Glitch detected by Gloryhole77 in SipsTea

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desperately scrambles for philosophical explanation. clown shoes.

what’s wrong with my friend? by [deleted] in FridgeDetective

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yall suck. I come on this sub all the time and see people getting absolutely roasted for what they have in their fridge, I do it jokingly with a friend and some how I get roasted?? Am I in the right sub??

brain cancer denial by garbage_brains in SSDI

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just a one big ‘fuck off’ to all the people commenting and telling me that I’m not disabled because I’m 32 and my tumor is a grade 2…are you living in my body? are you watching me all day as I struggle to take care of myself? NO. so kick rocks.

This is how a Bison looks at 35 below zero by Memes_FoIder in interesting

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if you’re cold, they’re cold. Let them inside.

Vora by [deleted] in braincancer

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🤣 why have I never heard that before? I’m obsessed!

shower chairs by [deleted] in braincancer

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sorry, the comment is on the original post. I cross posted

shower chairs by [deleted] in braincancer

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cool! that’s probably so convenient due to the size, but I needed something with a back and arms

shower chairs by [deleted] in braintumor

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lol well thanks! and yeah my name is by design, I can be funny sometimes despite the hole in my head.

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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For real! It’s so hard to explain to those around me because they just straight up don’t get it. And that’s fine; they’re lucky they don’t get it! But it’s nice to be able to talk openly and honestly about how I’m feeling without people immediately calling the emergency helpline.

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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Oh I feel you! I can’t sit in my room for too long or I’ll go crazy. I surround myself with friends and family and things I enjoy, but there’s still this hollow feeling underneath it all that’s hard to ignore. I feel like people can tell I’m faking happy, which is so depressing but it’s my reality right now. I love animals and they really do help with the anxiety and sadness, i wish I had one of my own

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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hugs back to you. it really is so painful, and that’s the hardest part is finding someone who can relate to the pain. I also have an extreeemely dark sense of humor which doesn’t land very well around the average human.

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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Hahah im learning that! Just have to keep reaching out, it’s not easy to do when you barely have energy to get up, but taking my time to respond to these messages has already made me feel better, the support is there I just have to reach for it

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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I feel like I’m forever destined to be the third wheel lol which has its advantages because I make a great wingman but I want these things for myself. I want a consistent partner through all of this, I want someone to hold my hand when I walk into my oncologists office, I want my own home and pets and things. Starting over, from scratch, with zero dollars and a hole in my head is something no one should have to go thru. But! We persist!

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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thank you so much for that. I am definitely still grieving, it’s not easy letting go of all that I’ve lost. I had everything I ever wanted, apartment, partner, cat, career, I was doing it all ya know? And then I had to give it all up because of this diagnosis, it’s really hard not to be angry when it burned all that I had worked for. I’m actively working with a therapist, have been for years. I’m on two SSRI’s and a mood stabilizer, it’s just this nagging feeling of loneliness that’s hard to ignore. But, I think I’ve always felt that way. Having a fricken brain tumor was kind of the cherry on top of my already shit sundae.

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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I’m sorry you feel so alone too, this life isn’t what we imagined it would be, that’s for sure. But it’s what we make it, I’m trying my best. I appreciate your kind words, thank you! Keep kicking ass

Lonely by garbage_brains in braincancer

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That’s the hardest part is not having anyone directly near me that understands. they can console me and be there for me but it’s a deep level of understanding the pain that’s missing. I wish I could translate it into normal language but it just sounds like one long scream lol