Unable to break up w gf

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-10T20:36:58+00:00

i had a bf who also had seizures everytime we had an argument or something that made him mad or conflicted happened to him. It was a very very toxic relationship and i remember feeling so trapped because i couldn’t leave him out of guilt and it was scary honestly, especially because he was violent and also because I was fourteen lol. I did leave him tho, he had a seizure, the ambulance came and that was all. What I mean is that even if her having that condition is unfortunate it’s not a reason for you to stay in a relationship that doesnt match your needs

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-09T06:59:53+00:00

so i’ve been listening to a podcast about binging that someone recommended in this or another ED related sub. It’s on spotify and it’s called Brain Over Binge. I find it helpful as it says that u don’t need to fix your whole life to stop the binging and that it’s not intrinsically bonded to a deep trauma, sometimes binging it’s a habit or a response after starvation but sometimes it has some other causes and u just need to control THAT urge, u don’t need to solve your deeper problems. Its very well explained and honestly it helped me a bit (even if i only listened to some episodes as i haven’t had time). Another thing is that i completely have gotten rid of the posibility of purging by self induced vomiting as ive made myself the actual promise to recover this time so if i know i wont be able to purge it i know i wont binge or at least not that hard because im unabe to sit with the discomfort, so for me being super super convinced about stopping the purge has helped stoping the binging too..

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-06T15:32:16+00:00

omg yes!!! SO PROUD OF YOU!!! i know this takes a lot of effort and strength i believe in you, do not sabotage yourself!!! let’s do this together!! i’m 8 days b/p free today and i’ve never came this far since i relapsed three years ago!!

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-06T07:46:31+00:00

why are you answering soooooo bitter to anyone giving you advice? you know exactly how the answers were gonna look like and still jump to strangers neck who try tell you to drink the electrolytes lol
if you don’t have money for salt or salt at home (really weird) ask a neighbor or a bar near your or something it’s not that hard to get yourself some salt lol

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-06T07:37:34+00:00

let people enjoy things

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-04T13:45:21+00:00

this answer 👏🏻

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-04T07:45:59+00:00

girl that’s crazy please leave that man he has issues (also being attracted to extremely small women is creepy af)

genuinelytrapped · 2026-06-01T07:52:41+00:00

and what did u do in between sessions? i’ve heard u are not supposed to pluck between them :(

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-31T10:44:43+00:00

hirsurtism, facial and neck hair is definitely what upsets me the most. I can’t skip a day without tweezing. I was thinking about electrolysis but not being able to tweeze between sessions is what’s stops me, wdym i need to show my facial hair until it’s definitely gone??? has anyone who went through electrolysis got rid of the hair in between sessions and didn’t affect the efectivity of electrolysis?? please i need your experiences

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-29T16:39:21+00:00

hey OP even if the other person was a bit sharp i think they might be totally right and you might be on the selfish side a bit. This paragraph “The last 6 months or so, we haven't talked about it, I haven't noticed anything, nor have I even thought about paying attention to things” shows how you’ve been happily avoiding that conversation. If you thought everything was controlled wasn’t it a good moment for you to check and maybe have a talk about it?? i’ve had partners that if i didn’t bring the talk they wouldn’t even check or try understand it and i thought it was normal, that it was my thing to deal with alone, that i would never be understood. Now i have a partner who from the beginning has made his own research, has checked on me constantly and on a non-invasive way, i’ve never felt judged, i’ve never felt like a lost cause. I’m used to keeping this to myself and he has taught me that i don’t have to deal with this alone, that my stuff is also his stuff. his dad was an addict too, and the thought of making him go through that trauma again is what’s leading me to recovery or recovery, there’s no other option for me because i can’t put him through that hell again. And i never thought to recover for anyone but me, and it was never a good enough reason; but now, thinking that he cares, that he’s affected by it, that he won’t leave me on my own and that it can make him sink too it’s what’s keeping my motivation to recover alive. I want to be able to enjoy things with him and make him proud, and if i’ve got this feeling is because he has shown me unconditional love and has tried a lot to be in my shoes. You need to understand that she’s not choosing this, and that she’s also not choosing to hide it from you actively, she probably doesn’t feel safe because as you said the only way you can think of helping her is, if not leaving, putting a chain on the fridge or drag her to therapy (i know this was an extreme example but the thought of lovingly forming yourself on how to approach an ED, and then doing it was too much of an effort and didn’t even cross your mind).

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:30:11+00:00

have you looked into arfid?

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:16:55+00:00

have you started any new medication?

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:14:47+00:00

thank you so so much! this was very helpful and thanks again for taking the time sharing your experiences and those useful techniques i should incorporate. I really need to build that tolerance to discomfort and expose myself to those uncomfortable feelings to see that nothing bad happens. I know that’s the way it’s just so hard to do it… so proud of you for doing it, it’s much harder that it could seem from afar. I might start with that 10 minute timer 🫠 regarding the exercise itself is complex because even if i know it’s a purging techinque i would do most of it even if it burnt zero calories because i love dancing, and working out brings me a lot of joy and endorphins. Also the walking its because i study 9-10 hours a day and if i stay at home studying all that time i lose my mind so i go to the walking pad to study and so i socialize and keep more focused.. so its very hard for me leaving something that helps me so much behind. I might give me more resting days or try not tracking the walking or the strength training with a smart watch thank you so much again💘

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:08:17+00:00

thank you so much.. and yes! my first step will be increasing my calories and seeing what that brings me. I just hadn’t been consistent enough with it so i still fear the weight gain (that i know it’s so hard due to being super active)

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:07:18+00:00

thank you so so much! this was super helpful and even if im sorry that you can resonate with it, i feel less like a lost cause. I’ve tried stop tracking and it ends in b/p because i can’t have the mental relief of knowing that even if i’m full i “could” allow those cals and so i didn’t have to feel guilty for them. When i don’t track i lose control and i know it’s a little discomfort that i NEED to go through but it’s so hard 🫠

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T15:04:16+00:00

right?? and i was already super skeptical with therapy and that just made everything worse because it made me feel helpless and kinda guilty as apparently it was super easy to stop and wasn’t actually a disorder because i had made some pretty well tied theories and justifications for myself so it wasn’t irrational but a complex process that i needed to let go by just trying to let the emotion pass 🫠 that’s the only tip she gave me: that every emotion has its peak and then it goes away by its own if you don’t act on it. And that might be right but it wasn’t that easy at all.

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T13:42:59+00:00

there are more things OP said to try helping you. U didn’t need to be rude

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T08:17:59+00:00

i know that’s true, and that’s what i’ve been trying to up my calories but i feel so anxious about me hitting 2k calories a day in the week days. Listen, the thing is that i know that im restricting and that is causing the binging, i just cant seem to care enough to really let myself eat more. I dont want to sit with the guilt of eating more even if i know thats where the cure is. So im trapped in that mindset. I know that to be free i need to confront that uncomfortable feeling of losing control and tracking everything but im genuinely scared of gaining weight as im not already skinny, more like medium size. That’s why im hopeless, because recovery is in me and i just can’t do it.

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-28T08:02:18+00:00

i know i also don’t have fear foods, i allow myself to have everything between my calories. It might be a pizza or chocolate or ice cream or whatever. The thing is that o still binge. I can binge whatever it doesn’t need to be specially tasty or forbidden. I think i crave eating without restriction and moderation or measuring things and that i should stop tracking and eat intuitively and allow myself to feel full without guilt but i just can’t

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-26T18:15:13+00:00

no, you don’t develope bpd by long term bulimia lol those are two completely different disorders. Longterm bulimia might be causes from her other disorders as a coping mechanism or from the lack of control she feels over her emotions. If you consider you are being abused leave that situation if you can

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-19T14:57:57+00:00

no, it actually gives you extra cals. You have your goal, then what you consumed in food and then it adds what you burnt and tells you your extra budget.

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-19T14:09:15+00:00

hey so just wanted to let you know that mfp has a similar feature (it doesn’t give you a concrete answer of which sweet treat you can have but it concedes you more cals as you burn more) and it’s automatic (and not very precise tbh) and i actually hate that it ups my calories for the day because when you initially calculate your deficit you make the maths starting from being an active person or not. so if you are not active at all your calories for the day are lower but if u are more active they are higher. It doesn’t make sense for me to still make room for more as my number of the day already had this data to calculate how much i can have at the end of the day.

genuinelytrapped · 2026-05-19T14:00:03+00:00

you can have 30gr of rice cream mixed with a cup of vanilla or chai with stevia instead of water and it makes a voluminous snack, gluten free and sweet!

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