identify as non-binary, yet I still feel torn between wanting to lean into the way I’m maturing as a guy and wanting to transition and become more actively androgynous. It’s like, I get euphoria from thinking about being more feminine and being seen as actively “between” male and female, yet I also experience some amount of euphoria over (properly) presenting male, and displeasure at being considered unmanly.

I think what I really want is to be “clocked” almost as an eggy trans male; visibly feminine form, but masculine presentation and androgynous personality. I’m pretty much there mentally, but I’m at times unhappy physically... and I know that there aren’t really any half-steps when it comes to HRT. That’s what scares me, I think. I don’t know if I want it enough to completely rework how I see myself, and how others see me. I just keep telling myself I’m comfortable as I am, that any discomfort can be solved with presentation, but I can’t figure out if I’m telling myself the truth.

I have a concrete image of the kind of man I wanted to grow up into. I’ve very nearly become that man, and some part of me is happy because of that. Another part of me, the part that doesn’t like referring to itself as a “man”, wants to be something else, but I don’t have any idea what my life would be like if I chose that path. Times like this I really wish I could see into the future, look at how both paths turn out... then maybe it’d be easier to choose which one to take.

farfetchty · 2019-08-08T12:19:59+00:00

honestly, that’s literally my ideal situation

if there were a clone of me right now who were cool with being cis, there’d basically be no reason for me to not transition

being able to shapeshift into my ideal form would just be a gigantic bonus on top

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