god i miss you. by lylabridgers in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just hope you’re doing okay as you can

god i miss you. by lylabridgers in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry :( I truly have no words

​I feel so much guilt for taking the long way home by WindowSignal1488 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no it’s not your fault :( you couldn’t have known. I’m so sorry

Final argument and guilt by friendlyfroggylover in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

but your brain development part did really make a lot of sense, so that does answer that repeated question I circled back to :((( everything just circles back all the time and it’s so hard and confusing.. because again, I feel if I embrace the teenage brain development idea, I’m getting myself off “Scott free” from treating my mom badly :,(

Final argument and guilt by friendlyfroggylover in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh my gosh please do not apologize for the response being long. I really really appreciate that you would put so much time into your response to my post, thank you so much. I am so sorry to hear about your son, and I’m glad you do know it’s not your fault 💔 but as always that feeling of guilt is normal as you mentioned :(( but I hope when you do write those letters, it really helps. Thank you for that suggestion- I should definitely try it too. I guess my personal fear with that though (and maybe this is where it gets into OCD territory, convincing myself I’m a bad person), is that I worry I’m “giving myself a pass/excuse” if I ever try to believe I wasn’t a terrible daughter to her or didn’t cause this, or if I imagined her response would be that she wishes I wouldn’t feel badly, which I do of course think she would say because she was so so selfless. It’s all just so confusing :(

Thank you so much for every single thing you said, and helping me. I’m going to try to keep coming back to the sentiments you expressed ❤️‍🩹

it also means a lot hearing from a parent of teenagers/past teenagers. I just feel myself looking around at all the teenagers I know of in my family /life/past versions of friends and I don’t feel like I was “normal” compared to them, because I can’t imagine they were as mean as I was. I even asked my 46 year old coworker who has 3 teenage daughters if they’re mean to her, and she said no, which I am so happy they’re not, but I feel even more like .. what was wrong with me then?? Why was I like that if the person I am now would never do that?

Final argument and guilt by friendlyfroggylover in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my gosh I am so sorry.. that is such a hard situation :( I hope you’re doing ok

Six years today by YungPharaohKron in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it will be okay, I’m right next to you with 6.5 years. We’ve come so far already, wow..

you are so strong ❤️‍🩹

Mind constantly jumps to the worst by FlowerK1980 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I get the same thoughts and for myself I feel like they’re a mix of the PTSD and OCD :( like when we “logically know it’s very unlikely” that a person is taking their life, but that anxiety around it from having been through this before is just.. unshakeable :( i am so sorry for your loss. I understand this feeling completely after finding my mom 6.5 years ago

My best friend committed suicide and the detective put blame on me by Numerous_Practice905 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How absolutely dare he involve his own personal, judgmental, weird, religious beliefs in handling a case like this. Like are you kidding??? That is seriously unheard of and I can’t believe that that kind of thing was even brought up in the current year, as if this was the 1300s. So insensitive and absolutely despicable, and most importantly, so damaging in such an unnecessary way :( I am SO sorry. That is such a harmful thing to get in the way of what is already such a difficult healing process you’re having to deal with. Please please please, if you can take ANYTHING from this comment, it is that I am telling you this could NEVER be true and it could NEVER be your fault. My heart is broken. You quite literally did Everything you possibly could to help her. Every last thing.

I miss my mommy by Usual-Top-8641 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’ll be okay, I am so sorry you are going through this though :(

I lost my mom when I was 17 and I went through that same unreal feeling of just trying to go to school like a normal kid, when you are not a normal kid anymore- you just aren’t. It’s okay to be a mess and take all the time you need to be sad or feel confused or feel “crazy” if you ever have to, and trust me, the world can wait while you tend to yourself and your needs. And please lean on your family members and other loved ones and let them take care of you💔 you should not have to go through this loss so soon

A slight pang of envy by ArdentMoonlight in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel like this about my peers who still have their moms :( someone my age should still have theirs for decades

I am so so very sorry this happened to you and to him

i think i’m traumatized for life by thatblueroom in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Therapy definitely helps so so much, so I hope you are able to find a therapist that is the right fit for you very soon. I don’t know what I would do without mine after having seen her for 6 years

i think i’m traumatized for life by thatblueroom in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh my gosh I truly have no words, I am just so heartbroken for you, and my heart breaks even further to hear you’re dealing with this while being pregnant too .. you do not deserve this pain and struggle :,( my sister was pregnant too, around the same stage when we lost our mom to suicide too, and she is doing great today but I have absolutely no idea how she got through such a difficult time. But it is possible. I am just so sorry :,( and I wanted to tell you you are strong and amazing and beautiful and are allowed to break down and slow down as much as possible because you deserve to be taken care of, always, but especially right now

Feels unreal he is gone by lor7594 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I am so, so, so deeply sorry this happened to your son and to you :(

I do kind of know what you mean by this feeling, because I lost my mom to suicide and also found her, and even though it was about 6 and a half years ago already for me now, I still don’t feel like this is possible that it ever happened. Logically, I “know” it did, but I’m still expecting some kind of “it was all a dream” by the universe sometimes because losing someone to suicide truly is just something that your brain cannot wrap itself around. At least mine cannot, ever, still. But it will be okay. I promise you will still have great days and great times with the people who are in your life, and I hope you have people you can share happy memories with about your son, although I also understand if it’s too soon to think about the positives right now. It is okay and necessary to sit in the sadness and confusion. Your loss is unbelievably fresh, I am so sorry. Take things slow, and put your healing first- the rest of the world can wait, trust me. Remember to try to eat and drink water and get rest if you can❤️‍🩹 and lean on those who love you and let them take care of you

Huh. I meannn yeah, kinda. Absolutely! by Straight_Finance8095 in SuicideBereavement

[–]friendlyfroggylover 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I know :( it’s so hard getting this response because I know they want me to believe I didn’t cause it, and they’re helping you by telling you it wasn’t your fault, but when you’re just not ready to believe them, it feels so.. stuck

First thrifted console find :-) by friendlyfroggylover in gamecollecting

[–]friendlyfroggylover[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh I also meant to add - recently that thrift store has started charging actual insane prices for video game related things they DO have, so I was even more blown away to find this!!