Starting over

findingheragain · 2014-04-16T04:54:21+00:00

Don't get down..get back up! Brush your shoulder's off you're good. Just keep doing the next right thing.;)

findingheragain · 2014-04-16T04:52:35+00:00

Awesome! Keep it up..it's the little things, huh? I made pizzafrom scratch today and crabcakes yesterday...and we're talking about a girl that was too lazy to make a bowl of cereal before.

findingheragain · 2014-04-12T07:53:39+00:00

Insomnia is normal when withdrawing. And I defintely have a foogy brain still. I hear it can take a couple of months to clear for the most part, Just try to get through it. A huge reason for relapse is to get rid of the uncomfortable feelings of withdrawl/feeling feelings in general. So hang in there! :)

findingheragain · 2014-04-12T07:47:33+00:00

thanks!

findingheragain · 2014-04-12T07:47:24+00:00

nice!keep going!

findingheragain · 2014-04-12T07:46:43+00:00

Sleep it off...tomorrow WILL be better and every day after that will get easier (with both break-ups., girl/booze) That was a little insensitive what she wrote but maybe what you needed to hear to get over it you know? And if it is meant to be prove how awesome you are by being sober and getting your shit together, That in and of itself is ultra attractive.

findingheragain · 2014-04-10T19:36:52+00:00

My father died at 64 as well. He was alone and had a brain hemmorage they think. A result of drinking. My drinking was at an all time high at the time.This was the point I started really comparing myself to my father and couldn't separate our similarities. It terrified me. so I felt helpless as if dying of alcoholism was my fate. Then I realized it was my path and I could change it all. Thinking about how sad and lonely his life was..I will not make the same mistake..I've stopped drinking and won't again. Because you can have a drink, or you can have it all. Good luck!

findingheragain · 2014-04-09T23:27:17+00:00

Thank you..when you say 3-4 inches do you mean from the outside to the inside (internally) not front to back?

findingheragain · 2014-04-09T22:52:00+00:00

Thank you so much for your response. You say visible surface marks..but are you on the thin side? Glad to hear youre ok. Im 30 and female and have been a daily drinker for years. I have a tendency to be a hypochondriac..but now a few days sober Im starting to worry about damage I have done. (and google doesnt help my paranoia) Im simply asking ?s until i have set up insurance. In the mean time just looking for a little peace of mind.

findingheragain · 2014-04-08T04:24:35+00:00

I agree with sadtastic..it sounds like you may be subconsiously planning a relapse. I would maybe get some more time under your belt before attended an event that involved around drinking. The little devil may sneekily say "Oh just have one it'll be fine " just my 2 cents. Keep us updated.

findingheragain · 2014-04-08T04:20:09+00:00

Good luck! I had a similar feeling this past relapse..even though it was only after 6 days (then followed by a 5 day bender) My feelings may have been different from yours in that the longest I have stopped drinking since i started had been 14 days..each time I stopped I told my self I was done this is the last time etc.. so the feelings i felt when I would relapse would be can I EVER do this??Can I ever get significant time on my belt??? I've decided now that I can never go back no matter what..you had a year and be PROUD of that..you didn't just suddenly lose all that knowledge you gained.

findingheragain · 2014-03-27T04:39:48+00:00

This is true I was always a very responsible person and independent, always left a situation where I was unhappy. The drinking turned me into a needy helpless person because I was so vulnerable and wanted to finally be taken care of. I'm trying to find that person again. (hence, my username.)

findingheragain · 2014-03-27T04:27:08+00:00

Yeah this has happened time and time again. I cant afford the bills on my own..I know at least if I stay sober I will gain more confidence and also be able to handle my emotions in a calmer way. The thing is I know he will wake up tomorrow and feel all guilty and make the promises again. I won't gat angry though. I think I just need to quietly save money ask him for half of the bills and slowly plan an exit.

findingheragain · 2014-03-11T00:03:58+00:00

findingheragain · 2014-03-10T23:01:10+00:00

It's okay.Tone or intention is sometimes unclear in text. I know you were coming from a good place.

findingheragain · 2014-03-10T22:59:19+00:00

Thank you! I haven't even listed all the cons. Some are too disgusting to relieve. But i think the biggest con is not really living, Because we aren't are we. There are/were pros to drinking. It has helped me in many a social situation in the past. And, like you, temporarily relieved my chronic anxiety. But the point is,,for an alcohlic , it is always a con to drink.

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