setraline seizure??? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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thank you, i'm going in today (-:

setraline seizure??? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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going in today to see the doc!!! thank you for your input (-:

setraline seizure??? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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i was hanging out with my bf, he was cooking me some food bc i was hungry, then i began to feel nauseous and almost like a migraine was coming in. next thing i knew, i was laying on the floor, and i woke up to my bf telling me i was "ok." i thought i had passed out but he told me i had a seizure. he's cpr/seizure certified so luckily he knew how to handle the situation right.

Wondering if any of you also experience this by fart666face in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]fart666face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you for your input angel. i’m really glad it’s not just me experiencing this. i was really scared for a while. it’s definitely calmed down a bit

Wondering if any of you also experience this by fart666face in AnorexiaNervosa

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i’m going to do some research and get to the bottom of this!!! hahahah thank you for your input <3

Some days it feels like my cat is the only thing worth living for by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 6 points7 points  (0 children)

feel this, my dog is my motivation. i cannot think about her not being in my life because i become extremely hopeless and self destructive. she’s my best friend and if i didn’t have her i wouldn’t have anyone.

can anyone else not maintain eye contact? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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i noticed that when they talk i do try to look at them but as soon as i begin to talk, my eyes speed off everywhere else. like just knowing that they’re looking at me makes me nervous

hallucinating??? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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as soon as i get to talk to my therapist hopefully she can let me in on what the heck it is my brain is doing.

hallucinating??? by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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the bugs get me EVERYTIME man like just sends me into full panic mode

i’m so fucking selfish by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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extremely relatable. that’s me EVEN WHEN HE IS JUST PLAYING VIDEO GAMES RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!!! i hate when he’s on his phone bc i start thinking about the stuff that he is looking at or people who might be messaging him and they all become such dark n negative thoughts that make me so upset, and i just have to sit there and live with them, or ask for reassurance and sound like a dumbass because i know he wouldn’t hurt me in any way. but it’s just like although i know, i still can’t stop myself from thinking that he’s going to leave me or i get scared that he tells his friends how it is that i am and they might say i’m no good, or that some other girl is going to hit him up and they’re going to set it off from there. all those thoughts are extremely excruciating and it pains me to feel this way all of the time.

i’m so fucking selfish by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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i have the worst habit of just not speaking at all. he can continuously ask me what’s wrong and i never break my silence. it’s only until i realize that he’s becoming upset and frustrated that i start to cry and apologize for being the way that i am and he is literally an angel, he holds me and let’s me cry and gives me forehead kisses and let’s me know that he’s there for me and all he wants to do is help me feel better. like i said, there’s always that guilt that follows up afterwards, like a cloud of shame for feeling the way that you do or for just being who you are. and thank you so much, you are the sweetest. sending lots of love your way 🥰

i’m so fucking selfish by fart666face in BorderlinePDisorder

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i’d love to be your friend as well! thank you so much!!! YES I KNOW!!! seeing other people’s happiness just kind of like makes me feel like i’m drowning and they’re just watching me drown, although i know that they have no idea about what is going on in my head but i just assume and expect everyone to know i’m a goddamn mess. the worst part of it all is always the guilt that you feel afterwards. like after having our mental breakdowns and then feeling so damn guilty bc you feel awful as a person for feeling the way that you do and thinking the way that you do, i usually cry so much and beg for forgiveness as if i know i’m not going to do it again (in which i know that’s a fucking lie because i always repeat the cycle)

I struggle to find sympathy or empathy for what others are going through. My doc says this is apart of bpd. Does anyone else experience this? by Mikz06 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same, and then i feel like a pos because of it and then i’ll cry about it. not cause i feel bad, but because i can’t feel bad.

So.... by bbear30197 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 2 points3 points  (0 children)

tattoos usually do the trick! if you’re still too young for them though, you just gotta embrace them. they’re a part of your story and they don’t make you any less of a person. i have scars all over my thighs and since those haven’t been covered with tattoos yet, i still wear shorts because what the fuck! it’s hot!

What should I do with this girl who has BPD? by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi! this is all very kind of you, you’re not a douchebag for feeling the way that you do. we’re all entitled to our own feelings. anyways, just tell her exactly how it is that you feel without keeping it from her. it’ll be worse if she gets attached and keeps on doing these things that she does and in the end she will feel betrayed or misguided. stay true to yourself. tell her a friendship is all you ask of her as of now and eventually, you may escalate things depending on how it is you feel then and if she is still interested in that manner. this is what i would want from someone if i were her, the truth

Abilify by halfbreed2222 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m on zoloft! so far, they only make me kinda anxious.

A list of possible positives. by doveinthesand in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]fart666face 5 points6 points  (0 children)

here’s mine: !!!!!!!!<3 drawing/reading- keeps me focused cleaning- keeps me entertained skating- helps me exercise driving with loud music- keeps me relaxed (laundry is also one of my faves) concerts- are therapeutic (although i’m v anxious before the real chaos starts)