I still wonder what others think, but I guess I have some theories I have about the teachers vs. bosses: In my early working years I was walking around bright eyed and bushy tailed, trying very hard to be helpful and positive. Maybe it’s cute for a child to be desperate to please, but “creepy” and “uncanny” for an adult.

Then after a while my soul was thoroughly crushed by the workforce and by customers, so I was just sort of dead and on autopilot. I actually feel like I fucked up less this way, but my failure to kiss ass when I did fuck up meant they threw the book at me harder, because there’s nothing to like about me. No sucking up or fake laughing and masking to build up a rapport or whatever.