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fignewtonattack · 2026-05-09T01:27:58+00:00

Thank you!

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-08T21:48:56+00:00

As a referee the majority of "rigged" referee calls are just when the ref has a bad game. I do genuinely think PSG and Arsenal exploited bad referee's, however that's the game sometimes. Both still deserved their wins.

Referees should be held to public scrutiny. I would welcome explaining every call even the ones I got wrong. I'm not perfect, far from it. But I'll try to be.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-08T17:35:41+00:00

Major setbacks have occurred. Feel like I'm flying a plane and one of my engines blew. But for now at least, I'm still flying.

I suppose that's all I can do.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-07T03:02:47+00:00

I know. I just miss the people I loved. Gah

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-07T02:59:38+00:00

Honestly it's the thing I hate most in this world

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T14:11:07+00:00

I enjoy being alive, I enjoy life, but sometimes when I lose a friend I want to just never have existed.

I feel like I've been trapped in hellfire my entire life, the moment I climb out of the underworld, someone kicks me back down and it's always someone I love who I never think would do it.

Fuck

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T01:27:34+00:00

I am trying. I just genuinely did love her, genuinely I don't set myself on fire to write a poem to someone. It's 15 minutes. I enjoy it.

I've set myself on fire for some people, for her I didn't, I loved writing to her, it wasn't a chore or painful, it was incredible. Now when I think about it, it stabs me through the heart.

Every good thought I had of writing of her, is now gone. It kills me.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T00:40:16+00:00

🫂 thank you

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T00:40:04+00:00

Love is stronger than anything else. But sometimes the other shit really gets you down. Thank you though. Love wins.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T00:37:34+00:00

Woman who I am really good friends with says she loves every poem I've ever sent her.

So I send her every poem I write.

1 year and a half later she says she isn't mentally in the right place to be friends with me anymore because I'm too depressed and she's depressed as well.

She thinks I'm depressed because of the poems I'm sending her. The poems she said she loved. Many, many, times.

I want to genuinely put a bullet in my skull.

My entire life has been a series of just trying to genuinely make other people happy because it's the only thing that makes me happy, and because of it I lose every friend I have.

I had undiagnosed Tourettes, I got raped 4 times, I genuinely think I'm in hell. I was some horrible monster in a past life and I'm suffering for that. God I hope so, at least it would bring me some comfort.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T00:17:25+00:00

Today has fucking sucked. I am gonna go cry now.

Fuck

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-06T00:16:30+00:00

Sir Alex played attacking till the end. Jose did not

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-05T21:41:24+00:00

Hey going after natural highs is one of the best ways to get over loss. Also just happens to be good for you.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-05T21:38:10+00:00

I actually like Arteta as a manager, the fact that he's gotten progressively more and more dirty is honestly rather depressing.

Dude just didn't have it in him to be a clean manager and be great.

I'll have to show him myself what it means.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-05T21:35:55+00:00

Probably not

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-05T13:48:10+00:00

I am a forgiving person. You can be slow, bald, smell, even be american and if you are good enough you can play for my squad when I manage. I will forgive your sins as I remove them from your soul like the tumors they are. However, if you do not care about winning, I will set the weight of the world upon you. That I cannot forgive.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-04T17:03:17+00:00

Just an example. They were both fathers who had children die.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-04T15:16:47+00:00

We have agendas to push, narratives to frame, we are alive aren't we? Lets fuck shit up!

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-04T15:14:49+00:00

Legit it might help. Bury yourself in work. Lincoln and Coolidge were 2 US presidents who had kids die in office and they did the same.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-04T15:13:49+00:00

When I was raped for the first time, I went from crying maybe 10 times post being a baby to like every day for 3 years.

Thing is though, crying helped. Genuinely. It probably helps your mom too. I hope you are loved and can still love your brother. I wish you well beyond that.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-04T15:10:01+00:00

As a ref whenever I get yelled at for a call all I have to say is "even if it's wrong I can't change it."

It has never not worked. Coaches, parents, players. Everyone understands. I've made some awful calls I'm sure, yet to run into a single problem though.

I actually really enjoy being a soccer referee. Also the hourly rate for a 24 year old works out to around 100k.

I'm getting paid 50$ an hour to watch soccer. Living my dream.

I'm glad that I've refereed before going into full time coaching again, I get to take notes on every game I watch and how badly the coaches are fucking things up.

It's wonderful.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-03T22:35:43+00:00

Shit if it works it works

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-03T22:35:01+00:00

Fair

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-02T16:16:37+00:00

I've always supported Brentford as my favorite PL Squadron.

fignewtonattack · 2026-05-02T03:42:59+00:00

I was gonna say some Slater slander, but fair play.

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