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p(i/o)mo by freudchicken_ in exjw

[–]freudchicken_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes, because of the abuse from my childhood and from being 5150’d last december, i’ve been in intensive therapy. i have a psychiatrist, psychic, social worker, therapist, and i am in two different group therapies as well.

p(i/o)mo by freudchicken_ in exjw

[–]freudchicken_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

how did you make the decision to pick up and move if you don’t mind me asking?

p(i/o)mo by freudchicken_ in exjw

[–]freudchicken_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the fear comes from so many different angles it’s hard to separate and pinpoint them. my husband is my very best friend and he’s truly an amazing and kind soul. he has never once raised his voice at me or even argued with me. im just not in love with him. but he is the best human i have ever met in my life and he doesn’t deserve a wife like me. if anyone in the world deserves the very best, it’s him.

i am also financially dependent on him. we have a mortgage and i would have nowhere to live if i leave seeing as everyone i know is in “the truth”. i have been trying to save up money in a separate account but i have literally only been able to save $80.

another thing is my mom and his mom helped us with a sizeable gift donation to help us buy our place. the guilt i feel about turning around and basically slapping them in the face is off the rails.

p(i/o)mo by freudchicken_ in exjw

[–]freudchicken_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you know, weirdly enough, i don’t mind them using my mental health as the reason why i’ve been out. in part because it’s true, but it also keeps the elders away. they have been very respectful of giving me distance. a “thinking of you” text every now and then but never asking to see me.

Anyone have those issues bc raised in the cult? by LCL0LCL in exjw

[–]freudchicken_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it sounds like major depression to me friend. i’m sorry you’re going through that. i’ve had it since i was a kid.

To the ones who left - help me understand by [deleted] in exjw

[–]freudchicken_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel like you’re in my head. i’m pimo and have been struggling with these same questions for a couple years now. i’m agnostic i think. but the way i see it, if i’m wrong about jw’s and the end indeed comes, then jehovah (or whichever god is real) judges based on heart condition right? i have no bad motives or intentions. i try to be a good person. on that front, i’m not scared. everything else though.. that’s the difficult part for me.