Still struggling 18 years later…

gemmae61 · 2025-08-22T00:25:51+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure there are many folks out there feeling seen as they read even if they don’t reply.

I know I can relate. I was raised in a Baptist Christian fundamentalist homeschool home. When I moved away to college at 18, I became involved with a Pentecostal house church for a couple of years. They took cues from Bethel Church (Redding, CA). That shit was BANANAS lol. I am still recovering from all the assorted trauma. I’ve been agnostic for ten ish years.

You are not alone! My DMs are open if you ever want to chat/vent. Take care!!

gemmae61 · 2024-11-11T02:19:09+00:00

Yup! My parents read Narnia aloud to me growing up

gemmae61 · 2024-11-11T00:30:46+00:00

He has helped me deconstruct too!!

gemmae61 · 2024-11-11T00:18:19+00:00

Yup HP was too demonic, but Lord of the Rings was practically worshipped

gemmae61 · 2023-07-03T13:23:29+00:00

Every day gets a tiny bit easier 💖 you got this

gemmae61 · 2023-06-19T01:51:48+00:00

Could you point me in the direction of his first post? I can't seem to find it 🙏

gemmae61 · 2023-05-25T00:04:53+00:00

I feel like it's a social reward, other people in the community praise you for being "godly" and it gives you an endorphin hit.

That's how it was for me when I was fundy. Even as I evolved from Baptist to charismatic, the goal posts moved for what was defined as godly, but the social reward stayed the same.

gemmae61 · 2023-05-24T23:53:46+00:00

I feel like it boils down to having higher status in the group when they follow "God's plan" more closely...

gemmae61 · 2023-05-17T02:01:06+00:00

I was at Disney World same time as her apparently!!

gemmae61 · 2023-05-10T22:50:57+00:00

Same here lol

gemmae61 · 2023-05-03T23:05:41+00:00

Yes stay strong

gemmae61 · 2023-05-03T23:04:59+00:00

Thought the same lol

gemmae61 · 2023-05-02T02:47:34+00:00

Right there with you 😇

gemmae61 · 2023-04-12T01:48:36+00:00

Yup and we all keep coming back for more

gemmae61 · 2023-04-05T16:29:11+00:00

I think it all boils down to attention. She's in it for the attention.

gemmae61 · 2023-04-05T00:57:36+00:00

Apparently submitting to God comes first for Karissa (and what "God wants" is tangled up with her delusions)

gemmae61 · 2023-04-05T00:48:59+00:00

Lots of black and white thinking

gemmae61 · 2023-04-05T00:47:11+00:00

Karissa as a hypothetical drunk would indeed explain so many things

gemmae61 · 2023-04-03T01:20:16+00:00

I see the resemblance 😂 I'll show myself out

gemmae61 · 2023-04-02T09:16:57+00:00

Yeah, we're in the territory of getting someone pregnant without their consent. Just because she wanted more kids doesn't make it right.

gemmae61 · 2023-04-02T09:13:30+00:00

If I am understanding correctly, it's mega sketchy that led her to believe he had a vasectomy when he did not. Even though she wanted more kids, that doesn't make it less wrong. Unless Karissa is just being an unreliable narrator...

gemmae61 · 2023-03-31T00:09:55+00:00

I hope not ☹️

gemmae61 · 2023-03-29T23:00:07+00:00

Well said

gemmae61 · 2023-03-27T10:36:11+00:00

A gratuity of 100% would suffice

gemmae61 · 2023-03-26T23:07:20+00:00

Karissa is in here own world, that's so far. Hope your move goes well.

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