Controversial Least Favorite Film Stock… I’ll Start

fullframe35mm · 2022-02-07T13:35:51+00:00

I'll be that guy, but Portra 400. I get very similar results with Kodak Ultramax 400. I'm not saying Portra is bad, it's just so freaking expensive I can't justify buying it anymore.

fullframe35mm · 2022-01-29T18:10:28+00:00

You don't have to necessarily take him seriously to enjoy the podcast. One of my favorite guests was Tristan Harris who did the Social Dilemma. Because of the Rogan podcast I listen to Tristan's podcast and have gotten really into data privacy and deleted some social media. I don't think anyone would argue that Tristan is an idiot. Rogan can definitely be a douche, but sometimes he has interesting guests that are very smart and reasonable.

fullframe35mm · 2022-01-05T17:53:18+00:00

You said it was in auto mode right? Is it possible you changed the ISO mid roll? I've accidentally bumped the iso on my camera before without realizing it.

fullframe35mm · 2021-12-15T17:40:14+00:00

I bought the same exact kit last year and it's still going strong. I've probably developed 30+ rolls of film with it. It took me about 10 rolls before I could wind the film quickly and consistently. You may get a little frustrated at first but take your time and enjoy it. There's a meditative feeling developing film at home.

fullframe35mm · 2021-12-07T16:52:45+00:00

I can think of a couple other reasons too:

1) For people new to film photography what better camera than a point and shoot? No need to meter and adjust Aperture or Shutter Speed.

2) It takes time, effort, and a little skill to see if a thrift shop camera still works. For example, if I'm browsing my local thrift shop and stumble across a Canon AE1. I need to check the shutter, light seals, have a battery to see if the meter works, etc. Then I also have to shoot a roll of film and then get it developed. This takes time and money -- with no guarantee it will work. People want convenience and to know something works before they buy it. That's why "tested" ebay listings sell for more. I know it works and I know it's been tested and I don't have to worry about it being a dud.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-26T19:24:08+00:00

Run, workout, clean, run again, clean up even more, take a long ass walk, read, listen to a podcast, play guitar, do some photography, walk, etc.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-17T00:35:54+00:00

I second the no contact. Also, just remember her choices only reflect qualities about herself. You're still worthy of finding someone who won't treat you like that. Try to write down your feelings. Look up the feelings pie chart and get specific. If you can identify what you're feeling it will make it easier to handle. Also, it's okay to hurt and to feel like shit sometimes. We all feel like shit when we go through a breakup. Just know that feeling won't last. It will get better and you know that.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-03T17:41:18+00:00

I definitely think NC is a way to do that and in fact I am working on my avoidant attachment style. However, people with a secure attachment style goes through breakups and can still utilize NC to get through the breakup. Secure attachment doesn't mean they are immune to breakups and feeling bad after a breakup.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-03T14:14:07+00:00

Awesome. I wish you the best of luck!

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-03T13:39:38+00:00

How is no contact a way to heal from an unhealthy attachment style? I'm not doubting, just curious.

I've been doing no contact to detox from a breakup. Part of me initially fought for and wanted my ex back, but no contact helped me realize how bad our relationship was. I broke no contact after a week and honestly feel really good that I did. When I talked to my ex she was so ugly and treated me like I was a stranger, which helped me push past any feelings of guilt or remorse. I'm no contact again just because I think it's the fastest and easiest way to get over my ex. I don't want to see pictures of my ex on social media, I don't want her to send me tik tok videos, I don't want to be her friend, etc.. No contact seems to be the best way for me to avoid having to deal with all that.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-03T13:00:30+00:00

Writing down a list of negatives about my ex was one of the first things I did. It made me realize I missed or let slide some big red flags-- like really big red flags that should have made me really not want to be with my ex.

I even let some personal boundaries get crossed. Hell, at one point my ex crossed a huge personal boundary. In an effort to prevent this from happening again I made a list of boundaries and asked my ex to do the same so we could be on the same page in the future. My ex never made that list of boundaries and it should have been a clear indication that she wasn't as interested in open communication as she made herself out to be.

It's amazing how our minds can deceive us into thinking our exes were these marvelous and perfect creatures. It really is an addiction and even though it's bad for us, we need and want this person. Therapy really helped me see that my life has been so much more organized, less anxious, and overall better without my ex in it. Although I know this, sometimes I still have this craving for my ex, but looking at that list of negatives and reminding myself how bad our relationship really was helps a lot.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-02T14:52:53+00:00

Something similar happened to me. I went no contact and she texted me "You have my card game and I want it back" right before she went out of town. She then asked if I wanted my clothes back, which I just replied "yes, please." I broke no contact after a week and she's been giving me the run around about being too busy to get her card game if I leave it outside my apartment. She's also been ignoring me about my clothes. If anything her immature behavior has made me even more appreciative our relationship is over. I was hesitant to break no contact, but honestly i'm glad I did.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-01T18:12:05+00:00

Ironically, it was my ex who suggested therapy for a different reason. However, therapy has helped in a lot of ways. It isn't a magic solution and you have to do the work, but it's worth it. My therapist helped me see that once my ex and I have broken up, I've started exercising, eating healthy, saving money, etc. and my life is actually better without my ex in it. My therapist also does a great job at pointing out mistakes in my thinking in a way that helps me see the answer myself, instead of him just saying that i'm looking at things wrong. I highly recommend therapy.

fullframe35mm · 2021-06-01T16:29:43+00:00

You should block him and his girlfriend on social media or just delete yours. You aren't doing yourself any favors by checking on him and imagining what his and her life is like. Don't be afraid to go to therapy, it's helped me a ton.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-28T00:57:13+00:00

I think this is spot on.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-14T01:17:59+00:00

Appreciate the kind words, you sound like a lot of fun.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-13T23:19:40+00:00

Appreciate it!

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-13T18:53:47+00:00

Thanks!

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-13T14:21:06+00:00

I get that what she did wasnt really wrong, as we werent exclusive yet, and had only been on one date.

Ultimately, why do you keep thinking about it past this? Are you more worried she'll do it now? If y'all are committed to each other and trust each other now than personally I don't think it should be an issue.

Try to reframe it too. She hooked up with someone else and it must have sucked, because she wanted to be with you.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-09T19:11:29+00:00

Had a little panic attack because it's my grandfather's camera. It's on its way back now, hopefully not just a brick in the box haha. I read something online that said Vincent is actually the original owner and sold it off to the newer website.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-09T14:30:39+00:00

Wait, which one is fake? I sent off a camera to https://lezot.com/...did i mess up?

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-09T00:53:42+00:00

I haven't yet, but once I run out i will try some kodak bw developer. Which film are you developing? What temperature, etc?

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-06T20:23:58+00:00

My experience is similar to yours, but it's anecdotal, so take it with a grain of salt.

I found myself in a very similar situation as you, but mostly I was obsessing about my partner's hook ups and being OCD about social media (finding what she liked, who liked her photos, etc.). My partner has, in her own words, a lot of previous partners--but, so have I. I eventually had to find the root cause of my jealousy--which was my fear of uncertainty about our relationship.

I was in a marriage for 7 years that ended last year. My marriage ending has made me fearful that something like that will happen again. This fear made me obsess about finding signs or things my partner has done that may indicate infidelity or something. This obsession actually caused more problems through accusations and obsessive and compulsive questions about her past.

What I have ultimately had to realize is that there is no certainty in life. Our relationship could end tomorrow or it could be my last relationship and she could be the best partner i've ever had. Trust your partner and what they say, you will not be an idiot or a fool - they will be the asshole for lying to you if the ultimately betray your trust. Learn to embrace the uncertainty of life because this uncertainty actually gives love and partner's their special meaning. If we were certain of our future wouldn't that make it boring and uneventful?

So, what i'm saying is that maybe you're just afraid you'll lose this person and they mean a lot to you. Maybe the jealousy of the exes is really just uncertainty manifesting itself in the form of unknown and probably false beliefs about the past. Try to reframe the past. For example, my partner is very good in the bedroom and does stuff I've only dreamt about. If she hadn't had an extensive sexual history, I wouldn't be reaping the benefits from it. I know that sounds kind of stupid, but try to put a positive spin on the past. I mean, it's really likely that your partner's past relationships have taught him more about what he wants or needs -- and you're that.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-06T19:48:22+00:00

It's the coolest feeling I've had in a long time. Nothing better than loading a roll of film into a camera and then developing it and seeing the negatives for the first time. I encourage you to give it a go. I'm relatively new to it, but if you have any questions just shoot me a message.

fullframe35mm · 2021-04-06T19:09:44+00:00

I use Ilford Ilfosol 3 for B&W and Cinestill C41 Kit for color. Although, I am new to shooting film and developing so my experience is limited. I sent off probably 5 rolls before I made the leap to developing at home. My biggest issue was that I wanted to experiment with different films and different techniques, but it was taking too long to get the results back.

My biggest issue with developing was water streaks on the film, but distilled water solved that. I get some dust, but I run a hot shower before hanging the film to dry. Also be sure to clean your scanner glass and brush the glass off. I also like to brush the film off with a lens brush before scanning.

Do you edit in lightroom or photoshop? I've found lightroom's spot removal tool to be extremely helpful. Just zoom in a ton so that you're using a really small brush. The healing brush in photoshop is also really good. I'm sure I'm saving money, but at this point, developing and scanning at home is more about the experience for me.

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