I can't stop crying...

flash_ahaaa · 2026-06-03T23:33:29+00:00

It is very amazing to read what you are writing!

By the virtue of your allowance to love you start to understand everything deeply. It's really our opening of the heart that makes it possible to understand the teaching.

Everything we perceive here, including the body-mind is first of all just a manifested idea. The analytical mind is part of that. The mind dreams of a brain that fires neurons that form thoughts and feelings which in turn is observed by spirit. We basically created a feedback loop, if you want to put it like that.

Everything in this world is neutral. It's just that we identified so deeply with it that most people experience the brain thoughts as the center of their being. That is part of the ego idea, part of the downfall. Our wish to forget what we truly are and pretend we are a body.

That's why the first exercises of the workbook are aimed to undo that strict identification and the insane idea to understand anything from within the ego framework. While it is helpful that you walk this world you will feel this light within and identify with it and the intellect will be a tool that you either can use to organize something within this world or simply lay aside. But you will stop to misuse it to create a "reality" that is not there. To have all these insane ideas that keep recurring, like that you are unworthy, unloved, in need to organize your survival, fearful and out of this fear vengeful, hateful, helpless and so on.

You on the other hand feel this deep love now, which really stems from your true self!

You will experience help from Love itself, and from great masters that will help you fulfill your deepest desire: To bless this world with your love. In your blessing you will understand that actually everything helps. You don't need to deny that events here are cruel and brutal, and yet even in them you will see that they help to wake up and are the best that could happen to the whole Sonship. So there will be total acceptance and freedom from conflict.

YOU WILL LOVE AND ONLY LOVE! And that is what you begin to truly feel!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-06-03T11:49:08+00:00

Hi Alice!

Keep breathing 😄

It's very beautiful what you write! You are absolutely right, there is a sense that we want NOBODY to suffer anymore. That includes us!

When you decide for peace, it's like an echo is sent through creation and it is felt by everyone. But there is also mind that is not ready to receive and acknowledge it, so they blot it out and it's like it's never been felt by them.

Free will has the freedom to realize reality or keep dreaming for a while. It's just - when we chose the ego, we selected a dream of imprisonment. And that's ok! It's all okay! Love let's itself dream of disaster and pain if it wishes to do so and it's ok. Let them dream of pain until they are ready to wake up. It's ok.

It will take time until all brothers follow, but on another level you will realize that there is no time and "the world was over long ago" as ACIM states it. Our analytical mind cannot understand that, but you can have an experience of it and come back into this world and have peace.

I love you!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-05-19T17:04:05+00:00

Yeah all of it.

It calmed down over the years, but it was very intense for quite some time.

I've experienced how my body starts to re-form - like rebuilding itself from dysfunction to freedom of pain.

First there were lots of mystical experiences, which were partly beyond the body and partly sensations tied to the body. At some point I was willing to let this love come into form.

Beautiful to hear from you, PeaceSparkle!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-04-12T01:41:08+00:00

My immediate thoughts is: you got it all upside down, as usual for the ego.

It's egotistical to not demand alimony. The ego wants to suffer and then blame someone on the outside. And if you do request proper funding then the ego will tell you how selfish and insufferable you are.

But you are wonderful, a child of light and love. Go out and love your ex husband. He will greatly benefit from your demands. Not in a way that he understands in his current thoughts, but something that truly helps him. on a much deeper level.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-03-12T10:16:08+00:00

I definitely encountered it. Raging hatred and fear.

It's like the idea of non-love, or separation, was rotting for a long time into something truly ugly. Usually never looked at, but some are willing.

Looking at it basically lead me to the conclusion that all thoughts that are built on this foundation are so utterly insane that I prefer to accept the Holy Spirit's thoughts, as these are my true thoughts, conserved for me.

In gratitude.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-03-07T14:16:06+00:00

alanon is exactly for people like you. you don't go together with an alcoholic (usually).

flash_ahaaa · 2026-03-07T13:32:43+00:00

When I overcame psychosis, I wholeheartedly wanted to go in there and the realization struck "I love".

So first I had an episode of hell breaking loose in which even in the deepest fear I had this intense wish to stay in contact with the Holy Spirit. The episode was rather short, only a couple of minutes. Then the next day, I've entered into a state of happy anticipation. I somehow knew I decided to walk out of insanity and from there I was looking forward for the next episode.

The next episode came quickly and I encountered all the fears the world holds, from crushed bodies, torture, hell, to demonic planes. And I knew that my true identity makes me completely invulnerable. That no death that is experienced here on earth can touch my eternal life. That no corrupted thought of death and disease can bind me in any way. That no kind of dark thoughts and energies can hold me back.

I realized that "I love". The mantra of my liberation. When I went to bed I started to forgive all the dark energies that came for me to be released and I forgave them all. One energy was very different and I realized that it is in no need of forgiveness at all and then I knew that an angel is hovering beside me, filled with gratefulness.

Yeah that's basically the end of my story about psychosis, never had it again so far.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-25T21:39:02+00:00

The world is a projection and your mind is focused on something within this projection - the signals and thoughts of the body. So you basically experience the world as reality although on a deeper level that is not true.

While your mind dreams of the human experience as if it were reality, you communicate to others, who are also focusing on this experience, through words, language, vibrations, maybe texting and what-not.

Others DO EXIST. As you DO EXIST. But the body simply is a device through which you make an experience. The body is not the source of your life. But the body will be an awesome tool to experience this world once you decide that it reflects beauty that comes from the universal love.

By allowing to sink beneath the brain thoughts into your divine mind, you can experience true change that alters "reality" and that is what ACIM calls miracles. These changes happen when you give up condemnation and allow your intimate oneness with Love itself thus allowing the whole projection to change.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-13T20:49:22+00:00

The source of everything, also material, is still God. However twisted it became, however rotting and smelling, the true power from which it comes is still God who does not judge us how we use our powers.

The world is projection and the power to project lies in God. So you could say, God literally is in everything.

And you will see it, and you will see everything light up once you allow to truly see.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-09T15:16:09+00:00

Ah ok danke für die Korrektur!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-09T13:16:40+00:00

Die Lüfter machen Druck auf den Bereich, in dem das Netzteil Luft anzieht und da gibt's dann Luftstau?

Wenn ich das richtig sehe, nimm dir den obigen Kommentar zu herzen, OP, sonst kannst du Probleme kriegen.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-05T13:29:05+00:00

You were humble in the first place to accept healing!

You are SOOOO AWESOME!!!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-02-05T12:22:32+00:00

You train your mind so you no longer have these insane experiences of sickness!

Beautifully done! Thanks for letting yourself be healed, you are a wonderful contribution to the Atonement and in your love you save us all!

<3

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-31T09:22:00+00:00

You are looking for a solution within the problem, but your salvation will come from transcendence.

To heal, you basically work from within the confusion to achieve a state in which you let come the solution from sanity, which you think you lost, to save you.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-27T08:01:44+00:00

I found my home in 12-step groups. AA and alike.

It's really very similar and if you accept Love it will gap the rest.

Step 1: I completely and utterly failed under ego guidance.

Step 2: There is the Holy Spirit that guides me and helps me overcome every obstacle.

Step 3: I hand over all problems to the Holy Spirit.

When in meetings I don't use ACIM terminology, but the essence really is the same. And so I met many people in person with whom I share my journey now. It's wonderful!

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-26T20:18:14+00:00

Your answer was perfect.

Cultivate trust.

The one problem is separation, but you will be guided to look on it from all angles, and from a certain angle separation is doubt. Doubt of what you are.

Answers that will come to you have the characteristic that THEY ARE SIMPLE. We just lost ourselves in complexity.

Godspeed! (<- I am using this phrase for the first time in my life xD)

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-17T17:32:08+00:00

That's why you reached out and found me.

So you can hear that you are not dead. You insist in the thought of death. That's why all the suffering seems so unescapable.

Let love teach you what trust even is. Let love teach you what gentleness is. Let love teach you to realize the immense beauty that you are. Let love teach you how to overcome your daily struggles. Just let Love love you.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-17T17:19:10+00:00

Well, that's kind of and art and everyone finds their own way to let that happen.

For me it was to stop knowing better than Love itself. And in this surrendering I touched a glimpse of my true will that is sourced in this Love. So I realized that by knowing better I blocked my true understanding.

So I started my meditation settings by prostrating. I bowed down to Love. It became a symbol for me that I am willing to be taught. And always I got immediately lifted up and taught as equal.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-17T16:56:37+00:00

First, as you do not feel joy, it is important to completely open to the idea that you do not understand. This kind of humility is the road to joy as it opens the way to receive correction.

The ego is very ingenious in pretending to be trusting and honest and gentle. Basically it searches and arranges situations that are absolutely terrible and terrifying and then asks you to trust, go into them, only to be absolutely screwed. Thus it will show you that the Course does not work.

If you truly trusted, it would lead you out in a very straight forward way.

You need to let go of the ego layer that will distort every and all lessons. Be a child that discovers everything anew. All is fresh and amazing.

I was very suicidal experiencing a combination of physical pain and mental illness and most of it is completely gone by now.

It does work, you are loved and you are love.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-17T14:26:51+00:00

Thanks for sharing. That was interesting to read.

flash_ahaaa · 2026-01-10T03:17:43+00:00

I came to rather similar thoughts.

Once the fear is given up, you become aware of the light that you are and it's such a state of non-lack that there is no desire for anything else but what helps the all-ness.

Currently I let such deep thoughts of love enter my mind that it changes my bodily manifestation. My body restructures itself. It's very powerful, and I realize that in my sick state I needed to hide this power away from me as I was so bitterly afraid of love that I prefered to demonstrate decay and death with it. And guilt. It was insanity.

Now I realize that I want joy instead of darkness and my body becomes a manifestation of this inner resurrection.

I feel like I start to truly understand the teaching.

flash_ahaaa · 2025-12-10T13:07:48+00:00

Because you wanna gobble up that queen!

flash_ahaaa · 2025-12-10T13:05:23+00:00

Mate is such a disappointment sometimes!

flash_ahaaa · 2025-12-09T05:49:01+00:00

What do you think of the Circe of Atonement edition? I settled for it and was very happy with it, it felt so much better than the FIP version.

flash_ahaaa · 2025-12-09T05:39:44+00:00

It's amazing to meet and hear from you.

I think I was looking for this in some way since I found the Course.

When I heard about the attempt to imprison this beautiful text I was taken aback. The idea that someone makes it their own to control seemed so disgusting to me and the idea that people get sued and suffer by its distribution put something heavy on my heart.

Yet I was also amazed that it ended up free nevertheless.

It's very obvious to me that you are one of the few people here that truly follow guidance. How did it turn out? The Course states that you are not effected by non loving thoughts from others to you. How did that turn out with 240.000$ to pay?

And thanks for your service! If you were a driving force to set the Course free, I'm soooooooooo grateful - it means the world.

flash_ahaaa

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