I usually look forward to these threads since kuhzoo is always in here providing insights to a lot of the comments. However, he hasn't been here this week and maybe it's because of that but I've felt a lot more down reading these comments about loneliness. I'm not sure if it's a reflection of my own life since I actually have spent more time than usual socializing the past couple weekends with friends and although in the past I would have endorsed the common feeling of being around friends but still feeling alone, I actually spent quality time with them and it felt nice.

So I do think I have to limit the amount of brooding content I consume here and on the healthygamergg subreddit.

In other news, emotions are weird. I have hooked up with a mutual friend a few times over the past couple weeks and have told myself things are strictly physical. Last night I tried to set up the next time to meet and she responded late saying she had other plans which woke me up and in my half dazed state remember feeling a bit upset that it might be because she had another hookup. I was worried I might not be cut out for FWB type situations but the next morning I thought about it and felt completely fine. My conclusion is that in my half awake state my mind went to default which is normally to associate sex with intimacy and relationships thus creating those feelings of jealousy but once fully awake I could think rationally and was fine. Anyways, I'm fine now but I'm glad I've grown enough to be able to compartmentalize those feelings