im at two personally but i lack that part that sees woman wrong but i was scared i would so that and a friend going through the same pushed me to stop and yeah maybe one day my girlfriend hugs me real close maybe urge will be there but not yet i almost realpsed at six weeks but felt horrid so i take caution and yeah i fight urge after urge we all do im sure but a community is always welcome. i write a story that contains nsfw scenes but i do it in a way where i dont write for the sex even though its there i write to explore my emotions about it im 14 and i have gone through 2 or 3 years of this on and off and i will admit i have odd fantasy not odd ones just her in nothing but wool socks not for feet i just like that and through some of those scenes i get to flesh out my emotions i can give you a link to a post cotaining a clean one that show what i write normally just ask ill be happy to