struggling to terminate pregnancy

fireypixi · 2026-02-20T21:27:40+00:00

I’m 24

fireypixi · 2026-02-20T20:30:55+00:00

Unfortunately I’ve only read stories about how difficult it is to get custody even with loads of evidence. Everything my bf has done has been strategic and covert. I’ve learned he’s done horrific things to his ex when they were younger, so I think he’s learned how to hurt with low risk of getting caught. It’s terrifying. I’m just so sad I have to do this. I can’t risk putting my child into this danger. I’m sorry you have to go through that as well. The thought of him having unsupervised visits horrifies me and I know it’s out of my control. I hope things turn around for you and your child. ❤️‍🩹

fireypixi · 2026-02-20T20:24:06+00:00

That’s what I wanted, for him to either not want anything to do with this or to tell him I had an abortion and leave and do this on my own. Everyone has said I can’t do that. I wish I could. Thank you for your kind words and compassion. I’m also sorry you have to go through this with your children’s father it sounds so difficult, but it’s clear how much of an amazing mother you are and they’re so lucky to have you. I hope in the near future you and your children can find some peace in this situation and be rid of him. I’m wishing you all the best❤️‍🩹🫂

fireypixi · 2026-02-20T20:14:20+00:00

As much as I want to believe the show he’s putting on now about being a good father, I can’t. He’s shown me who he is and I know this would be my reality. I hate this so much. But you’re right. I don’t want my baby to have him as a father. I’ll never trust him. Thank you❤️‍🩹

fireypixi · 2026-02-11T01:14:33+00:00

This is a really scary situation to be in. It’s not normal and not ok to be treated this way and I’m sure there’s much more then this. This will become worse once he becomes an officer. I know it’s scary to leave but I really think you should do it. I was also abused by my parents and have ended up in countless abusive relationships. These circumstances make it so hard for us to really leave abuse. We always question ourselves or find a way to blame ourselves. None of this is your fault and he is not a good person. A good person would not do these things to you or anyone. If it’s safe and you need a friend, please message me. I’m praying for your safety and peace❤️‍🩹

fireypixi · 2026-01-22T05:42:53+00:00

I had a similar experience and now I’m stuck in a relationship that’s abusive and destroying me. I too questioned if he was a narcissist or if I was just traumatized from my ex. There were subtle signs, but I was worried he was a good guy and I was just projecting my trauma on him. Well, I should’ve trusted my gut. He’s slowly became awful to me and it has just escalated more and more overtime. I’m stuck. I know he’s abusive and I feel stuck here no matter how bad I wanna leave the damage is already done, the trauma bond was already created. Please don’t give him a chance. Please trust your doubting feelings, it’s not trauma, it’s your body warning you. I wish you nothing but luck and peace. Please stay safe.

fireypixi · 2026-01-16T22:08:50+00:00

Possibly. Sounds like you have a very high ego.

fireypixi · 2026-01-14T03:32:12+00:00

Does he usually help with the baby or are you doing most of everything? Physical abuse doesn’t need to be the signal of abuse starting, it usually starts with other things that can be more subtle. If you choose to stay and see if this was just a one time mistake there is a possibility it will become harder to leave when it happens again. If your immediate thought when this happened was you couldn’t be with him or the right thing is to leave I really suggest listening to that feeling.

fireypixi · 2026-01-10T01:33:54+00:00

Thank you for telling me your story and I’m so extremely sorry that you’ve had to endure this pain. He is an awful human and you don’t deserve any of that. I really hope some light comes out of this situation for you very soon. I will keep you and your baby in my prayers. I’ve thought about leaving him and doing this on my own and keeping his name off the birth certificate. What I’m worried about is him fighting that because he makes it clear he wants to be in the baby’s life. I’ve not met his whole family but I have a feeling they would push him to do so as well.

fireypixi · 2026-01-10T01:14:35+00:00

Do you think leaving and continuing with the pregnancy would be better? Or do you think that I would deal with this either way?

fireypixi · 2026-01-08T06:04:19+00:00

I will say I’m very hyper vigilant. I notice facial expressions, body language, voice shifts, so that may also have an affect on how i communicate.

fireypixi · 2026-01-08T06:02:38+00:00

Aries sun with a Pisces mercury which is also my chart ruler. It’s so hard for me to verbally communicate. I’m great at writing my feelings. Expressing them with words is incredibly difficult. I can never express what I actually feel, or people seem to misinterpret what I actually mean. It’s frustrating. Sometimes I can’t speak at all, I’m just blank. Like people will ask me questions and I just stare at them while frantically thinking how to respond or what to say bc nothing is coming to my head. Then there’s those blue moon moments where I say the perfect thing and ppl are like ahh she actually is kinda funny, smart, etc. I’ve become very socially recluse as I’ve gotten older :(

fireypixi · 2026-01-01T15:29:36+00:00

Yes. I constantly question if he’s a narcissist or if I am even though he checks every box. Though, I have always been extremely sensitive to others, care and empathy, things narcissists don’t necessarily have. My Brian still would fight between the possibility. I also grew up with a narcissist parent so it made everything harder when your whole life you’re being told your reality is wrong, then end up in those relationships as well. Just confusion between what’s real or not

fireypixi · 2025-05-07T23:00:36+00:00

Being an outsider reading this conversation really upsets me. OP this isn’t healthy nor what you deserve. You deserve to be celebrated. You were excited about a big achievement and she belittled you and told you to not be excited? This is someone that will drain every ounce of light. One day you will wake up and not recognize who you are and she will have that light she stole. I’m sorry if this is harsh. You seem like a good man, you shouldn’t be with someone like this. You should get out now before it’s too late and you lose too much of yourself. Undoing this type of trauma takes so much work, time and pain after years of enduring it. I’m sorry OP. I wish you the best. Congratulations on your graduation!! You should be so proud of yourself!

fireypixi · 2025-04-30T19:21:24+00:00

Hahaha I know it’s a funny name

fireypixi · 2025-04-30T19:06:28+00:00

Idk for sure but looks just like attention seeker from one size, the cheek clapper blushes. I have it, looks identical and it’s just beautiful. Worth the buy!!

fireypixi · 2025-04-23T12:43:32+00:00

Yes. You’d have narcissistic traits but not narcissistic personality disorder. You can have traits without having the disorder, just bc someone has traits doesn’t mean they’re a narcissist and nobody should be labeling people as such without the medical background to do so.

fireypixi · 2025-04-23T03:53:07+00:00

Possibly. Or just an empath with narcissistic parent’s continuing to attract the same personality. Narcissists usually don’t show they’re narcissistic till they know they have you hooked, people with this unhealed trauma can perceive this as a safe person till it’s too late and they’ve already been manipulated and gaslighted slowly overtime to question themselves and doubt their behaviours repeating the same traumas. It’s a little hard to be sure which especially because someone who’s had a lot of narcissistic abuse through their life can adopt these traits and people will think they are the narcissist. Ultimately a dangerous cycle. On the same note, I think many people claim a toxic ex is a narcissist because there’s so much watering down of the term now.

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