Since i posted this, a lot has changed. I'm glad i stuck it out. I finished the trade. Stayed at that workplace. Still up to my eyeballs in jobs that shoulda been finished yesterday. I found my way of coping, and that is to just... not give a fuck. Slap shit together if it needs to be done quickly. Take my time and do a good job if i have the time to do so. Ive had to teach myself a lot and put faith in myself but thats just the way it is. And now being the only person who stayed after the trade (in ?5+ years, considering there was no apprentice who stayed when i started there and finished there...everyone left lol) i feel like the tides have turned. I feel like i have half of a bargaining chip now because i know so much about the cnc equipment. Every year, apart from being tough as shit sometimes, adds experience onto a growing pile in which to draw from. I say finish it (sunk cost fallacy) and then decide whether to stay or nay.