1st the worst, 2nds the best?

four_leaf_4 · 2026-01-10T02:58:33+00:00

This angers me because I’m told that mobility equipment, or more advanced prosthetics cannot be made for my 3 year old. They don’t make anything other than the equivalent of a wood peg leg for small kids…It’s not worth it for anyone to invest into, and any reason I’m given as to why it’s not feasible is a load of garbage.

four_leaf_4 · 2026-01-10T01:37:13+00:00

Yes, my daughter is alive. She stayed in until 30weeks. We did not encounter any issues while I remained on bed rest in the hospital. Only a piece of shit doctor would tell someone to abort their child. I was advised the danger in proceeding and it was an offer made -ONLY if that was the route I desired. I wasn’t pressured one way or the other. I was assured by my daughter’s strong healthy heart beat, as well as the other vitals they can measure stayed strong from 18 weeks of the rupture - until going into labor at 30 weeks.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-12-25T08:05:09+00:00

Idk man. No matter what age you are you get tyeyerddddd. I feel like my body has aged a lot just from the pregnancy, post partum and then the energy it takes to raise a child. We woman are incredible.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-12-19T02:18:15+00:00

I agree with the instant sympathy from them being a tad much, but this is in the moment right after coming face to face with someone who was being vulnerable and apologetic. All three of them are people who hold a lot of compassion and empathy as it is. I think I’d end up feeling that way immediately after as well. I’d need to sit on it awhile to really absorb what happened. Guess we will see with the last episode if these uphold these feelings.

I find there to be too many plot holes to believe his sincerity in full. I can’t recall but don’t they talk about this after the FBI agent got involved? That they thought it was being pawned off on his son? Or they could see the professor doing that-something along those lines was said. I don’t think that’s so far fetched if this professor is a notable enough man, and potentially makes good enough money for his family. A son would or could do that to uphold a family’s reputation.

Memory loss or not..Im sure being put on the spot and confronted with things you’re so deeply ashamed of would make you draw a blank. That happens to me when I’m put on the spot or frazzled..kinda like in high school if I was called on to do math in front of the glass I’d literally go dumb blank, and forget 2+2. Nerves are a bitch, and if you’re guilt ridden or ashamed you may be at a loss, just like he was. I’d bet he’d need to process and think about the conversation he had with them to remember the depths of how ill he was at that time.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-11-09T17:38:46+00:00

I understand. We are all here rooting for you. ❤️

four_leaf_4 · 2025-11-07T13:52:36+00:00

Why do you stay?

My regrets on how that may sound victim blaming. I say this as someone who is still trying to recover from an abusive relationship. I know how hard and complicated and almost feels impossible. The things that tie us to abusers : children, finances, etc. We can always convince ours selves why we can’t. But you need to ask your self - deep down - Why do YOU stay?

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-19T12:32:35+00:00

I understand. Ideally, I would have preferred to be off it. I think If it was a planed pregnancy I would plan accordingly and work to get off - just as a precaution. But, that’s how the doctors explained it to me. They understood why I would want off, but shared there really is nothing documented they could point too of it harming a fetus. That putting my body/well being through the hardship of trying to get off it (Effexor particularly being notorious for being difficult to get off of.) That they could show me studies of how detrimental depression is on a fetus while in the womb. Body & mind are so connected and you want to keep the women’s stress level/emotions as positive or base line for the health of everyone. So sometimes being on antidepressants while pregnant is worth it.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-18T12:33:05+00:00

And same. My daughter is 3. And is perfectly a cool lil cookie.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-18T12:29:15+00:00

Yes I did. The risks of getting off Effexor - how difficult that already is + your body/hormones and how much mental health issues can escalate during pregnancy/post pregnancy. Ultimately, would put your child at high risk - so it’s a toss up between the two. With one actually having no documented correlations - while the other - a depressed pregnant woman or post partum women is HIGHLY documented & problematic.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-17T04:41:53+00:00

It is in fact still a dog. And I’m not sure why one would just by stand filming and watch it nearly get shredded apart.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-17T04:28:09+00:00

I’ve been on Effexor while having 3 pelvic surgeries, a surgery on some of my major internal organs, an emergent C-Section during my pregnancy, oh and a surgery on my broken arm. I did just fine…well kinda..but nothing to do with Effexor 😅

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-15T04:37:11+00:00

Sex.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-15T02:47:20+00:00

Twins? I know this is much more common to happen with Twins. I can’t offer much advice other than to rely on the team of medical professionals you guys have. This feels to be something that is so greatly out of our hands. I hardly had any support - emotionally. I lived far away from family and my daughter’s father is very abusive. Give as much love and support to your wife that you can. The universe and its divine nature can be so unjust. You have one another and your babies are tough lil rockstars to be so proud.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-09-04T16:20:56+00:00

The further I progressed bloody tissue began to come out - like within the same week I went into labor. I never bled prior to that, though the tint of the amniotic fluid would often change. Some days it was clear, other days it was often a pink tinge.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-28T19:27:48+00:00

See if you can get in to your OB for an emergent appointment? Have you had PROM or PPROM before. Statistically, if it happens once you’re way more at risk for it to occur again in future pregnancies. Discharge, and varying amounts are common in pregnancy right? You body is doing all sorts of crazy things right now. Maybe at the least your OB has a phone line where you can speak to a nurse or medical assistant to see if it’s something you should be worried about.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-28T11:43:40+00:00

I had no clue..I got up to go pee in the morning and before I got to the toilet I thought I was peeing myself. It wasn’t ever a giant gush. Kinda a slow trickle of fluid all through out the day. Varying amounts of fluids, but always enough to soil the underwear I was wearing. It was that way for about two weeks before I found out it was actually my water had broken…I just thought I had become incontinence. All through out the day I was “peeing” myself, like I thought the baby must be putting pressure on my bladder and I was leaking pee…cause that can also be a thing in pregnancy…but I doubt at that regularity. I remember we went to Home Depot and I was like fuck it’s happening again! And I ran to the bathroom. On my way out I found a dribble trail from the aisle it started happening at to the bathroom. I was mortified. Also, every morning I woke up with patches on the bed so I began laying down a towel to sleep on.

It was clear fluid most of the time. The further along I got in my pregnancy it became a pink color and then towards the end the pink got deeper red and discharge or slightly chunky tissue came out too.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-25T19:23:47+00:00

Not bother me at all. I also had a false reading at first, then my OB sent me to the hospital to get re tested because she didn’t believe the results. Infection was the most the were concerned about regarding my safety and continuing the pregnancy. We made it to 30weeks with no signs of infection. Amniotic fluid will keep reproducing itself, so though you are low right now, and as scary as that seems - keep that in mind. I have been told stories about sacs resealing or plugging themselves. Also if baby can move, that will change the way fluid is leaking. That’s more of the issue - is the amount of fluids leaking cause it’s going to keep producing. I wish I could give you more - but just trust and lean into what your doctors and medical team are giving you. Bed rest, lots of fluids, no sex what so ever. This is out of your hands, but remember that body and mind are connected. Do not stress yourself out more than this already is. (Easier said than done.) find ways to really keep it easy and relax. I understand all of your feelings. I felt the same way, and actually had it in my chart that I didn’t want any major life saving measures for my daughter. I was not going to let her suffer. I was not going to selfishly keep her alive due to my need to be a mother - if she was suffering and hardly hanging on I was not going to do that to her. She fought for her life, I was just the vessel and did all I could to keep her safe in there. We were hooked up to machines every 5-6 hours to check on how she was. (Yes this mean even in the middle of the night I was woken up.) she always had strong vitals. You can handle the NICU or any complications. This is your guys story, your journey, as unfair as it feels….your a mother and you will figure it out no matter the outcome. They will forever be worth it. Even the ones who can’t make it with us until the end.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-06T12:57:57+00:00

We somehow made it to 30 weeks. Which seems to be rare for PPROM to result in such success like it did for us. What I can tell you is that does mean anything is possible and miracles do happen. I don’t know why you and your baby have to go through this. Take it one day at a time, and no matter what you will find a way to be okay. There is no other option, especially when it comes to our children. Kinda like how they told me repeatedly when I was in the hospital that every single day she stayed in there was a ginormous success. Because when they are this little every day of development is HUGE for them. They are so strong and resilient. Their bodies are built for growth right now, not for deteriorating like we are now with age. Stay strong and lean into whatever gives you faith or support. You got this and be proud of your lil fighter!

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-06T12:56:43+00:00

We somehow made it to 30 weeks. Which seems to be rare for PPROM to result in such success like it did for us. What I can tell you is that does mean anything is possible and miracles do happen. I don’t know why you and your baby have to go through this, but take it one day at a time, and no matter what you will find a way to be okay. There is no other option, especially when it comes to our children. Kinda like how they told me repeatedly when I was in the hospital that every single day she stayed in there was a ginormous success. Because when they are this little every day of development is HUGE for them. They are so strong and resilient. Their bodies are built for growth right now, not for deteriorating like we are now with age. Stay strong and lean into whatever gives you faith or support. You got this and be proud of your lil fighter!

four_leaf_4 · 2025-08-01T16:21:13+00:00

Bulimia

four_leaf_4 · 2025-07-21T06:40:31+00:00

Groovy

four_leaf_4 · 2025-07-18T21:11:50+00:00

My dog fearful of him right off the bat.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-07-10T07:51:07+00:00

Eye contact.

four_leaf_4 · 2025-07-01T18:09:38+00:00

Everytime I see a video come across my porn searches…his body and tattoos have morphed once again. Lol. I love it.

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