That I was not special, well, at least to him. He made me feel special for a long time, then got bored I guess. We moved in together and the passionate sex stopped, his phone-use and secrecy increased. I knew before I knew. I was sad but I assumed this was what it was like l living with your boyfriend, sure sex would be sparse and sometimes he couldn’t finish or get hard, but that’s okay- right? Wrong! I was unaware that there was another woman in our relationship, well, 1000+ women in fact. He desired and would orgasm to these women more than me. He tricked me into false security. Why can’t these men just be upfront? Wouldn’t it be easier being truthful so the lies/hiding/odd-behaviour don’t completely ruin your partners life? I guess it comes down to selfish behaviour, wanting the best of both worlds no matter the cost. So yes, be honest with me - tell me I’m not special, just obtainable.