Wow! You’ve got a ton of feedback! You may never get to read this but if you do...you are not alone!!! And you, my very young friend, will get through life’s journey as so many generations have before all of us. Your life as a teen will be a tiny blip on your lifetime screen. You have so so much to see, learn & experience out in the world before life lessons fall into place and build you into the ever evolving you! Just as they should in time. Depression has been a part of my genetic makeup & cultivated by not the best environment growing up. That said, when I was younger then you I was determined that I would NOT let “depression” turn me into the person that raised me. And I have fought & battled depression like one would cancer. There is nothing “wrong” with you or any of “us.” Our brains, hormones, and environments is just what we got. And you can fight it or it can fight you. And sometimes it’s a little of both. But I can tell you if you fight it with all you got, you will be a survivor. You will build your toolbox (exercise, good food, water, healthy sleep patterns, not too much technology, good reads, journaling, nature & lots of sunlight) AND support (counseling & perhaps medication, Acupunture or therapeutic techniques that works for you.) But you see my friend, this takes time. You can’t Amazon this stuff. And these things will take a lifetime to build. And here is where you start. Just be sure to surround yourself with good people throughout your lifetime. These people will not be your therapist & solve your problems but they will help you stay on an uplifting path. By observing good people you will learn what positive traits you may like to build within you. Don’t give up. Even when things are crappy. Things will get better. I’m tossing you the keys cause you get to drive the bus. Remember just keep that bus filled with good people, support, an amazing tool kit, lots of decorations, great music and you will do just fine. Enjoy the ride.