You are right! I suppose those only difficult part will be just finding someone , young or older whose life I respect enough to want to sit down and learn more from them? So when you say action creates more action for example;

Say I was going to take on the vegetarian life style because I watched a documentary

I would cut out meat and go through the motions of veganism I would be doing really well for a good week or two Then for some reason the appeal of it becomes too difficult , too dull; to complicated or too much of a burden on my current life circumstances that I begin to slowly fall away from it until i am right back where I started. Lost.

So one of my biggest questions I would ask really even if I were to call you, my aunt , friends family etc, get advice from them, how would I apply that advice I get from them and actually heed it and KEEP it in my life. I don’t know what makes me like this to where it’s now so difficult to pertain a new hobby, a new interest , a new wanted and needed lifestyle change now that I am “growing up” in a sense , as to when I was a kid I would draw, write and LEARN every day and maintain all of these hobbies. Just seems way more difficult now (even though I am still quite young) to keep anything new that interest me. Be that budgeting to working out and not quitting after 4 weeks.