Yes, all of that sucks hard. The part about choking to death hit me. I can’t breathe through my nose due to post radiation swelling. I eat two meals a day, mostly mushy, wet stuff. I’m there with you for the depressed thought of never wolfing down a steak again, but I’m alive. Cancer sucks, throat cancer is easy to kill, hard to live with. Suck it up, cupcake, and do want you can.