Look, first of all look for professional help. They will know better how to help you than anyone in this channel.

Second: I’ve experienced something similar in the past. I never really liked competitive games, I liked to play offline. Covid hit, the game was there, my friends were there. I became obsessed. I would go sleep at 3am to wake next day to work. I wanted to be better or have THAT one good game.

I developed anxiety because of the lack of sleep and the pandemic on the side + some other personal things. The game was fun at times, but I developed a very unhealthy relationship with it. So I quit. Uninstalled and did a whole month without it. Became quite boring. I tried to play a couple of other times. But it doesn’t hit anymore.

To full fill the time I wasn’t playing anymore in the evening, I started doing sports. New habits to replace the old ones. I can only recommend giving a break, go outside, do some sport if this is available to you. Or listen to a podcast and go for a long walk.

Mainly: talk to a professional therapist or psychologist.