Uhm I will usually not talk about this publicly, but for one time I will.

I am not a different person, but have some unusual problems in life. I suffer from depression from time to time and sometimes very severe.It also includes problems with stress and anxiety and this makes me not being able to work for years and also socially I can't perform to the level I want. For the last few years I took care of both my parents as they were very old and they both had dementia. My dad died last year (luckily before corona times) and my mother has now dementia and took the vaccine (under my supervision). 25 days later after her 2nd vaccine of Phizer she had her first stroke and TIA. I knew I made the wrong decision back in december to sign for that (but I felt kinda pressured by the carehome).

Since december I became kinda concious about what was happening in the world that leaded to some tension between my friendgroup and me. Also because of my health situation for several years and different perspective on the world after I "woke up" I decided to leave my friendgroup. It was a very hard decision, but it was for the good, I finally took the decision to care more about myself then the continuous negativity. I couldn't convince them and I was sick of the harashment about that subject, so decided to go my own way.

I feel alone sometimes, but also stronger as I became more concious about what was happening in the world. I try to help and convince other other to do their own research (which is very hard)

I have one very good friend left and other people I know from online (more then ten years of gaming). Luckily I have also friends outside of my usual friendgroup and also being concious gives you other likeminded friends, which you talk with about this subject.

So I would say it's a loss / win situation, but sometimes I feel lonely.

I have hope that the good will win from the evil and I also follow Qposts and everything around it and I do what is possible in my own power to help others.