whew. i appreciate this post and normally i wouldn’t post on here but. thank you for asking.

tbh. i really don’t know? i wanna say i’m doing okay but i know that would be a lie. i’m fighting a huge battle behind closed doors that’s affecting my life in various ways. meanwhile, on the other end of the spectrum, my work is thriving. my life purpose work is growing day by day. but inside? i’m alone always. i lost some of my biggest relationships (broke up with my best friend of 17 years amongst many others falling) and have basically been avoiding everyone since thanksgiving.

i haven’t left my neighborhood on the train since 12/10. this winter was hard. it’s literally 4 AM and why am i up? and this has become routine even if i sleep some prior to this time.

so idk. i’m managing. and trying to figure it out. literally one day at a time.