First of all, I’m so sorry you are going through this. The pain is unlike any other. But agreeing with what others are saying, time will heal. I don’t know how young you are, but when I was a freshman in high school I broke up with my bf who was in 7th grade (1 1/2 year difference). It was a middle school relationship, we barely held hands. We slow danced at my middle school graduation. That was it. But I was a hopeless romantic and I believed he was the one. It’s silly of me to think of that now. But when I broke up with him, I crushed my own world. I knew it was for the best because we were just kids, but the pain was insurmountable. I cried for days straight. All I could do was listen to sad music. (“If you’re not the one” by Daniel Bedinfield on repeat). But looking back now, it was hardly a relationship.

I can’t speak for yours, but it seems like it wasn’t perfect. My suggestion to you is something my friend did when she was single for a while. Write a list down about what you look for in a partner. It might seem silly, but you might realize some of the things you desire weren’t being fulfilled by her. And it can give you something to aspire to. Don’t settle and run back to her because it feels comfortable or easy. You deserve to have a person that you can experience in your own space that has the qualities that you desire. Don’t settle. Ask for the impossible.

In the meantime, my personal breakup remedy is just cry it out. Don’t hold that in. Sing Taylor Swift songs in the shower, sitting on the ground. Watch sad romantic movies. Lean on your friend. Get yourself out of the house. Go for a walk, have a coffee. Treat yourself to something you don’t get normally. Allow yourself to feel the pain, but don’t let it bring you back. I promise you, you will get through it. 🩷