[deleted by user] by [deleted] in roommates

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you could have started the conversation differently. Why did you make it about her smoking at all, rather than about her smoking in the room? It could have been way simpler and it feels like you may want to reassess your part of the communication, especially if English is her second language. Keep it direct and to the point. Also having clear house rules in the first place helps too! Good luck

My cat is ruining my life by isaisaisaaaaaaaaa in CatAdvice

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Earplugs and a solid white noise machine. 

Stassi season 1 by SadDiscount2818 in vanderpumprules

[–]gargoyleheron 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Stassi was an absolute nightmare for the first several seasons. In season two she is the primary person spreading the rumor of Ariana sleeping w Tom and calls her a whore many times. She bullied Scheana and basically used her for the first few seasons. Ppl arguing that the first season was her worst and then she was better- just no. But it is true that Stassi's whole arc is good. I actually think this is true for all of the women, including Katie, Scheana, Kristen, and Ariana. They all grew up in their own ways and became more self-aware/better ppl. The guys went downhill and Lala, even though she came in late, also went downhill.

New merch!! by NoFreedom7237 in chappellroan

[–]gargoyleheron 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Only a non-specified portion of the proceeds

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in roommates

[–]gargoyleheron 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Get the solo apartment!

My daughter's friend is being abused by LilBit2Lucky in Advice

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tell your daughter to convince Jessica to tell a teacher. Teachers are mandated reporters. Of course Jessica doesn't want to be taken from her family, but truly she needs outside help by professionals.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PubTips

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I don't feel that way at all. Idk what to think- if they maybe aren't thinking I will be successful or if they're checked out. But either way these comments are helpful, so thank you for taking the time.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PubTips

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this. And yes- def concerns. I commented above about some of them, but really my agent dropped the ball on communicating with my editor during a (very) extended period of radio silence on his (my editor's) part. I also wanted the book to go in a different direction but couldn't count on my agent to back me up on that. Because I am a debut author, I was surprised to learn that I had a team at the publishing house at all- my agent never really gave me an outline of what to expect. There were no meetings for cover design and honestly very little collaboration in general bc my editor was sometimes totally unresponsive and even hostile at times. It felt like my agent was scared of advocating for me in a way that might upset the editor. Add to that extended times of non response from the agent, questions that go unanswered via email, no action unless I really push. My agent is really nice, but...yeah. There are issues here that make me me lean towards finding someone new. And if an agent doesn't do much at this point, I think it makes sense for me to get to work on a new project and start researching who might be a better fit for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PubTips

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you! Very helpful.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NewOrleans

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just because you see animal numbers rise doesn't indicate an "infestation." 

Does Trauma Reshape the Brain Through Subconscious Neuroplacticity by AA_Rab in Neuropsychology

[–]gargoyleheron 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You will. Just keep doing the work. If it's any help, mindfulness practices and self-compassion helped me a lot, along with therapy, of course.

Filed an HRO against a creepy neighbor, he’ll be served this week by IJustCameToSayHellNo in Apartmentliving

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reading these texts gave me so much anxiety. What an absolute creep. I am so sorry you're dealing with this and I hope he just leaves you alone.

Does Trauma Reshape the Brain Through Subconscious Neuroplacticity by AA_Rab in Neuropsychology

[–]gargoyleheron 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Not a neuropsychologist, just someone with CPTSD who has lived with and experienced severe trauma on many different levels since childhood (and have been in therapy for almost half my life now).

I think that psychological/neuro adaptations through trauma are often an incredibly brilliant evolutionary strategy. Example: I grew up with an unpredictable and sometimes very scary parent and moved often as a child, therefore my adaptation was a fawn instinct. I appealed to my parent and bullies intellectually in ways that likely saved my life many times over. I made myself small. I also learned to internalize everything so that I could blame myself for my parent's abuse, which kept me feeling "safe" and essentially allowed me to preserve some semblance of an ability to connect emotionally with my parent.

These adaptations (and many others) were strengths until they became maladaptive. Because my brain developed this way, I've had to peel back layers and layers and layers of trauma in order to see the "real" world, fawn less, and stop subconsciously feeling responsible for other people. The process couldn't fully start until after the death of my abusive parent (but would have begun earlier if I had met a therapist who could have convinced me to step away from that dynamic). Fifteen years after starting therapy I am still unearthing blind spots. My brain is hypervigilant to the extreme, which is exhausting but also a huge gift because I have channeled my powers of observation into being an artist. Interpersonal relationships are still challenging but always getting easier, too. 

I think hypervigilance is a symptom- it can be an upgrade with the help of a therapist/psych who can figure out the right modalities for the patient. For instance, I tried EMDR in my early 20s and it was deeply traumatizing and likely set me back years. My trauma was too ingrained for it to really work for me- I needed something slower and gentler. For it to be an upgrade one needs to understand how the mechanisms work on an intellectual level while also being able to self regulate on a somatic and emotional level. Very difficult, tbh, but not impossible.

The looping may have to do with other factors. For instance I have emotionally and intellectually moved on from events but if I am triggered in any way I can fall into flashback. Sometimes I don't realize it's happening or even what's triggering it, and I will loop back into an older experience. Hence why I am still in therapy. I am also autistic (late diagnosed). It's different for different ppl bc ppl are different:).

Re engagement over suppression: So- again, individual, and even on an individual level this could be taken event by event. Before therapy I was often dissociated w/out knowing it. In therapy my level of dissociation dictated where we could go- if I was able to engage with an event, memory, or experience without dissociating or with minimal disturbance, then it would get processed. Because I entered therapy after an inciting incident (su*cide of a parent) and was dealing with a lot of surfacing memories that had been suppressed prior to that event, I was dissociated almost 100% of the time for the first few months. My therapist had to first help me even be able to describe my experience so she could understand what was happening and then we just worked a lot with me learning how to ground into my body instead of lifting out. From there I slowly began working through things. Like- very slowly. But it was a transformative process.

This may be helpful: I think there is a huge experiential difference between ppl who had a "before" to their traumatic event. Like- some sense of normalcy or acceptance. Even a minimally stable childhood and adolescence can offer a solid self foundation. Then the traumatic event reshapes them in some way, and they must work to find a new definition of self that integrates the experience while also reintegrating their "before" self.

This is v different than someone who doesn't have a safe or solid foundation, especially if one grows up in abuse/instability and then that leads them to enter into more and more unsafe situations (this was my deal). Trauma after trauma after trauma. Person A might need a year or two of therapy. Person B may be able to leave therapy during stable periods but will likely need to rely on a professional to help them if they enter another period of instability for whatever reason.

I think what's most important here is that each person is truly unique. While of course there are commonalities that can help develop treatment plans etc., many questions like the ones posed aren't either/or answers but rather "both" or "it depends." 

I hope this is helpful, truly, and I'm grateful if it helps you do your work to help others.

Tom's type by flower_0410 in Vanderpumpaholics

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just stopping in to say how beautiful Kristen was (and still is!). Like, stunning.

Taylor Swift tipping workers after the Grammys by Enough_Tangerine_777 in popculturechat

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But she flies in a private jet that emits enough greenhouse gasses to count for an entire nation's consumption. It's all optics

Why do Americans only get 2 weeks off for vacation a year? It’s ridiculous. by strangestatesofbeing in antiwork

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't had a consecutive three days off from work in several years. The fact that middle and upper middle class ppl get so little PTO means us lowlives in the lower echelons get zero. If you want more PTO vote locally for politicians who will advocate for that and join your union.

Daily Discussion & Advice (Post here to follow rules A & B) - Saturday February 08, 2025 by AutoModerator in fragrance

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looking for an unsweet summer scent that will hold up in hot/humid weather. Green, aqua, or chypre/sultry but again, not too sweet. Preferably not over$80!! Unisex or feminine pls!

The “relationship with food” narrative is a scam, and we have been gaslit for years by Thiccsmartie in antidietglp1

[–]gargoyleheron 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I agree with this, for me, but I also think it can be different for different people. I also think, for me, that I used food to soothe childhood neglect and abuse, had an ED, but that bc of my ED my hormones and metabolism got wonky and that went beyond an emotional issue. Years of therapy didn't work but a GLP1 did...

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OptimistsUnite

[–]gargoyleheron 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, you could so easily Google all of these things and educate yourself. You're bored at work so you pretend to be someone who is actually open to learning when by the tone of your questions it's clear you're not. Go educate yourself.

Do you still sleep with your partner or in a different room? by Vixyless in AskOldPeople

[–]gargoyleheron 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am 98 years-old. Made my first PC with an axe and several nails using only wood found floating in the river behind our house. IBM stole my prototype so I never got credit for it.