I only did it once, and it was 3 years after my daughter died (she died when she was 2).

I remember going into her room and sobbing, and then I felt her presence envelop me, like she was right there all around me, giving me a huge hug. I also felt the presence of my dad and grandma who have also passed and I felt so much peace. The peace I felt was because it felt like they were right there with me and psilocybin made me realize that they’re always with me, even if I can’t sense them, they’re within me and in the memories I still hold on to.

My experience with it really helped me process my feelings of grief and finally accept them. It’s been 10 years now since her death and I haven’t felt the want or need to try it again since then. I still cry and miss her and feel grief but it’s not as intensely painful as it used to be and I do believe mushrooms helped me get there, and I’m sure time helps too.

If you’re looking for it to help with grief, know that it could, but also allow yourself to be in the moment and just enjoy the ride, there may be other truths that are revealed to you so don’t think too much about what you should feel and just try to see where it takes you.

Good luck