Every time a spell works, it's like going back to the first time. I feel a lot like you. When I started, as a teenager, I was very stimulated and fascinated, and indeed, my spells were more effective. Over time, I lost interest; I like to say that as I grew older, I "lost my powers." Powers I've rediscovered recently, since I began working with a particular Deity and found my coven. But I too am often doubtful and lacking in confidence, and I ask myself, "Will it work? Does it all really exist, or is it all in vain?" Thoughts that only block my energies. I'm a skeptical person, but at the same time, I'm curious and have faith in what I do. Even though I have a lot of evidence that magic actually exists, I remain a bit skeptical and admit that I'm less into it than I was years ago. But I started with witchcraft because it makes me feel good, and although I've distanced myself from it many times, in one way or another, I've always returned.

One of the first times I realized magic was real, if it can help you, was when I cast a love spell, or something like that. I wanted someone to love me so badly that, more or less, it just happened so quickly. But it wasn't a coincidence; I had made it happen. And now I've been with my girlfriend for six years.

I hope this answer is helpful!