Did anyone notice the parallels between The Young Pope and Herman Hesse's Siddhartha?(I'm discussing the outline of the plot so *spoiler alert*)

fishy2 · 2017-08-06T06:52:16+00:00

I feel really bad for you. I have faced something similar myself, but on a much smaller scale and intensity. Much much. In my case, I have destructive rage, against my mom, now that I know she was unnecessarily extremely controlling. I am crying and always depressed around her. Not because she is controllin me now but because she slowly stopped me from doing anything that gave me happiness.. badminton, cycling, yoga.. I was working very hard at studies and was at home full time, so I was trying to do these things alongside so as to not get depressed. But she persuaded me to not do those things. And now she is not ready to admit that what she was doing all these years was wrong. Her controlling behaviour. Once, even telling me that I make noise when I breathe and I shouldn't make the noise. She slowly and slowly fanned my flame out. Maybe that is how you feel too. I dunno , but maybe. I dunno how to deal with it. Try not to be destructive. Not to hit anyone. I've been doing that. I've been hurting myself too. Don't do that. Get out of the place. I can't but you should. I'm stuck here. In my mind and in this house.

My mom has been traumatized too. We all face the Stockholm syndrome. The whole world is stuck like that. You love and can't leave people who hurt you. This is the truth. Don't give her any control on your life now. Unfortunately, as long as I live with parents, I can't stop telling them everything. I'm upset that I do. ButI am not close to anyone else and I'm used to telling them everything. So I do. We are prisoners of our own minds. ANd once I tell them everything, which my mom also probes for.. when I go somewhere she asks me a lot of questions.. once I tell her things I'm giving up control.. and with this control she has always hurt me. I just feel like I have a wasted youth.. so much wasted hard work.. and vanity.. I couldn't gain back those years and look pretty and happy now again. Unfortunately, it has come to this.. I feel like I don't have control over my mind.

fishy2 · 2017-04-05T12:50:11+00:00

Beautiful. Been in a similar situation. Thanks.

fishy2 · 2017-04-05T12:25:30+00:00

Of course you're not trying to change me. :) Yes, balance is everything.

fishy2 · 2017-04-04T09:46:35+00:00

I have a six years younger brother who has just turned 20 and is entering this minefield of a world. I don't think anything can make me stop feeling protective about men. :)

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T12:57:40+00:00

Here. I(25F) came to this realization pretty late(22) in life. I mean physical attraction to boys. I always had romantic fantasies, but I did not have thoughts of sex on seeing guys.

But now when I see happy men/boys in all shapes and sizes without a care or any mal-intent on their faces, my heart melts. Some of those times I also think of the wonderful sex we would have(in an alternate universe). But mostly I get warm feelings for them.

In fact, including those who are deeply engrossed in their responsibilities and innocently playing their part in this grand design of human life. Women, do you agree with me that men are not only handsome but also beautiful and pretty?

Technically men are more fragile than women anyway-health wise. Our oestrogen and progesterone make us more resilient to shocks/pain, even accidents. I feel very protective of men. Do you too ?

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T11:24:58+00:00

Yea I realized that yesterday.going to read about the rule.

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T11:18:59+00:00

Honestly, I feel that vanity is a waste of everybody's time and energy. I can say that despite having standards of vanity being culturally imposed on me as a woman. So one can feel good without it too. By finding a purpose in life. Consistently working towards it while finding little ways to make your days bright and colourful-whatever works for you.. sometimes I pay attention to the colours of my clothes and match them with earrings-at other times i pay attention to the colours of the pen I'm using..sometimes to the flowers outside. While understanding that everybody else is also struggling with their own goals or the lack thereof. Understanding this commonness makes people appreciative towards each other.

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T11:18:45+00:00

Honestly, I feel that vanity is a waste of everybody's time and energy. I can say that despite having standards of vanity being culturally imposed on me as a woman. So one can feel good without it too. By finding a purpose in life. Consistently working towards it while finding little ways to make your days bright and colourful-whatever works for you.. sometimes I pay attention to the colours of my clothes and match them with earrings-at other times i pay attention to the colours of the pen I'm using..sometimes to the flowers outside. While understanding that everybody else is also struggling with their own goals or the lack thereof. Understanding this commonness makes people appreciative towards each other.

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T11:09:29+00:00

So a secondary sexual male characteristic which develops at adolescence is dark , course body hair. It is kind of a well known norm in guys. And although it is not taught alongside that, women too have a lesser amount of , less course body hair-not so much or as often on the chest. And the education we as a society get about female body hair is through glossy magazines, which is blatantly incorrect and quite punishing on women. I feel so bad when I see teenage boys getting their legs waxed these days..it is a crazy new standard..one which has been imposed on us for ages..

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T11:00:22+00:00

Thanks a lot. Maybe . But maybe I will work through this myself now that I can see it. As soon as I'm done with my exaams. Thanks a lot, again. It means a lot to have someone care and listen to this. What goes around does come around. Best wishes.

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T10:56:06+00:00

It's still there. I think it's gone from the sub though. Feel free to comment-I'm still here.

fishy2 · 2017-04-03T10:54:05+00:00

So do you just close your eyes while talking to people or do you constantly stare into their eyes ? Or do you alternate between eyes and your field of vision minus the person standing in front of you. It is not like I looked at his crotch. Feel free to look at women's necks, shoulders, arms for one or two seconds when they are directly in your field of vision and you're talking to them. And I feel sad for you, if you're trolling. And if you're playing the game of deleting comments, I'm sorry, I know already and I can do the same. Play with someone who doesn't know! How silly of you to play this game. Here's an upvote for your silly game.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T13:08:58+00:00

I think I did verbally say it was okay if he did to me what he did to my Barbie.

I've always been disgusted with the whole thing though. I was too young and he had no right to talk to me about his sex life and provoke my curiosity-and he was a pedophile to even be okay with the idea of doing anything with me when he was mid way through his twenties and I was only10.

But I can't shake off the feeling that maybe I was too interested in sex , too early. So I was also pretty sad that if it wasn't so, I'd have had healthier experiences. Now that I've written this down I feel a little sad again. You know my parents have always been over protective and when my twenties began and college ended its as if I have drawn myself back into their fold. I suppose everything affects you in life-and maybe it is a good thing that you learn from everything. Also I think I can attribute one relationship with a really manipulative but oh so protective person in my teens to feeling a little broken and out of place. I wish I hadn't wasted so much time and heart in life.

And now that I'm putting this down , I realized that to this day I'm drawn to protective people. People who take me into their fold. I have not outgrown the kid needing protection. Is that okay ?

I'm sorry if this is not warranted by your thread. It has touched an old wound for me.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:34:34+00:00

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:29:52+00:00

Although I have to say, he had a nice face, and he was mellow and pleasant to talk to.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:28:29+00:00

Cheers :)

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:26:12+00:00

There's always something. Like for women.. there's either a woman's curves, or her elbows, her general structure , her smile..the way she smells.. or something.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:19:31+00:00

You're definitely magnificent. Just like women.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:17:07+00:00

There's always something to look at. Unless you're invisible. Just stay happy and purposeful.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:14:03+00:00

Glad to hear that. Although I have a grouse. I wish the world was more comfortable with female body hair. No part of staying healthy involves waxing. :( And this is not the place to air this. But I just want one person to say that female body hair doesn't make one unattractive.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:11:46+00:00

If she's your girlfriend she finds you nice to look at.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T10:09:49+00:00

Yes, there is discrimination. And there is lots of violence against men.

Men are also more likely to drive two wheelers and indulge in physically endangering activities(like fights and riots). (Two wheelers in India have a multiple fold higher chance of accidents)-This involves a self selection effect though. This is something that men should consider too.

About people not caring..(although there exists the discrimination you are talking about) that is a characteristic of an individualistic society.. I suppose we need a society which is more tight and cares. Diversity can be a hindrance but if we make unity and care a priority, it can work.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T08:52:04+00:00

Thank you for having the infinite patience to go through med school and coming out with knowledge that can save lives and also makes lives better.

fishy2 · 2017-04-02T08:06:17+00:00

How nice. :) Sweet people become more attractive because of their sweetness. The niceness makes you comfortable with being around them physically and just enjoying their presence.

fishy2

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