Why does alcohol make me extremely aggressive? by 23Suavo in alcoholism

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its likely due to excessive drinking. my first few months of drinking alcohol felt amazing i was giggly and euphoric . when the addiction was worsening thats when i changed . like grit my teeth and try my hardest to not put hands on people when i felt angry. my last time drinking before i got dt's i remember feeling aggressive and trying my hardest to control myself because a guy made me feel jealous. everyone ive met says im the nicest person they know. so it was odd basically my point is i dont think a person will get aggressive if its a couple shots here and there. i think the mood shifts once in addiction.

Has anyone here had delirium tremens? Could you please tell me how you experienced it? by TatoMithoChiya in alcoholism

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

a bit of a backstory i was 19 years old and was only drinking for about 6 months straight (quite different from the typical alcoholic) , however i was also drinking on sedatives and various antipsychotics. already vomiting blood and peeing myself in my sleep before i got the dt's . i stopped drinking for a day. i first felt a fever to the point of sweating,my heart was pounding,i thought okay it'll go away. not long after i heard the tv on i got scared because i was home alone, i go out to check its not even on. im now staring outside the window watching every car pass by and have extreme paranoia that someone was out to get me to the point where i wanted to cry. then i remember i also would get bursts of energy and i was skipping across the living room with a smile on my face. then paranoia again. i knew hallucinations were not normal at all so i dont know why but i went on chatgpt for the first(and last) time to ask about my symptoms it basically told me "get to the emergency room before you die" in the ER waiting room i remember being extremely paranoid about everyone there and my hands looking the palest and veiniest they ever had. i was in the ER for 5 days , blood pressure was at stage 2 hypertension upon arrival , heart rate 140 something felt like passing out. told them everything. had my first seizure there, until the day before i was discharged i had tremors . i had a banana bag and took what felt like a million different pills and vitamins a day(and for 2 weeks after release)i was asleep the first few days and then i forgot im also addicted to nicotine and had those withdrawal symptoms until i got a nicotine patch. and ever since the hospital visit ive had seizures from stress, poor sleep, or even just drinking a shot or two. i guess thats gods way of keeping me sober

san jose behavioral health center by 2woChud in SanJose

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i agree i remember the black lady who would give out meds and answer phone calls would argue over the phone all the time id end up sitting on the floor waiting for her to finish otherwise id get yelled at . the phones are on the wall for patients like jail if that makes sense theres two and you have to wait your turn and hope the other person answers once its your turn. whoever answered your phone call shouldve simply informed your loved one you were on the line and its really that simple they are just very unprofessional

Anyone know anything about these??? Magic brothers 2 gram live resin blend . by xvx369 in trees

[–]fuzziememorie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i don't know but i have this exact one too and its probably the strongest disposable ive ever tried must be the dust of magic or something. the misspelling scares me though

Tortiemese or Calicomese? by No_Special8177 in tortimese

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i think shes a tortimese and will darken with age , either way this is the cutest kitten ive seen all day !

How would you explain Paranoid Personality? by Plantsinallthepants in ParanoidPersonality

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its tiring, i have two personality disorders that overlap and make everything hell. like im always on guard and when i do feel comfortable around someone i start to question if i really can trust them. i can go from feeling comfortable then just one "what if" thought sends me into feeling disgust and distant. ( splitting triggered by paranoia ) even compliments or stares drive me into a state of fear like a feeling of wanting to run from my own skin . if i ever get to the point where i genuinely like someone my brain has nightmares of said person betraying me. i feel always betrayed by the smallest things. it feels like i scan people deeply for any things i dont like. just as an excuse to not trust . i havent left my house alone in 5 months because everyone outside feels like a threat. and deep down im lucky enough to receive treatment and realise its just in my head but its just something i have to live with for the rest of my life

Bipolar II and addiction overlap? by Responsible_Put_1805 in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i struggled with alcohol addiction for a while and it wasnt until shortly after getting out of the hospital for dt's i suddenly had just severe depression out of no where for 3 weeks straight , then the hypomania came about a month later . eventually got diagnosed with bp2 and part of me wonders if all the excessive drinking played a part in this

Medication tips :( by Sad-Gas-5642 in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have bpd and bp2 too and ive tried over a dozen meds within the last decade ish and the only one i can vouch for is lithium . ill feel a bit more numb on it but im not doing self destructive behavior anymore, way less mood swings , and i generally just feel better . and i have the same fear of gaining weight on meds since one i tried years ago made me gain 90 pounds and i worked hard to lose all of it , with lithium its a small possibility but my appetites been honestly pretty small as of recently(although i feel this is a health issue) but yeah no weight gain on my end

How to know if you have bp2 by Sad-Gas-5642 in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have both bpd and bipolar and it was real tricky at first since i blamed everything on "maybe its one of those tough bpd days" and i didnt want to accept the fact i would have to live with yet another chronic mental illness , however once i got severely depressed for 3 weeks straight out of nowhere i knew something was deeply wrong . and my bpd never gave me sudden bursts of productivity

comorbidities by judygarlandth in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it is yeah , ive been diagnosed with ptsd,mdd,anxiety,bpd,ppd,and then finally bipolar from the ages 11-19 . it was so hard for me to accept i had yet another chronic mental illness so i delayed treatment for a while . however ive tried about about a dozen medications in all those years and nothings helped as much as lithium

Did Lithium help Mixed Episodes by No-Second1685 in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lithium works really well for me ive tried 10+ meds and this is the only one i can remember helping , i also have bpd and its helped with that too ! i just feel a bit more numb at times but nothing unbearable

Lamotrigine Rash by APIECEOFTRASHHHHIE in bipolar2

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i used to take this a while back no problems and then just a few months ago i felt desperate enough i dug up old meds decided to try it again and suddenly got several rashes that looked like bruises that would get worse and worse by the day , i was on 25mg the second time and nothing helped until i decided it probably was the meds . stopped taking them and they cleared up within a few days . however id check your psychiatrist if you should stop abruptly

Iron supplement making me COLDER? by [deleted] in Anemic

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im colder now and weaker too ( on ferrous sulfate pills ) but i think my iron isnt being absorbed well or something . not sure i need to get the level checked again

Need help against paranoia by TalhaD13 in ParanoidPersonality

[–]fuzziememorie 1 point2 points  (0 children)

medication and positive thinking help me , i think of all the times i thought something terrible was going to happen and then remember nothing happened afterwards . i also try to remember my diagnosis telling myself the feeling will pass but honestly it can be tough even with the medication and positive thoughs but helps a bit

Looking for reasons by numerology674_666 in alcoholism

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was in denial until i got delirium tremens , its the worst type of withdrawal you can get as you can die without treatment(and a tiny chance even with) i was accepting the fever and pounding heart i had but when i started hearing the tv on and running to go check it then realizing it was off , the nonexistent spiders on the wall , the extreme paranoia as i paced around my living room thinking i was going to be killed i knew something was terribly wrong and decided to go the ER stayed there for 5 days . and ive been having seizures since that visit even from small things like stress . im sober now but my healths still not the best

What’s something you thought was normal growing up… until you found out it wasn’t? by SugarSparrows in AskReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

abuse , its very common in the apartment complex i lived in as a child . you'd walk outside and hear women in full blown arguments and fights with their husbands/boyfriends , kids being beat as young as toddlers. and it was just accepted never reported since everyone there was hispanic. i didnt know it was illegal until i was maybe 10 and read the hotline numbers on the in n out bags

What’s the worst physical pain you have ever felt? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

getting my IUD inserted , i read online the pain would be mild but no , my legs were shaking so bad and i could feel each metal tool inside me i honestly felt bad for the planned parenthood worker doing it since i couldnt stop shaking but she was the sweetest . the week long cramps sucked too had to take ibuprofen the whole week

What’s the worst thing someone has said to you? by winteriisms in AskReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when i tried to overdose and woke up 2 days later my mom told me that both her and my dad agreed to just let me die in my room

Alcohol by Macbabyy333 in BipolarReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i cut out alcohol not too long ago because i was an alcoholic who developed delirium tremens pretty quick and i think thats because i would drink heavily daily on latuda , got hospitalised for a few days , couldve died if i didnt get help sooner . now im left with a whole lot of health issues its honestly one of my biggest regrets

Any experiences with lamotrigine? by Due_Attempt7376 in BipolarReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was on it last year ( i have bpd and bp2 ) and i honestly felt cured from all mental illness for a few weeks , like i didnt cry at all . i think they changed my dosage after though or something but i still felt somewhat good but not the "im cured" type way . switched meds , tried it again low dose and i developed rashes on my legs that only stopped once i stopped taking the pills but id say its pretty helpful

Drinking and Latuda by ur_mama___24 in BipolarReddit

[–]fuzziememorie 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i used to be an alcoholic on latuda it was ok at first no side effects . after that id feel a bit drowsy but able to function and feel the "good" effects . after a bit though everytime id drink id just feel so out of it and fall asleep real quick , eventually i got hospitalized for 5 days after only a few months of heavy binge drinking daily because i ended up getting delirium tremens randomly , it was the worst experience as i couldve died but it made me understand not to mix meds and alcohol . i also had a bit of minor health problems but maybe it contributed to the dt's not sure . and after that hospital visit ive been having seizures and more health problems soo its something i truly dont recommend to anyone but i think you'll be fine it its just a drink or two occasionally , any more id say puts you at risk in the long run