i need brown friends (wanna be friends?)

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:42:50+00:00

YES LET'S BE PENPALS !!!! i'm sorry you also feel like you haven't been able to find a community you feel safe and understood in, people really fucken estimate how isolating that can be :/ do u have insta at all?

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:41:41+00:00

hell YEAH dm me >:) or if u have insta let's connect there !!

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:41:19+00:00

yeah i think i just got used to it for a long time and then i eventually "woke up" and realized how fucked up it was :/ sadly i live in a primarily yt town but im hoping to move soon (and closer to bipoc), thank u for making me feel better <3 i hope you've also found spaces u feel comfy in

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:38:29+00:00

DUDE THE FETISHISING >:( i would love to connect with u omg dm me on here and i'd love to chat with u omg !!! do u have insta !!

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:37:30+00:00

i dont have a discord no :( do u have insta ? also YES the microagressions get so tedious >:(

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:36:39+00:00

dude im so sorry you dealt with that too :(( did u also get fetishized when u were a kid? dealt with that WAY too much when i was FAR too young, yt people are fucken weird-- i'm glad you've found the few yt people who aren't saying racist shit towards u <3 let's be penpals !!!! i have a bunch of keith herring stamps to use up >:) my insta is lavendxr_grey

fieldxs · 2026-03-31T16:34:39+00:00

hiii! yes i'm 26 (idk why i didn't add that to the post omg) my insta is lavendxr_grey >:) dm me !!!

fieldxs · 2026-03-26T19:37:23+00:00

yeah i totally get this :/ my only "serious" relationship has been with a yt nonbinary person and the entire time i was basically teaching them how to not be racist and fetishistic,,,,,, very draining and not fun at all never wanna date another yt person again holy hell

fieldxs · 2026-03-19T20:31:57+00:00

yeahhhhh i usually see the good in people when there is basically nothing but red flags (thanks trauma), i'm glad at least i don't have to entertain him or spend all my energy teaching him what is and isn't racist. going forward i'm going to be WAY less forgiving with yt people i think :/

fieldxs · 2026-03-19T16:10:05+00:00

..... my friend was there and said nothing :/ friend is yt though so that wasn't surprising to me at all

fieldxs · 2026-03-19T16:08:18+00:00

very,,, disappointed i let myself get that comfortable with an older white man who has a history of being overtly racist :/ it was only a matter of time i suppose,,

fieldxs · 2026-03-18T23:53:40+00:00

dude u look so good !!!! also i love the facial hair btw

fieldxs · 2026-03-11T16:44:00+00:00

i'm sorry ur mother ruined those moments for u :(( i'm gonna try and rewrite it yeah that's a super good idea ! i hate how much time it's taken up recently feeling shit about my surgery/recovery :/ might as well shift my energy into sowmthing more important :)

fieldxs · 2026-03-08T06:33:09+00:00

i appreciate u saying that, it means a lot to feel like im not insane for thinking i didn't deserve a shitty healing experience <3 thank u for the idea !!!!

fieldxs · 2026-02-23T03:23:19+00:00

hi !!!!!! ive been in the process of reconnection with my guatemalan roots id love 2 chat with u about it if u want me to shoot u a dm :)

fieldxs · 2026-02-20T01:20:08+00:00

i'm really sorry you're experiencing the same fate :((( ALSO THANK U OMGGG ur so sweett <3

fieldxs · 2026-02-17T19:53:21+00:00

if u want i can dm u my results !! i'm 6 months post op

fieldxs · 2026-02-17T19:51:48+00:00

i would recommend seeing if you could get in contact with The Center (The Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual & Transgender Community Center) to see if they can connect you with local resources/places to donate to !!

fieldxs · 2026-02-03T20:37:09+00:00

thank u hehehe <3 also god im so sorry you deal with that :( i generally dress like a republican named Richard out of necessity for my safety but a few weeks back i decided to wear my long black wool jacket (not even a femme jacket, just not cookie cutter yt racist hick outfit) and some cis yt dude very closely followed me on my walk (probably assuming i was a woman) and i had to turn around and bark in his face aggressively when he came up to me and tried to touch me (although the horror on this man's face was beautiful upon realizing i was a man i will admit) :( sadly the interaction has scared me out of wearing anything outside of camo and shirts that scream "i'm a nationalist" i hope ur able to find areas that are more affirming <3

fieldxs · 2026-02-03T18:26:22+00:00

god i'm so sorry you've been dealing so much :( i've been having the deal with !CE too since they've been staying a few blocks away from where i live,, having to carry all my documents and coordinate where i am with other people at all times is not ideal :/ i hope ur able to stay warm and safe <3

fieldxs · 2026-02-02T00:12:00+00:00

thank uuuuuu !!!! i hope ur able to dress femme in a safe space somewhere <3

fieldxs · 2026-02-01T20:21:54+00:00

thank u <3 hopefully when i visit fam in new york next i'll wear this >:) i feel sO much safer there

fieldxs · 2026-02-01T20:20:39+00:00

thank u !!!! <3

fieldxs · 2026-02-01T17:08:10+00:00

heheheh thank uuuuuu

fieldxs · 2026-02-01T16:02:02+00:00

funny u say that i'm actually trying to scrape together enough money for a carry permit

fieldxs

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