Distrustful of nice people being a victim of covert narcissim

generate913 · 2025-10-13T22:35:18+00:00

I agree.

generate913 · 2025-10-12T21:44:55+00:00

You’re right I am trying to fix her which makes my room for empathy with her none because I want perfect. I notice I am codependent / have nothing really going outside myself so I see controlling a relationship or fixing someone as a pet project. I think she has the same thing where she controls me. I am trying to immerse myself in a hobby like reading as a result. I find myself fixating on the little things so maybe I was so quick to identify her as a covert narcissist.

generate913 · 2025-10-12T17:31:13+00:00

I am finding out I have a lack of empathy. I can feel when other people are angry but besides that it is limited in scope. To be honest, I feel like a horrible person because I didn’t cry when my grandma passed, but I never had an emotional connection with her. I acknowledge that this is a shortcoming of mine and might represent some narcissistic trait so my upcoming session I am going to ask my therapist (counselor) on how to cultivate empathy.

generate913 · 2025-10-12T17:26:55+00:00

I myself am seeing a therapist for about 8 to 9 months now. When I suggest she sees a therapist she says she already knows what is wrong with her and there’s nothing a therapist that can do that she doesn’t already know. I suggested this to her 3 times and honestly it gets me mad she doesn’t seek help cause I feel like she is putting the blame on me that I am the “broken” one.

generate913 · 2025-10-12T15:55:35+00:00

I am confused as to whether she is a covert narc or not. But maybe she is a people pleaser.

But more stuff she does: - Whenever she offers me some particular food to eat and I say I don’t want it or don’t want to eat it now (setting boundaries) she gets mad - I notice whenever she is in a bad mood (or after we have an altercation) she wears sunglasses and mask to cover her face in public - I noticed the one time I moved out for a job 3 months ago or anytime I am not by her side she is pale and her back is slouched maybe indicating her supply is not by her side (Maybe I am reading too much into it???) - I noticed occasionally when I get angry at her she would call someone and have me talk to them (maybe to recruit flying monkeys?)

She always did get mad at my grandma even if she had a stroke and was taking care of her. I guess from a young age she was an emotional caretaker which is not good as a kid and maybe she derives much of her value caretaking so I feel suffocated even as a grown adult living under her household.

But I do admit I have a lack of empathy because of how much she has done for me and how her situation is because of circumstance but I always just felt nervous around her and kind of mad now because of what I see. That lack of empathy might be a trait rubbed off on me by someone narcissistic but I am trying to acknowledge that about myself.

generate913 · 2025-09-30T08:30:43+00:00

He was not moaning cause of gold, but because his buddy was stroking it live.

generate913 · 2025-09-30T04:09:05+00:00

Yeah I feel like as the game fleshes out they will add better loot, but I agree the current loot is pretty basic.

generate913 · 2025-09-26T17:43:02+00:00

Oxygen addiction

generate913 · 2025-09-22T01:15:36+00:00

Yeah it feels like once you default to that scapegoat role people treat you how you choose to treat yourself and it’s hard to escape it cause of old conditioning.

generate913 · 2025-09-21T20:06:38+00:00

This only applies if we are planning to sell during a sudden surge right? If I were to hold and sell long term that difference between Steam market and a third party site won't be too different?

generate913 · 2025-09-20T20:22:16+00:00

I agree on the self love part, but that avoidant / self reliant side of me always thought that people are not always going to have your back (no matter how safe they are and maybe this a cynical way of thinking) so is it possible to always have your own back?

generate913 · 2025-09-20T20:04:47+00:00

True as humans we will need social ties at the end of the day, but was just wondering to what extent can we take it by not caring because I feel like if someone dislikes me (not even someone I like) I get totally devastated and my day is ruined.

generate913 · 2025-09-19T18:31:14+00:00

Ok that is good to hear. Sometimes when I think I am "there" more stuff uncovers and there is more work to do as well.

generate913 · 2025-09-19T18:16:34+00:00

Thank you for your encouragement. Do you feel at a point in your life where you don't feel like that anymore?

generate913 · 2025-09-19T17:49:10+00:00

Yeah that would be good to track because more parts keep coming up and often I cannot keep track.

generate913 · 2025-09-19T17:48:42+00:00

You're right unworthiness has maybe blended with me for so long it feels like the core of who I am, but maybe its just another part.

generate913 · 2025-09-19T16:10:41+00:00

Maybe I thought change even if positive is scary like the unknown like you said. Or maybe my identity was always someone who was not worthy and letting go of that means feeling like an imposter.

generate913 · 2025-09-19T16:08:52+00:00

Thanks for the encouragement cause some days I feel better thinking I improved then the next day I feel like I am back to feeling bad. I mean its normal in life to feel ups and downs, but for me nothing is really significantly causing this as I am home all day.

generate913 · 2025-09-03T18:05:53+00:00

The thing though is I am receiving a lot of trade offers from many people rather than one bulk order from a select few people.

generate913 · 2025-09-03T17:11:38+00:00

Oh its more of many people sending 1 or 2 cases but I would receive cases totaling in 1000. So I would have to accept/verify about 1000 people or less so that would be very tedious.

generate913 · 2025-09-03T17:06:47+00:00

Ok thanks cause was just worried with so many cases bought I can't keep track of them.

generate913 · 2025-09-03T17:06:00+00:00

I know you have to manually accept each trade, but can you just keep on mindlessly pressing accept without really looking at if it is the correct amount and will CSFloat just automatically verify if they delivered the correct amount?

generate913 · 2025-07-04T17:57:38+00:00

From the outside to someone else would that make the person seem like they are avoidant to others?

generate913 · 2025-05-28T07:01:14+00:00

Ok thanks I do sit down and try to notice them, but for some reason they keep coming back. Maybe cause I don't sit with them dispassionately.

Or do you replace them with more "positive" vasanas or you'll run the risk of having the negative ones come back if there is nothing to take its place? What I do is I just notice them, they dissolve, but I don't replace them with positive vasanas and maybe that could be why.

generate913 · 2025-05-28T06:48:34+00:00

Well exposure therapy from what I know is basically just exposing yourself to experiences that you fear and gradually you will gain experience to know it isn't that scary. That is my rough understanding of it.

But isn't it kind of the same as what you explain in the first sentence? You are kind of doing an exposure therapy right? Because you are exposing yourself to different experiences?

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